It had happened after Isabel and Furlan’s death, the first time. Levi was furious with Erwin, still plotting to kill him. His friends had died for nothing; and it was Erwin’s fault. He was the one who had dragged them outside the walls, forced them to join the Survey Corps. And now, Levi’s friends were gone because of the choice Erwin imposed on him.

Levi spent weeks in silence, not responding to anyone and just going about his business; doing the bare minimum to complete his duties. That strange person with the glasses kept pulling him aside, trying to talk to him, to comfort him, but Levi wasn’t having any of it. He’d simply walked past them, ignored their attempt to aid him.

On the other hand, Erwin hadn’t made any effort to seek him out, apologize, or say anything about the friends he’d lost. That simply made him all the more of a bastard in Levi’s mind, all the more worth killing. He planned his murder over those two weeks of silence; hid his knife in the floorboards of the barracks, sharpened it every night before bed with thoughts of Erwin’s throat being slit by that same instrument. He didn’t know exactly when he would do it, but he was reaching the end of his rope.

His plan was set into action during breakfast that morning, where Erwin had snapped at him for refusing to speak:

“Silence won’t bring them back,” Erwin said, “You’re only dishonoring their memories by sulking about them.”

Levi had given him an enraged glare, but still kept his mouth shut, simply finishing his breakfast with thoughts of wringing Erwin’s neck in his hands. He decided then that his plan had to happen, and soon. He spent the rest of the day detailing his actions in his mind; how he would sneak into Erwin’s office and escape on horseback after he’d done the deed.

That night, he snuck out of the barracks with his knife and scaled the wall to the second floor window of the captains’ building where Erwin stayed. His office light was on, meaning he was still up, doing lord knows what. Probably reading one of those stupid books he always had his abnormally large nose in.

Levi had the blade in his teeth as he peered into the open window, seeing Erwin hunched over his desk, scribbling something down on a piece of parchment. He seemed very focused, so much so that he didn’t notice Levi slipping inside, standing behind him, and taking the knife into his hand. He felt everything in his body focusing on Erwin, the knife rising above his head as he honed in on Erwin’s back, ready to stab him right in the heart.

Suddenly, Erwin whipped around and grasped the knife blade in his hand as Levi shot it down to stab him with it. Levi gasped in surprise, but placed both hands on the handle, trying to force it downwards anyway despite Erwin’s fight back against it. The smell of blood hit Levi’s nose as Erwin’s hand began to ooze with it, still holding the blade back as he stared up at Levi with an icy gaze.

“Levi,” Erwin ordered, “Stop this. Killing me won’t bring you solace. It won’t avenge them.”

“Shut up,” Levi growled, “Shut up! Stop talking about them! You don’t… don’t deserve to talk about them like that!”

Erwin continued to fight back against Levi’s drive with the knife, and Levi noticed there was no hint of fear in the man’s eyes. Wasn’t he scared? Didn’t he know Levi was here to murder him, and that Levi didn’t fail when he decided on something? In fact, the captain appeared to be completely calm, which only infuriated Levi more. He ripped the knife back out of Erwin’s hand, slicing it up with the blade before he raised it again and brought it down to stab him. Erwin dodged the hit, rolling out of his chair and onto his feet. He towered over Levi easily, though most people did.

Levi screamed, “You bastard!” before running at him with the knife, a concentrated yell tearing from his throat. His anger was getting the best of him now, making him lose control of his body functions as he violently flailed towards Erwin with the knife.

Erwin fell to his knees swiftly and grasped Levi around the legs, throwing him over his shoulder and letting him tumble onto the floor head-first behind him. Levi grunted, the knife flying from his hand. He scrambled to find it, hands desperately reaching out for it as it scuttled across the floor. Erwin’s huge body tackled him, sitting on his hips and pinning his hands above his head. Levi squirmed, fighting back against him as hard as he could, but Erwin had caught him off guard and taken his strength from him.

“Shh,” Erwin was cooing, “Shh, Levi. You don’t want to kill me. You know that’s not going to make you feel better, don’t you?”

Levi shot him a furious look, teeth gnashing as he shouted, “You don’t know anything about me!”

Erwin leaned down, breath intermingling with Levi’s. He smelled of whiskey, and Levi recalled seeing an empty glass on his desk when he’d stepped in through the window. The man couldn’t be drunk, as his reflexes were far too good to be inebriated. But Levi grimaced from the smell, hocking back a loogie and spitting it onto Erwin’s face. The man didn’t even flinch, Levi’s spit rolling down his cheek. Disgusting, Levi thought to himself.

“Levi, calm down,” Erwin whispered, “I need you to calm yourself. Can you do that for me?”

Levi shook his head, growling like a dog as he thrashed about in Erwin’s hold angrily. Erwin held him ever firmer, holding Levi’s hands with a one-handed grip before using his free hand to lift and slam Levi’s head into the wooden floor below.

“Listen,” Erwin spoke in a deep but calm voice, “You will calm down. I order it. And you’ll stop acting like a rabid dog. You’re more human than that. I know you are.”

Levi winced from the pounding in his head, his teeth knocking together when Erwin slammed his head down. He groaned in some pain, taking a few deep breaths. Maybe if he calmed himself, he could work out a better plan to kill Erwin. He wasn’t able to think straight when he was so furious.

“There you go,” Erwin murmured soothingly, running his free fingers through Levi’s bangs and pushing them out of his face, “Shh, there you go. Be obedient for me, that’s right.”

Levi gritted his teeth, trying to calm his beating heart and the fury that was coursing through him from every word Erwin uttered. He wanted to slit his throat so badly, to shut him up for good.

“Are you calm?” Erwin asked.

Levi glared up at him, finally settling down now. He knew his anger was only making things worse, more difficult for him to focus, and he wanted to gain back some of Erwin’s trust so that the man would get off him and Levi could retrieve his knife. He nodded coldly, not taking his eyes away from Erwin’s. The blonde smirked, pulling his face away from Levi’s and sighing, “I suppose I’ll have to show you who you belong to, won’t I, Levi? Because you clearly don’t understand your place here.”

Levi gasped when Erwin rolled his hips downwards, the bulge in his pants rubbing against Levi’s clothed cock. Levi wasn’t sure if it was intentional or not, as he couldn’t tell from Erwin’s now-stoic expression. He bit his lip hard, staring up at Erwin in disbelief, “What the fuck do you think you’re doing?”

“Showing you your place,” Erwin snapped, reaching over and picking up Levi’s knife, “Now, I’m going to let you go, and you will take your place over the edge of my desk.”

“You gonna fuck me?” Levi snarled, “You sick fuck.”

“Absolutely not,” Erwin muttered, climbing off Levi and holding his knife by the handle, “Apologies if I got you excited; that wasn’t my intention at all.”

Levi could feel himself getting embarrassed, the tips of his ears reddening. He sniffed and looked away, grumbling, “I wasn’t excited.”

He felt a little stupid for assuming that Erwin would fuck him. He’d just thought… well, he wasn’t sure what he’d thought. With Erwin’s weight off him now, he slowly rose to his feet, fists clenched at his side. Erwin motioned to the desk, twirling Levi’s knife in his hand. Levi was busy watching the knife, waiting for Erwin to fuck up and drop it. That was the knife that Kenny had given him as a child. Though he didn’t particularly like Kenny, the knife was one of his most cherished possessions. But Erwin didn’t fuck up; he simply stopped twirling and held it by the handle again, using the tip to point to the desk.

“Come on,” Erwin demanded, “Over the desk.”

“If you’re not going to fuck me, then why the hell do you want me over your desk?” Levi questioned with a raise of an eyebrow, wondering what Erwin’s intentions were. Though he was calmer now, he still didn’t trust the man. He made his way over to the desk, standing in front of it but not moving any further.

“Levi, I’ve given you an order,” Erwin commanded with a stern look on his face, “Now follow it.”

Levi shot him an irritated look before bending over the desk hesitantly. He kept his head turned and eyes on Erwin, not wanting to let down his guard. This was a fairly vulnerable position for him to be in, but Erwin had his knife, so he’d do what he asked for now. Erwin tucked the knife away in his pant pocket, placing a hand on either side of Levi’s hips, fingers hooking in Levi’s belt loops.

“You’re going to receive a punishment,” Erwin murmured as he tugged Levi’s pants down to his thighs, his white briefs catching and going down along with them. Levi could feel himself getting incredibly embarrassed and uncomfortable, though he wasn’t sure why. He’d been naked in front of others before, plenty of others. He’d been beaten naked before; nakedness was just bodies to him. But for some reason, being like this in front of Erwin had him anxious.

Levi had never had his ass beat; Kenny used to whack him on the arm or over the head from time to time, but said that whooping kids was for losers. As he got older, Kenny let others beat up on him to keep him in line. He listened to the sound of a belt buckle coming undone, and watched Erwin pull the belt from its loop. Levi let his fingers cling to the edge of the desk above his head, knowing he’d need to brace himself. Why am I letting him do this to me? Levi thought, still trying to plot ways that he could escape this situation. But he wasn’t stupid, and now that he was calmer, he found it a better option to just play along until he could figure a way out.

A loud crack resounded throughout the room, and Levi couldn’t help but cry out at the sting on his ass, his grip tightening on the edge of the desk. The hit sent a pang of pain up his spine, prickly pinpoints of hurt on the stripe Erwin had painted on his ass. Levi yelped as a second hit soon followed, biting his lip hard to keep himself from making any more noise. This was certainly humiliating, but Levi would bear with it until he could get back at Erwin somehow.

“If you apologize,” Erwin muttered, “I’ll stop.”

He beat Levi’s ass with three more loud whacks of the belt, and Levi gasped loudly at each hit, gritting his teeth and trying to keep himself quiet. He was not going to give Erwin the satisfaction of a whimper, nor was he going to give in and apologize. But his strong will was waning, especially when he realized his stomach was doing flips with each hit. He felt his cock twitching from the hits, and a sudden realization hit him: he was getting turned on from this. Levi could feel himself scooting up on the desk to try and hide his growing hard-on, embarrassed beyond all belief. Why the hell was he getting turned on from this?

The belt whipped his ass once more, bringing forth that whimper that Levi had been so desperate to hold at bay. Although, he realized after it escaped his mouth that it hadn’t been a whimper at all. In fact, it had been a moan. He heard Erwin’s breath hitch; clearly, the man had heard it. There was no going back now, no trying to hide. Levi felt the tips of his ears turning red, covering his face with his hand.

“Levi,” Erwin voice bellowed through the silence, “Are you aroused by this?”

Levi shook his head quickly, as if he could hide his erection, hide away his true feelings. He did not need Erwin to have the satisfaction of knowing he liked this. He heard the man chuckle behind him, and felt a palm grope at his ass cheek. Levi couldn’t help himself, he let out a quiet sigh at the feeling, sparks of pleasure shooting up his spine.

He’d had his encounters with sex before, but very rarely and only with women. Though there had been that one time with Furlan when they were drunk… but Levi tried to push that thought from his mind, not wanting to dwell on his dead friend. Levi had never been dominated by a man in this way, especially not in a way that had made him aroused.

“I think you are,” Erwin accused, running his fingers from Levi’s ass to his hip before squeezing the skin there gently, “Would you like me to take care of you?”

Levi bit his lip hard, grumbling swears under his breath. He wasn’t going to give in and let himself be so vulnerable around Erwin like this. He simply didn’t trust the man enough. Although, when did that ever matter to him? The women he’d had sex with before weren’t exactly people he’d trust either. It was just a matter of opportunity. So that’s what this could be, couldn’t it? Merely an opportunity…

“How about I make a deal with you?” Erwin murmured, voice soft and smooth like honey, as if he was trying to sweeten the deal, “If you apologize, I’ll touch you, take care of your erection. There’s no use hiding it, Levi. And no need to be embarrassed. Here.”

He pressed his clothed cock against Levi’s bare ass, and Levi couldn’t help but gasp quietly at the feeling, realizing with shock that Erwin too was a little hard. So they were going to… what? What was Erwin’s plan to touch him? Would he get down on his knees? Levi didn’t think so, as the position would put him more at-risk, leave him open to Levi’s possible attack. But then… what would they do together? How far would they go? And was Levi really about to let this happen?

“You see?” Erwin gently ground his erection against Levi’s ass before pulling away, “You’ve also got me quite aroused, Levi. So no need to be embarrassed.”

Levi whimpered from the feeling, his cock practically jumping from the warmth of Erwin’s groin against his ass. His eyes were darting around, as if trying to figure a way out of this situation. He certainly was mulling over Erwin’s proposal, though he wasn’t exactly sure he wanted to apologize.

“What do you say?” Erwin asked impatiently, thumbs rubbing soothing circles into Levi’s hips.

“Go to hell,” Levi snapped out of instinct. He bit his lip after saying it, regretting the words a little, and also somewhat fearful that Erwin might rescind his offer now.

“Ah ah ah,” Erwin scolded, thick fingers tracing down along his asscheeks, “Try again. What do you say?”

Levi grumbled some swears under his breath, staring down at the wooden desk below him and trying to focus his thoughts to figure out what he wanted. Did he want this man… his… his enemy, to do sexual things to him? Was he really that desperate for touch? He supposed he was a little touch-starved. Since Isabel and Furlan had… well, he just hadn’t been hugged or touched since then. He was craving that gentle touch of Erwin’s hands, craving something that would perhaps take his mind off all the things he’d been stressing about.

“I’m sorry…” Levi muttered, barely audible.

There was a small pause before Erwin replied, “Excuse me? I couldn’t quite hear that.”

Levi scoffed and rolled his eyes. Of course the bastard didn’t hear him. What an asshole. Levi hesitated, not wanting to have to say it again. He bit his lip to prevent any angry remarks from escaping. Then, he tried a little louder, “I said ‘m sorry, asshole.”

“Now now,” Erwin chuckled softly, “No need for name-calling. I quite appreciate your apology, Levi. Now for my part of the bargain…”

His large palms grasped at Levi’s asscheeks, taking the fatty muscle into his hands and playing with it like putty. Levi was doing his best to stay silent, not wanting to give Erwin any satisfaction of his noises. Erwin spread him open before warm saliva was spit upon his opening, causing Levi’s eyes to widen and his fists to clench with some surprise. A thick digit ran up and down over his rim, spreading the spit over the furled entrance.

Levi was really, really trying to hold himself together, but it had been so long since he’d been touched like this. He’d fingered himself once or twice before out of pure curiosity, and that one drunken night with Furlan, he’d been on the bottom, so he knew what the feeling would be like, and his mouth was open slightly with anticipation of what was coming.

“You appear excited,” Erwin noted, “You’re welcome to make noise, Levi.”

“Fuck you,” Levi grunted, “I don’t make noise.”

He could hear the smugness in Erwin’s voice, “Hmm, I think I can change that.”

Levi grit his teeth, now thoroughly determined to stay silent. Erwin would not win; Levi wouldn’t let the damn idiot be so smug. Erwin gently worked him open, pressing his finger in to the first knuckle and wriggling the finger around. Levi was completely tense from holding back his noises, but he tried to relax around the object inside him to allow it further inside. Erwin continued pressing the finger in further until it was all the way in, stroking at his walls carefully. It was as if Erwin didn’t want to break him, which is how many people tended to handle him. He wasn’t fragile, even though he was small, and he wished he could convey this to Erwin, but he’d vowed silence, and he was incredibly stubborn.

“You’re wound so tight,” Erwin murmured, finger groping around his insides, “But I’m going to loosen you up, don’t you worry.”

Levi liked that, admittedly. His cock jerked at the words, and he had to keep his lips clamped shut to avoid a moan. He could feel his legs twitching from pleasure, and tried to will them to stop. He didn’t want to give anything away now, not since he was trying so hard to keep Erwin’s satisfaction at a low. The man began slipping a second finger in next to the first, a burning feeling pooling in Levi’s lower stomach. He was going to make his lip bleed if he kept biting on it like he was.

“You’re doing well,” Erwin praised quietly, “I can tell you like it. Come on, let me hear you.”

“Never,” Levi growled, fingers curled into fists above his head.

He was certainly enjoying himself, liking the praise that Erwin had given him. It made his stomach flip. Since when did anything Erwin said to him make his stomach flip like that? What the hell was this bastard doing to him? Erwin’s fingers were scissoring at his opening, working on stretching him out as best he could. Levi sucked in deep breaths, trying to keep himself calm, which was becoming increasingly difficult.

“Perhaps I should make it an order,” Erwin threatened, “Would you do it then?”

Levi glanced back at him to shoot him a glare, and he was noticing now just how into this Erwin appeared to be. His cheeks were dusted red, eyes focused on his fingers going in and out of Levi, lips slightly parted. He was clearly aroused, tenting in his pants and looking incredibly uncomfortable. His eyes met Levi’s, a smirk appearing on his face. Levi was suddenly worried that perhaps he looked the same. He quickly turned away, staring back down at the desk below him as Erwin fucked his fingers into him at a steadier pace.

“It must be hard to keep that all inside,” Erwin cooed, fingers circling inside his hole in great swooping motions, “Why not just let it out?”

Levi shook his head stubbornly, slapping a hand over his mouth when Erwin rolled his fingers over his sweet spot. Fuck, he thought as a muffled moan escaped through his fingers. Erwin laughed softly, which made Levi want to turn around and smack him. He didn’t understand what was so damn funny about this, why Erwin was so intent on mocking him.

“There you go,” Erwin fucked into that sensitive spot with his fingers, “Now just move your hand.”

Levi removed his hand shakily, but still refused to let himself moan freely. Erwin slid a third finger inside and kept pumping the digits in and out, stretching him open. Levi was barely able to touch the floor, standing on his tiptoes over the edge of Erwin’s desk. The fingers slowly retreated, his hole reluctant to let them go. He could’ve cried at the loss, but his vow of silence meant that he merely clenched his fists and squirmed a little.

He listened to Erwin’s pants being unzipped, falling around his massive thighs. Levi turned his head to take a peek at the man’s cock, his eyes widening when he saw it. It was huge. He was suddenly incredibly nervous, excitement and jitters filling his stomach. He wanted it, but how the hell would that fit inside him? Erwin pressed the pre-cum covered cock head to Levi’s opening, and Levi’s mouth dropped open as Erwin began pushing inside. His toes curled inside his boots, fists clenched so tightly that his nails dug into his skin. Oh my god, Levi thought, his entire mind muddled with lust as Erwin continued to push in to the hilt.

“Mmph,” Erwin grunted as he bottomed out, cock rubbing directly against Levi’s prostate and sending sparks up his spine, “There it is. That’s what you were waiting for, wasn’t it?”

Levi’s eyes were half-lidded now, drool dribbling down his chin when Erwin began short thrusts into him over and over, rolling his hips forward. He barely gave Levi time to adjust to the size before he started thrusting. His lip quivered as he fought to hold back moans, face feeling hot and red just from doing so. They simply fucked like that for the first few minutes, Erwin just fucking him so nicely while Levi silently took it, legs shaking and chest constricted from holding back.

That’s when Erwin switched up the pace, gripping Levi’s hips tighter and smacking his balls against Levi’s ass as he fucked into him brutally. Levi couldn’t help but gasp, a choked moan being pushed out of him as if he couldn’t even help it. Levi could feel himself letting go finally, his fists unclenching and his whole body relaxing as he decided to just allow himself to enjoy it for once. Erwin be damned. Levi would enjoy himself if he wanted to.

“That’s right, gorgeous,” Erwin encouraged, “Keep moaning for me.”

Levi groaned, his cock trapped between the desk and his stomach, but rubbing uncomfortably against the wood with each thrust. Erwin’s ridiculously huge cock was fucking him so good, he was unable to help his moaning now.

“Fuck,” Levi managed to get out, the feeling in his stomach only building with each thrust. Erwin didn’t just have a big dick, he knew how to use it, and Levi was certainly enjoying the hell out of this.

“Your noises are just beautiful,” Erwin praised, “You feel wonderful, Levi.”

Levi whimpered, tears building in the corners of his eyes. His hand flew down to his cock, pumping at it desperately as he felt himself nearing the edge. Erwin was rolling his hips into his sweet spot over and over, breath heavy and fingers likely leaving bruises on Levi’s hips from how hard he was holding them. Levi cried out as he finally came, strings of white painting the desk below him. Erwin kept fucking him through it, a low groan escaping his mouth as he came inside Levi shortly after. That sticky warm feeling inside of him just made Levi all the more turned on, his spent cock twitching sensitively in his hand.

Erwin pulled out and tugged his pants up, Levi taking a second to recover before he pushed himself off the desk, standing on shaky legs. He slowly pulled on his pants, not looking at Erwin. He’d come here to kill the man, how the hell had this happened? He quickly collected himself, looking around for his knife until he remembered Erwin had it.

Levi turned to face the taller man, looking down at the ground. He felt a little embarrassed from what they’d just done, and didn’t know how to face the man in front of him now that they were done. Levi had never been this worked up over sex, this red in the face. He didn’t understand what was different about Erwin; what was making him so flushed.

“I need my knife,” Levi grumbled, staring at his boots.

He felt two fingers on his chin, tilting his face up so that they were looking at one another. Levi could feel his face getting hotter by the second, fighting back the urge to smack the shit out of Erwin for touching him so intimately. Erwin leaned in, and Levi realized the man was going to kiss him. Levi instinctually parted his lips, puckering them for the kiss he was about to receive. But Erwin merely chuckled at Levi’s actions, making him feel a little sheepish and stupid.

“No,” Erwin responded with a coy smile before letting go of Levi’s chin.

Levi could feel the fury coursing through him all over again as he growled, “Why the hell not?!”

“Why would I give you back a weapon you’re not supposed to have in the first place?” Erwin replied nonchalantly, “I wouldn’t be doing my job if I just gave it back to you.”

Levi clenched his fists at his sides, feeling a ping of anger and fear in his chest. He was fearful mostly because he didn’t want to lose the knife, considering it had some form of sentimental value to it.

“Please,” Levi tried, gritting his teeth, “It’s… it’s my… the knife… it means a lot to me.”

“Oh?” Erwin raised an eyebrow, taking the knife from his pocket and twirling it in his hand, “Well, that’s good to know. I’ll take good care of it for you.”

Levi glared up at him before darting his hand out to grab the knife, but the bastard held it up as high as he could, and Levi couldn’t reach. He was even more furious that Erwin had essentially poked fun at his height by holding the knife up in this way, knowing he couldn’t get it.

“You… You…” Levi fought to find the right words, fists clenched at his sides.

“Careful, Levi,” Erwin chuckled, “Don’t get yourself into trouble again.”

Levi wanted to strangle him all over again. He turned on his heel and headed back towards the open window, planning to climb back down the wall the way he came in. Erwin grasped his upper arm, tugging him close and whispering into his ear, “That was quite lovely, Levi. You’ll come to my office tomorrow at noon. Yes?”

Levi could feel himself blushing all over again. He tore his arm away and grumbled a quiet yes before heading to the window and swinging his legs over the sill. When he looked back at Erwin, the man was smiling at him with that stupid charming look on his face. Levi began to climb down the wall, heart thumping in his chest from what had just happened.

He wasn’t sure why he’d agreed to come back to Erwin’s office the following day. Had he really enjoyed the sex that much? Or was it something else that was making him want to go back? Maybe he could steal his knife back, or bribe Erwin with something sexual in return for getting his knife. He wasn’t sure what his plan was, but now that he’d agreed to it, he spent a lot of time on his walk back to the barracks thinking about what he might do with Erwin. He found his thoughts muddled with sexual ideas of what Erwin could do to him, and he could feel his dick fighting to get hard once again. Levi shook himself of the thoughts, sneaking into the barracks and climbing up to his bunk.

“Where’d you go?” His bunkmate, Jonas, asked into the darkness.

“None of your business,” Levi grumbled, looking for a pair of pajamas in his backpack. He was planning on going to the showers to clean himself up.

“You reek of sweat,” Jonas laughed softly, “You go on a run or something?”

Jonas was always so nosy. He asked too many questions and always needed to know what Levi was up to. And he was good at figuring things out too, which made him all the more annoying. Levi climbed down from the bunk with his pajamas and bar of soap, ignoring the man for the moment.

“You visit a brothel or something?” Jonas deduced out of nowhere, “Your hair is all messy and you look all hot and bothered.”

Levi bit his lip and snapped, “None of your business, Jonas. I ain’t telling you shit.”

Jonas merely chuckled at Levi’s words and shrugged, turning over in his sheets. Levi headed to the showers and cleaned himself up, getting into his pajamas and heading back to his bed. As he lay in that top bunk, he was thinking about just what had caused him to go out of his comfort zone and let the Captain fuck him. Was he really just that desperate? He’d never felt a sexual attraction like that one before, and it worried him. He wanted to stay angry, to stay furious with the man who had caused his friends’ deaths. So why was he feeling this way?

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Levi spent the entire next morning under stress. He wasn’t sure why, but he was so worried about his meeting with Erwin later that day. He’d barely slept, though that was pretty normal. Jonas snored, the other men in the barracks snored too, and he spent many a sleepless night just staring at the ceiling trying to tune out the noises.

But last night, he was just thinking about the sex he’d had with Erwin. He was anxious about it, overthinking it. How had he let it happen? What was wrong with him? He felt incredibly embarrassed for having allowed such a thing to happen, for having moaned so desperately for it, for giving Erwin any sense that he’d enjoyed himself. Why was he so fucking embarrassing?

Levi spent the morning training, running laps and showing off some of his slicing techniques to the newer cadets. Even the veterans were impressed with him, which he didn’t understand. What he did was just… well, it couldn’t be explained. It came naturally to him, there was no teaching others. So he found demonstrating for them to be a pointless exercise; he felt like an animal in a zoo, the way they stared at him with such awe.

But noon rolled around quickly, faster than Levi had hoped it would, and he began the walk to the captains’ quarters. The hallways in that building were so long and ominous, and of course Erwin’s office was all the way at the end of the dark hallway. He got to that beautiful oak door of the office. Erwin’s door was very ornate; carved with a beautiful border that contained swoops and curves. Levi lifted his hand to run his fingers along one of the curls in the wood, before he went to knock on the door. But he heard a “come in” before he’d even knocked, and he was wondering how the hell Erwin had sensed his presence.

Levi opened the door and walked in, seeing Erwin sitting there with Levi’s knife in his hands, running his fingers over the blade. Levi instantly shut the door, his fingers clenching angrily at his sides as he watched the bastard tease him with the knife he’d taken from Levi.

“No need to get upset,” Erwin smiled softly, “I’m returning this to you.”

  Levi’s eyes widened slightly before they narrowed in suspicion. He didn’t trust Erwin’s intentions, and this had to be some sort of joke. Erwin raised an eyebrow at him, holding the knife out by the blade so that Levi could grab the handle. Levi kept staring at him suspiciously, walking over slowly and reaching his hand out to take the knife. Erwin let him take it, that stupid charming smile on his face. What the hell was he doing?

“Why?” Levi asked as he wrapped his hand around the handle of the knife and took it from Erwin.

Erwin stood, hands in his pockets, and walked to the empty wall next to his bookcase on the other side of the room. The wall was a cream color, and Erwin leaned up against it, standing straight.

“Go ahead,” Erwin spoke in an inviting tone, “Take your shot.”

Levi stared at him with some surprise. Erwin wanted him to… to just throw his knife at him? Right now? And he was just going to give Levi a free pass to do so? Levi was confused to say the least, his eyebrows furrowing as he stared at Erwin. Surely this was some kind of trick.

“What’s the catch?” Levi glared, twirling the knife between his fingers. He didn’t even have to look anymore as he did that. It was a nervous habit, to pass the knife between his fingers nonchalantly.

“No catch,” Erwin shrugged, “I killed your friends. So take your shot.”

Levi stopped twirling the knife, holding it by the handle again and running his fingers along the blade, “Are you trying to have me arrested? Is that it? I throw a knife at you and you call in your guards to arrest me?”

“No,” Erwin shook his head, “You have my word. There’s no catch.”

Levi rubbed his nose with his finger, staring at Erwin cautiously, as if waiting for the man to pounce at any moment. Erwin didn’t look scared. He was merely standing there as if the two were having a casual conversation, and not talking about Levi ending Erwin’s life with a simple knife throw. Levi gripped the handle, lining up his vision with Erwin’s chest. He was going to hit him directly in the heart, was going to kill the bastard for causing Isabel and Furlan’s deaths. He was going to… to…

Levi gripped the handle tighter, his emotions building in his stomach and chest. The fury he was feeling only grew. He was going to kill Erwin Smith. To avenge his friends’ deaths. He wouldn’t let their deaths be in vain. Levi grit his teeth, pulling the knife back. He yelled as he threw the knife forwards, all the anger and sadness leaving with the knife. Erwin didn’t even flinch, and the knife sunk into the wall next to his head. Levi was breathing heavily, staring at the spot in the wall that he’d hit. Had he done that on purpose?

“You… you missed,” Erwin murmured, sounding somewhat incredulous.

“I don’t miss,” Levi muttered, walking to the wall and yanking the knife out as he stared into Erwin’s eyes, “I never miss.”

It was the truth. Levi never missed. He could throw a knife into someone’s heart without even looking. So why had he missed, seemingly on purpose? He took a step backwards, away from Erwin.

“Would you like to try again?” Erwin asked, and Levi was sure the man must’ve been suicidal to ask for Levi to throw a knife at him repeatedly.

“No,” Levi found himself saying, tucking the knife into his boot, “I don’t miss.”

Levi was feeling a little sick. How could he just have passed up the opportunity to murder Erwin? Perhaps it had been too easy, maybe Levi wanted to be more in control of Erwin’s murder, rather than the other way around. Something about the situation had set him on edge, and Erwin was staring at him with slightly widened eyes.

“So you’re saying that… you missed on purpose?” Erwin asked, thick eyebrows raised in confusion.

“Dunno,” Levi shrugged, “Just leave it alone. Before I change my mind.”

Erwin’s face broke out into a grin, an annoying grin at that. Levi instantly shot him a horrid glare, “What the hell are you grinning about?”

Erwin chuckled, “You missed on purpose, Levi.”

So? Levi thought to himself, finding himself getting more irritated by the second, by both himself and Erwin. Why hadn’t he just thrown the knife into Erwin’s chest like he’d planned? What had stopped him?

Levi growled, “And? Don’t read into it, bastard. I just don’t want to follow your damn orders.”

Erwin took a step towards Levi, and Levi took a step backwards, still glaring up at Erwin with a look of distrust. Erwin reached a hand out and touched Levi’s forearm, running his fingers up and down. He took another step closer, the two mere inches apart now. Levi was staring up at him, allowing the touch before he tore his arm away. Was Erwin really trying to come onto him after Levi had thrown a knife at him? What a freak…

“You seemed to enjoy following my orders last night,” Erwin murmured sensually.

Levi crossed his arms and rolled his eyes, conflicted about the situation, “Shut the fuck up, bastard.”

Erwin smiled softly, fingers raised to Levi’s hair as he ran them through his bangs, pushing them out of Levi’s face. Levi wanted to snarl at him, bite at his hand like a feral dog. But he remained calm for the moment, curious as to Erwin’s intentions. Clearly, the man was trying to bang him again, but he just didn’t understand why Erwin would do that after having just given Levi the chance to kill him.

“Shh,” Erwin cooed, fingers gently rubbing at Levi’s scalp as he leaned down, “Would you like me to order you some more, Levi?”

Levi had to admit that the gentle caress felt nice in his hair, and he wanted to lean into the touch, but he was so irritated. Who did Erwin think he was? He just thought he could walk all over Levi, take whatever he wanted and give whatever he deemed was necessary.

“No,” Levi grunted, “I’d like to be dismissed, sir.”

He emphasized the sir, trying to keep their relationship professional, if that was even possible at this point. Erwin’s lips were close to Levi’s now, and Levi could smell the toothpaste on the man’s breath as he whispered, “Would you really? Well, I’ll give you a choice then. If you want to stay, go bend over my desk. If you want to be dismissed, all you need to do is kiss me.”

Levi swallowed thickly, huffing a little, “You’re such an ass. I’m not kissing you.”

“Just a quick one,” Erwin muttered, “It doesn’t have to be anything special.”

Levi didn’t particularly want to stay right now. He was too conflicted over what had happened with Erwin and the knife. He wasn’t in the mood to fuck, let alone let Erwin fuck him. Levi shot Erwin a look of annoyance before he pecked the man’s lips, just wanting to get out of there.

Erwin smiled down at him, moving away from him and removing his hand from Levi’s hair, “Alright, Levi. You’re dismissed.”

Levi turned on his heel and stormed out of the office, happy to have his knife but extremely confused about what had just happened. Why didn’t he kill Erwin when he’d been given the chance to? He could’ve done it so easily: thrown the knife into Erwin’s chest, retrieved it, and ran. It would’ve been so easy. But he missed, and intentionally. Why had he done that?

Levi headed towards the barracks, knowing they would be empty. It was lunch time, and everyone would be at the mess hall. But Levi didn’t really eat much; didn’t like to, not since his friends had died. He preferred to hide snacks in his bed, and eat them when he did feel like eating, which wasn’t often.

He climbed up into his bunk, laying there and staring up at the ceiling. He retrieved the knife from his boot, examining it carefully. The handle was carved from red oak, with little geometric designs in it. The blade was silver and sharp, as Levi sharpened it whenever he could get the chance to.

If he was smart, this blade would be covered in Erwin’s blood, but it wasn’t. Levi didn’t understand his emotions; didn’t understand why he’d made such a decision. He was usually so in tune with his thoughts, with the decisions he made. Why had this caught him off guard? He sighed heavily, feeling his chest tightening with worry. He’d passed up the opportunity to get revenge for Isabel and Furlan.

Regret and guilt filled his stomach. He’d failed them. He’d betrayed them. And for what? For a good fuck? Levi placed the knife under his pillow and rubbed at his forehead in stress, feeling sick to his stomach. He’d passed up an opportunity that he couldn’t get back, and he just didn’t understand why.

Levi didn’t understand what he’d done wrong. Erwin hadn’t spoken to him since the knife encounter a week prior. And not even that, but Levi was almost positive the man was pointedly ignoring him. He knew this because he’d sat down at the table across from Erwin in the mess hall, hoping to talk to him. But Erwin had merely stood and abandoned his tray of food, heading out of the mess hall and likely back to his office. Levi hadn’t been able to get in to see Erwin in his office either. Every time he knocked, nobody answered, and when he tried to talk to the person with the glasses (whose name he found out was Hange), they had explained that Erwin was probably just busy. But Levi didn’t think so. Erwin had made time to see Levi before, so why couldn’t he make time now? Why was he purposefully avoiding Levi?

But after two weeks of blatant ignoring, Levi was called to Shadis’ office, where he found Erwin sitting across from the commander. Levi and Erwin exchanged a small glance of surprise before Erwin looked away, focusing all his attention on their commanding officer.

“You wanted to see me, sir?” Levi asked quietly, closing the door behind him.

“I want you to take Levi into town,” Commander Shadis explained to Erwin, “He’s just gotten his first paycheck, and he’ll need someone to show him around the marketplace.”

Erwin was clearly put off by this, shoulders set backwards as if his feathers had been ruffled. Levi didn’t particularly want to go into town with Erwin. He’d been trying to get the man to talk to him for weeks now, and if Erwin didn’t want to talk to him, then so be it. Two could play at that game.

“Yes, sir,” Erwin replied, ever the obedient captain, “I understand. I’ll take him right away.”

Levi was feeling incredibly uncomfortable as he followed Erwin back out of the commander’s office. Erwin said not a single word to him the whole way to the taxi carriages out back, and Levi kept his arms crossed to show that he wasn’t going to talk either. Erwin would have to talk first if he wanted them to talk at all; Levi wasn’t going to give in.

They climbed into the carriage silently, and Erwin leaned forward to give the driver directions to drop them off in town. Levi had his paycheck in his pocket; he’d cashed it in this morning at the military bank and hidden half of it away in his mattress. Erwin closed the sliding blacked out window that separated them from the driver and leaned back in his seat, staring at Levi with an intense look on his face.

Levi momentarily forgot his vow of silence. Erwin’s face had irritated him significantly, and Levi immediately shot a glare in Erwin’s direction, “What the fuck are you looking at?”

Erwin looked a little taken aback by Levi’s outburst, glancing away from him and muttering, “My apologies. Didn’t mean to stare.”

Levi rolled his eyes, grumbling under his breath about how annoying Erwin was. He didn’t understand why the bastard had to be such an asshole. First, he’d ignored the hell out of Levi for a whole week when Levi hadn’t done anything to warrant such a thing, and now that they were going into town together, Erwin was just going to pretend as though that hadn’t even happened? As if Levi hadn’t been bent over Erwin’s desk a little over a week ago, hadn’t thrown a knife at Erwin’s head and intentionally missed, as if Erwin hadn’t been ignoring him since then. That really irked Levi.

“So you’re just gonna pretend like nothing happened?” Levi snapped.

Erwin sucked in a deep breath, looking irritated as well, “I assure you, Levi. I have no idea what you’re talking about.”

Levi crossed his arms, growling, “You’ve been ignoring me all week! After… After we had sex and… and then you told me to throw a knife at you - you just ignored me!”

Levi watched as Erwin’s annoyed frown turned into a delighted smirk, and he could’ve strangled the bastard he was so furious. How the hell could that idiot be smiling at a time like this? Levi wanted to smack the shit out of him for looking so damn smug.

“What?!” Levi asked in exasperation, “What the hell are you smiling about?”

“It’s very sweet to know that you missed me, Levi,” Erwin chuckled, “I didn’t think you’d notice if I didn’t speak to you.”

Levi went to shout back at him, but realized what Erwin was saying, and turned a violent shade of red, which had Erwin laughing softly at him. Levi opened and closed his mouth, flabbergasted by what Erwin had said. He… He didn’t miss Erwin! That’s not at all the reason he was so angry over Erwin ignoring him!

“I didn’t miss you!” Levi scoffed.

Erwin grinned, reaching his hand across to touch Levi’s knee, fingers tracing up to his thigh. Levi held his breath for a moment, watching and waiting to see what the man would do. He quickly came to his senses, smacking his hand away and shooting him a nasty look. Erwin merely laughed again, and Levi was really getting close to reaching his hand back and punching the fuck out of Erwin’s damn crooked nose.

“I think that you did miss me, Levi,” Erwin murmured, his words dripping like honey from his tongue, “I think you missed my touch… my lips… maybe even my cock-”

“Shut your damn mouth,” Levi snarled, “I didn’t miss anything about you.”

“Then why were you so concerned about me ignoring you?” Erwin asked, reaching his hand out again to touch Levi’s leg.

Levi didn’t have an answer for that. He’d simply been irritated by it, but he didn’t really understand the reason why. This time, he let Erwin’s hand wander up his thigh, feeling his cock twitch in his pants. He gasped lightly at the feeling before smacking Erwin’s hand away again. But Erwin wasn’t having it this time. He moved to crowd Levi against the carriage seat, his knee between Levi’s legs and his arms framing Levi’s small body. He stared down at Levi with a lustful, stern look on his face.

“Tell me, Levi,” Erwin leaned his head down so that his breath tickled Levi’s ear, “Did you miss the way I made you feel? You were, after all, so desperate for me once I got going. I could give it to you again, if you’d like. But only on one condition.”

Levi raised an eyebrow up at him, preparing himself to fight Erwin off if he had to. He was growing considerably aroused at their predicament; Erwin hovering over him like this, speaking such beautiful words in his ear, his fingers tickling his skin. But Levi was curious as to what the condition was, curious enough that he was willing to play this little game just to find out. He wouldn’t give in, not just yet, but he was going to at least ask.

“And what would that be?” Levi asked, a cold look on his face as he stared up at Erwin.

Erwin pressed a tender kiss to Levi’s temple before leaning his head against Levi’s and growling in his ear, “You have to beg me for it.”

There was no way in hell that Levi was going to beg Erwin for sex. It just wasn’t going to happen, not in a million years. Levi shot him a glare, shaking his head stubbornly, “In your fucking dreams, blondie.”

Erwin began to kiss and suck at Levi’s neck, peppering little kisses before planting his wet lips there and beginning to lick and suck at the skin. Levi gasped, raising his hand to smack Erwin across the face, but Erwin caught his wrist and pinned it to the cushion, doing the same to his other wrist before he lifted his face away from Levi’s neck to rest their foreheads together.

“How about we make a deal?” Erwin whispered against his lips, “If you win, I’ll suck your cock right here in the carriage.”

Levi cock twitched at the thought of that, but he tried not to let it show on his face. He didn’t need Erwin to have the satisfaction of knowing his actions were turning Levi on. Even Levi didn’t have an explanation for why that was; it was like his cock had a mind of its own.

“But if I win,” Erwin continued, “You and I are going to an inn, and I get to have my way with you. Is that a deal, Levi?”

Levi honestly wouldn’t mind either of those options, but his pride and competitive nature were opting for a win so that he could dominate Erwin for once. Having the captain on his knees would be quite a sight, and Levi was looking forward to winning whatever game it was Erwin had planned for them. He was determined to win, no matter what it was. He nodded a little at Erwin’s question, waiting for the man to continue explaining.

“Good,” Erwin explained, “The game is: whoever moans first, loses.”

Levi barely had time to register what Erwin had said before the man straddled him and began grinding their clothed erections against one another. Levi gave a sharp intake of breath, but held back any noise that had been ready to escape him.

“It’s gonna take a lot more than that, blondie,” Levi grunted, “You were fucking me last time and I didn’t make a sound.”

“Mmm,” Erwin hummed, circling his hips and grinding his ass against Levi’s cock, “But I got you there, didn’t I? It didn’t take much effort, either.”

Levi bit his lip and placed his hands on Erwin’s hips, letting the man bounce on his cock. It felt incredible, Levi had to admit, and he was growing harder by the second. He could feel the blush on his cheeks from their activities, his breath starting to grow heavier by the second. But he refused to moan. He wouldn’t give Erwin the satisfaction of a moan. Levi didn’t really know what to do; he wasn’t super experienced in sex, but he knew he would have to make Erwin moan somehow. He gripped Erwin’s hips a little tighter before starting to grind up against him, causing Erwin to gasp in some surprise.

“I bet if I sucked your cock, you’d be moaning so loud,” Levi teased, “You’d like that, wouldn’t you? If I got on my knees and wrapped my small lips around your giant cock.”

Erwin’s eyes widened in shock, his mouth opening for a moan, but he bit his lip at the last second to prevent it from coming out. Dammit, Levi thought to himself, So close. Erwin got off him, flipping Levi over so that he was kneeling on the seat, his legs spread and his hands on the back cushion.

“And I bet if I stuck my finger in you, you’d moan like a little whore,” Erwin cooed, starting to tug down Levi’s pants to expose his ass.

Levi gasped, biting down hard on his lip and wriggling his ass teasingly, “Go ahead. I’ll probably be yawning from how much I don’t like it.”

Erwin chuckled softly at Levi’s words, wetting a finger with his saliva before pausing at Levi’s entrance. Levi looked over his shoulder, wondering what was taking so long. Erwin put his hands on either cheek, spreading him open and exposing his hole to the cold air. Levi was nearly drawing blood from how much he was biting down on his lip to avoid making noise, and he was bracing himself for when Erwin would shove his finger inside. But that moment didn’t come. Instead, he watched in shock as Erwin buried his face between Levi’s cheeks, licking a long stripe from Levi’s balls up to his hole. Levi’s whole body shivered with the pleasure he got from that, and a shaky moan slipped from his mouth without him even realizing it at first. He just hadn’t been ready for that at all, and he cursed under his breath, hoping Erwin hadn’t heard the sound.

“That was easy,” Erwin spoke cockily, “I win… now I get to have my way with you, Levi.”

He dove back in between Levi’s cheeks, licking and sucking at his hole hungrily. Levi had never had anyone do this to him before, and his whole body was shaking with the shock of how good it felt. He arched his back, moaning loudly now that he was finally able to let go.

“E-Erwin,” he whimpered, “Oh god.”

“Mmm, you taste amazing, darling,” Erwin kneaded his thumbs into Levi’s cheeks, prying them apart a little further before pressing his wide tongue flat against Levi’s entrance, causing the shorter man to squirm and whine. His cock was trapped in his pants, which hadn’t been pulled down all the way in the front, just enough in the back for Erwin to have access to his ass. His trapped erection was leaking and painful, needing to be freed.

“Oh fuck,” Levi glanced back over his shoulder to watch Erwin licking at his hole with a fervor before starting to push the muscle past his rim. Levi could barely handle the feeling, his legs trembling under Erwin’s actions.

The carriage came to a slow halt, meaning that they had arrived at the town. Erwin pulled away, a satisfied smirk on his face as he wiped the excess drool from his lips. Levi was staring at him with some shock, unable to believe what he’d just done to make Levi so aroused.

“Better get those pants up before somebody sees,” Erwin advised, straightening himself up to make sure it didn’t look like he’d just been tonguing Levi’s asshole.

Levi tugged his pants up, sitting back down on the seat as his cock painfully twitched in his tight pants. Erwin had the smuggest look on his face, and though Levi hated it, he wanted nothing more than for the man to ravage him right now. How long would they have to wait until they got to the inn?

Levi stood impatiently next to Erwin at the inn, fists clenched down at his side. The bastard had been taking his sweet time, chatting up the cashier and making small talk with her. He knew exactly what he was doing; he was just making Levi more desperate by the second, and on purpose. Levi would’ve been furious if he wasn’t so horny. He watched Erwin do his best work at charming the socks off people: endearing smile, deep, cheerful laugh… Levi thought that Erwin could convince anyone of anything if he wanted to; he seemed to have the ability to be a manipulative little fucker.

“Well, we’re just getting some rest in,” Erwin explained, handing over the cash for the room, “We didn’t get much sleep last night. We’re soldiers, you see.”

“I noticed your uniforms,” the cashier smiled up at him dreamily, clearly captivated by his strong features and sweet smile, “You two in the Survey Corps?”

Erwin nodded, taking the key from her when she held it out, “Yes, ma’am. I’m a captain, and this here’s my subordinate.”

Levi didn’t really like being called a subordinate, and he was growing incredibly impatient as he tried to hide his erection. He shifted uncomfortably on his feet, listening to Erwin and the woman talk about this and that; he wasn’t really paying attention. He couldn’t take it anymore. He tugged on Erwin’s sleeve.

Erwin looked down at him with a knowing smile, “Yes, Levi?”

“We… We should get going,” Levi muttered, “I’m tired.”

Erwin smirked briefly before returning to his normal smile, nodding and turning to the cashier, “Ah yes. We should be going now. Thank you, darling. You’ve been so helpful.”

She giggled nervously and waved a little at him, “Of course, sir. Have a nice rest.”

Levi took Erwin by the arm and started leading him down the hall towards their room, hearing Erwin chuckle behind him at his impatience. He couldn’t help it; his cock was straining in his pants painfully, and he needed Erwin to do something to him. He’d never felt so desperate before. It was embarrassing.

They got to the door, and Erwin fiddled with the keys, pretending as though he had trouble fitting it in the key hole before flipping it upside down and trying again. Levi looked at him incredulously at his stupidity before realizing the bastard was doing it on purpose.

“Let me,” Levi snatched the keys from him and unlocked the door easily, mumbling ‘bastard’ under his breath before shoving the keys back into Erwin’s hand and opening the door.

He walked inside, hearing Erwin follow him and close the door behind them, clicking the lock before teasing, “Alright, Levi. Let’s get some rest then.”

As soon as he turned around, Levi leapt at him, arms wrapped around Erwin’s neck and lips planted hungrily on the taller man’s, pressing him against the door and kissing him with a fervor. Erwin gasped in some shock before grinning into the kiss, kissing back and wrapping his arms around Levi’s middle. Levi moved his lips over Erwin’s, reveling in the eagerness that met him. Erwin wanted this too. It was messy, clumsy, but the two made their way towards the queen-sized bed in the center of the room, Erwin pushing Levi back against the mattress before climbing on top of him. The weight of the bed shifted as Erwin climbed on, his massive body enveloping Levi’s easily as he leaned down to press hasty kisses to Levi’s lips before painting a canvas of kisses along his neck and down his collarbone, tearing open buttons as he went to expose more of the skin.

“Quit teasing,” Levi growled, “You made me wait so long for you to finish talking to the damn receptionist, so hurry up and fuck me already.”

Erwin chuckled softly against Levi’s ear, nibbling on his earlobe before whispering, “And I’ll make you wait as long as I want. I’m in charge here, remember? You lost, Levi. And now I get to have my way with you however I wish.”

Erwin pulled away to stare down at him smugly, while Levi glared up at him. He didn’t understand how Erwin could be such an annoying bastard. Didn’t he want this just as much as Levi, if not more? So how could he keep himself so composed, when Levi was losing his mind over how badly he wanted the blonde?

“I’d very much like it if you followed through on your earlier threat,” Erwin cooed, and at first Levi had no idea what he was talking about, “Get down on your knees, sweetheart. I want to see your pretty little lips around my… how did you say it? My giant cock?”

Levi could feel himself turning a furious shade of red, the heat flowing to his cheeks. He did say that, though now he was regretting it. He’d never sucked a dick before, and didn’t really know how to do it. Erwin pulled away, getting off the bed and standing up before starting to unbuckle his belt.

“Unless you’d rather we just take a nap instead…?” Erwin asked with a raise of his eyebrow, pausing his hand movements.

Levi’s eyes flicked from Erwin’s eyes to his tenting cock in his pants, nibbling at his bottom lip before looking sheepishly down at his lap and mumbling, “I… I’ve never… I don’t really know how to.”

Levi didn’t look up, but Erwin’s fingers soon graced his cheek as he murmured, “I’ll teach you. You’ll have to learn at some point, won’t you? If we’re going to continue these types of activities, that is.”

The fingers on his cheek moved to his chin, tilting it up so that Levi was looking into Erwin’s stern but soft blue eyes. Levi didn’t know if he could trust Erwin yet. A week ago, he’d been trying to kill him. But he supposed he did lose a bet, and if Erwin wanted him on his knees, then he’d at least have to try. He wasn’t one to back down from a challenge, anyway. Levi got off the bed, feeling the nerves pooling in his stomach as he fell to his knees in front of Erwin, looking up into the man’s eyes as he reached up and helped take the blonde’s pants and boxers down until they were around his thighs, thick, erect cock spilling from his trousers. The rich, blue veins were protruding from the shaft, the head was red and dripping with pre-cum.

Erwin placed a hand in Levi’s hair, holding his cock in the other and guiding Levi towards it slowly. Levi opened his mouth as wide as he could, knowing it would be difficult to wrap his lips around something so big. He let Erwin placed the cock head on his tongue, rubbing it there. It tasted salty, and suddenly Levi was wondering how clean Erwin was. He seemed like a pretty cleanly man, though Levi couldn’t be entirely sure. It was too late now though, as Erwin was pushing his cock inside Levi’s mouth, letting go of it as the weight rested on Levi’s tongue. Levi’s eyes were still locked with Erwin’s, and he began to do what came natural to him: bobbing his head up and down on the cock and sucking the best he could. He closed his eyes as he did so, sucking in air through his nose. Erwin made no noise at first, and Levi was worried he was doing a bad job. But Erwin’s fist clenched in his hair, a grunt coming from his lips at Levi’s ministrations. He was trying to hold himself back, but Levi wasn’t going to let that happen, not after Erwin had humiliated him by defeating him so easily on the carriage ride over.

Levi’s eyes flicked up to Erwin’s, which were now half-lidded with pleasure, and he took Erwin’s cock in deeper, letting it hit the back of his throat. He had to hold back his gag reflex, breathing deeply through his nose as he swallowed around the head. Erwin’s eyes widened slightly in shock at what Levi was doing, and he tilted his head back to groan, a sound that sent shivers of pleasure up Levi’s spine, made his cock twitch. He hadn’t expected to be turned on by Erwin’s noises, but something about pleasuring the man was getting Levi off as well.

“That’s it,” Erwin praised, fingers running through Levi’s hair and a sigh leaving his lips, “Good boy, Levi… fuck.”

He could tell his actions were making the man unravel from the way he sighed, the way his fingers carded haphazardly through Levi’s inky black hair, the way his hips jerked every time his cock head hit the back of Levi’s throat. Levi didn’t realize until it was too late, but a moan slipped past his lips and vibrated around Erwin’s cock. He was really getting off on this, and he couldn’t help himself. His cock was straining in his pants, reaching one hand to palm at himself for some relief.

“No touching yourself, Levi,” Erwin ordered, tugging at his hair lightly, “I’ll touch you when I’m ready to.”

Levi whimpered and shot the man a small glare before letting his teeth graze Erwin’s cock lightly to let the man know he didn’t appreciate that. He placed both hands on Erwin’s thighs, continuing to suckle on the cock in front of him.

“Mmm,” Erwin groaned, tugging at Levi’s hair a little harsher this time, “Don’t argue now, Levi. You have to be patient to get what you want.”

Levi continued to bob his head on Erwin’s cock, feeling his jaw getting tired the longer he went on. How did people have the stamina to do this for more than five minutes? Levi pulled away, a string of pre-cum hanging between Erwin’s cock and his lips as he sucked in deep breaths to calm himself.

“Alright, darling,” Erwin murmured, “You can be done. You did well for your first time. Now get on the bed.”

“I’m nobody’s darling,” Levi snapped, though there was a blush on his face from the words.

Erwin chuckled, letting go of Levi’s hair, “I’ll call you whatever I’d like.”

Levi rose to his feet, gasping when Erwin turned him round and pressed his face into the mattress, ass arched up, presented like a beacon for Erwin to do with whatever he pleased. Levi squirmed to get a little more comfortable, feeling Erwin’s hot breath on his ear.

“Whether I call you my darling,” Erwin whispered sensually, his hand finding its way to Levi’s ass and kneading the fatty muscle between his fingers, “My sweetheart… my bitch, my whore.”

Levi whimpered at the words, feeling his cock twitch again, still painfully trapped in his pants, “E-Erwin… please I… it hurts.”

He could hear Erwin smirking next to him, could sense it on his face. The blonde pulled away, fingers hooking in the hem of Levi’s trousers before he tugged them down, wrestling with them for a moment before he pulled them down around Levi’s ankles and tossed them to the floor. Levi sighed in some relief as his cock was freed, bouncing up against his stomach. He was already leaking, and he wanted desperately to touch himself, to provide some relief, but he remembered Erwin’s words about not touching himself. Since when was he taking orders from this bastard? But Levi soon forgot that thought when he heard Erwin spitting onto his fingers behind him.

Levi clung to the sheets below him, peering over his shoulder to see Erwin using one hand to spread him open, the other with fingers soaked with saliva as he rubbed them gently against Levi’s hole. Levi could already feel himself starting to lose it as Erwin circled his middle finger around Levi’s rim, working it open enough to push the tip of his finger inside. He was so tight. Why was he always wound so tight? If only he was more relaxed, maybe he’d be looser, and maybe Erwin would be able to just slide right in, though Levi knew that was impossible anyways.

“You have such a tight little hole,” Erwin commented, “But it opened so beautifully for me last time, didn’t it?”

“Q-Quit your damn teasing,” Levi growled as he canted his hips backwards, trying to get Erwin to push it in deeper, “I’m not a flower, Erwin. I can take a little roughness.”

Erwin laughed a little, circling his finger to stretch the rim a little more before he sunk in to his first knuckle. Levi couldn’t believe the man was really taking his time to stretch Levi open like this. On the one hand, he appreciated the effort to make Levi comfortable, but on the other, he was growing increasingly desperate, and just wanted Erwin to get on with it already.

Well, if Erwin was going to keep teasing him, then Levi was going to do something about it. He reached back and gripped Erwin’s wrist, pushing forwards so that his finger sunk in to the second knuckle. He gasped at the feeling before moaning, wriggling his hips back against Erwin’s finger to get it in further.

“Ah ah,” Erwin scolded, pulling his finger out all the way and delivering a harsh smack to Levi’s left asscheek, “Don’t be naughty, now. If you want me to fuck you, you’ll do it on my terms. Understood?”

Levi yelped at the hit and turned to shoot a glare at Erwin over his shoulder. He turned back to face the wall and huffed in annoyance, grumbling, “Understood. But hurry it up, would you?”

Erwin rubbed at Levi’s hole again before Levi felt spit dribble down his crack, his finger spreading the saliva around the rim before he sunk it in all the way, causing Levi to whimper and bury his face in the sheets.

“Levi,” Erwin spoke in a stern voice, “Don’t you dare hide in those sheets. I want to hear your noises.”

Erwin was demanding far too much from him. How was Levi supposed to be patient and keep his head up and listen to Erwin’s instructions when he was so eager to be fucked? He could barely pay attention let alone do all those things at once. But he lifted his head from the sheets, letting out a shaky moan as Erwin started to finger him with that single digit, pulling out and pushing back in with the squelch of excess saliva.

“There’s a good boy,” Erwin cooed, finger going in and out at a steady pace, “How would my good boy like another finger?”

Why did Levi have to pick the one person who was such a damn tease? He couldn’t stand it. If he wasn’t so aroused, he would’ve packed up and left a long time ago, but here he was, under Erwin just taking whatever the man gave him, simply because he wanted it that badly. Levi clenched his teeth and nodded, trying to keep ahold of his pride despite the submissive position he was in. He felt a second finger sliding in next to the first, scissoring at his opening. Levi moaned, looking back over his shoulder to see Erwin’s slightly red face, his eyes focused on Levi’s fluttering hole as he spread it open. His lips were parted, and Levi had never seen his face like that before: so determined yet so aroused at the same time. Erwin finally noticed Levi looking, and his face returned to that same cocky smirk he’d had on before.

“Is this what you wanted, darling?” Erwin asked, a hint of mockery in his voice, “You just needed to be stuffed, didn’t you? Well don’t worry, I’ll fill you soon enough.”

Levi turned back around and groaned, resting his hot forehead against the cool white sheets. Something about Erwin’s words set a fire alight in his stomach, and he couldn’t help the noises that had escaped due to them. How could somebody turn him on simply with words? Levi had never had that happen before. But Erwin’s deep, sure voice turned him on, especially when he said those types of things.

“I swear to god, Erwin,” Levi panted, “If you don’t stick your cock in me in the next five minutes, I’m leaving.”

Erwin laughed heartily at that, his laughter causing a giddy feeling in Levi’s chest that he didn’t recognize. Nothing Levi had said was funny, but Erwin always seemed to find him so comical for some reason. Levi thought Erwin might punish him again for being impatient, but Erwin starting to press a third finger inside, seemingly rewarding him for being eager.

“I seriously doubt you would leave now,” Erwin replied, his third finger sinking in to join the other two, “Besides, you’re opening up so nicely, sweetheart. Or should I start calling you my bitch? Would you prefer that?”

Levi groaned, his fingers clenching at the sheets below him as Erwin began fucking him open with three fingers now, grumbling, “Call me whatever you want, just fuck me already.”

“With pleasure,” Erwin responded, slowly taking out his fingers and shushing Levi when he began to whine at the loss, “Hush, darling. You’ll get filled soon enough.”

Levi arched his back to push his ass out, feeling Erwin’s fingers grace his hips before the wet cockhead pressed against his opening. He braced his knees on the bed, the soles of his feet facing towards the ceiling as he waited patiently for Erwin to push inside. He was so small, and felt even smaller when he was around Erwin, though he didn’t entirely mind being the tiny one as long as he could still take Erwin’s huge dick.

Erwin began pushing inside, the head popping in with a flop. Levi moaned, thighs parting deliciously for Erwin to bury himself in further. Erwin pushed in, bottoming out with one long thrust. Levi was holding his breath, letting it out in a huff when Erwin was all the way in. Levi waited for Erwin to start moving, but the man simply sat inside him for a moment. What is he waiting for? Levi wondered, though he wouldn’t have to wonder long.

“Do you know why I ignored you, Levi?” Erwin asked, rolling his hips up into Levi and making the smaller man moan, “Do you want me to tell you?”

“Y-Yes,” Levi panted, barely registering what Erwin was saying. He did want to know why Erwin had ignored him for a full week, and why they were doing this now without first addressing what had happened between them. But he was also in a state of pleasure, and could barely understand what Erwin had said at first.

Erwin placed his hand next to Levi’s on the bed, his chest crowding him and leaning against Levi’s back before he growled in his ear, “Because you’re irresistible, Levi. It scared me, how much you turn me on. I avoided you so I wouldn’t be tempted to throw you over my desk and ravage your ass until you screamed.”

Levi let out a strangled moan at those words, pushing his ass back against Erwin’s cock to show that he was tempted too. Tempted by Erwin’s charm, his muscular, large torso, thick thighs, and huge cock. Tempted by the way Erwin used his hands, tongue, cock, to make him feel things he’d never felt before. When Erwin did this with him, it was like all Levi’s anxieties melted away; everything he worried or stressed about disappeared when Erwin pleasured him. He didn’t particularly enjoy Erwin’s personality, but he liked the way Erwin touched him and fucked him so wonderfully.

“Oh?” Erwin murmured when Levi began pushing back against him, “Are you tempted too, my darling? You certainly must be… the way you moaned when I licked your hole was delicious. I could listen to you moan for hours like that, under my tongue, begging me so nicely.”

Levi whimpered and groaned, gyrating his hips back against Erwin’s cock, but refusing to answer. As much as he was enjoying himself, he didn’t want to give Erwin the satisfaction of knowing that he was just as desperate as Erwin was for all this, just as tempted. Erwin sat back up, gripping Levi’s hips in his strong, calloused hands and beginning to fuck him harshly. Levi cried out, gripping at the sheets for purchase.

“God, Levi,” Erwin groaned, and for the first time, Levi was realizing that Erwin was falling apart just as much as he was, “You’re so fucking sexy, darling. I’m going to fucking wreck you.”

Levi could feel the desperation tugging at his stomach where his orgasm was forming, and felt himself letting go of the pride that was keeping him from saying what he wanted. He whimpered, “Yeah? Do it. Do it, Erwin. Fucking wreck me.”

Erwin moaned at Levi’s words, holding onto Levi’s hips so tightly that Levi was sure he’d have bruises there the next day. Erwin began to fuck him wildly, the loud sounds of their hips smacking against one another vibrating throughout the room. Levi could barely hold on, gasping out little ‘ah’ noises at every thrust. Erwin angled himself, pounding harshly into Levi’s sensitive spot, which had him crying out Erwin’s name.

“That’s right,” Erwin growled, sounding almost feral with how aroused he was, “That’s fucking right, Levi. Taking my fucking cock like that. Keep moaning for me. Go on, keep making noise.”

Levi let out a moan like he was dying, a sweat breaking on his brow as Erwin slammed into his sweet spot over and over again. He could feel his orgasm building in his stomach, threatening to break forward. He could feel the tears rolling down his face, tossing his head back with a loud groan. Levi looked back over his shoulder to see Erwin stripping himself of his shirt, still fucking into Levi at a leisurely pace as he tossed the garment to the floor. Levi couldn’t help but stare. He hadn’t really gotten a good look at Erwin’s naked body the first time, and his mouth nearly dropped open at the sight of the muscular chest before him. Holy fuck, Levi thought to himself, wondering how he managed to bag such a perfectly sculpted man.

Erwin made eye contact with Levi, giving him a few harsh thrusts as he stared Levi down, as if the two were having a staring contest. Levi’s mouth was partially open, giving Erwin the most lustful look he could muster before turning his head back to face the headboard as Erwin picked up the pace again.

“Ohh!” Levi cried, breathing heavily, “Oh god I’m… feels like it’s in my fucking guts. God damn.”

Erwin groaned, the words encouraging him to pound even harder and faster, which Levi didn’t even think was possible at this point. They were fucking like wild animals, like it was their last moment on earth. Levi could feel it - he was so close. He’d never felt pleasure like this before, never felt like he was going to start crying just from being fucked so nicely.

“Oh fuck,” Erwin panted, “Oh fuck! Oh Levi… are you close, darling?”

Levi was barely able to nod, but he lulled his head up and down, mouth open and drooling on the sheets below. This was the dirtiest fuck he’d ever had, and he was shocked that he was still holding onto his orgasm at this point.

“Come on,” Erwin encouraged with a grunt due to his exertion, “Come on. I’ll cum with you. Gonna fill you up so good- shit.”

Levi didn’t know what came over him - perhaps it was his impending orgasm, or maybe it was just his desperation due to being so fucked out, but he dug his fingers into the sheets and starting fucking back on Erwin’s cock, meeting his thrusts and letting out a choked sob at the feeling. He looked over his shoulder, meeting Erwin’s eyes before whining in the sluttiest way he could and begging, “Cum inside me. Please.”

He watched Erwin’s eyes roll back in his head and felt the warmth of the blonde spilling inside of him. The feeling sent him over the edge too, cock spurting his seed all over the sheets below him. Should’ve put a towel down, Levi thought to himself briefly before deciding he didn’t care all that much and collapsing onto the bed once Erwin pulled out. The two of them were breathing heavily, unable to believe the incredible and intense fuck they’d just had.

Erwin started tucking himself back into his pants, retrieving his shirt off the floor and pulling it back on. Levi simply laid there, needing a second to calm himself down. His heart was beating rapidly out of his chest, and his legs were shaky. Part of him wished they could just lay there together, calm down from their fuck and hold one another. Levi immediately shook the thought from his mind. He tried to remind himself of who this was. This was the man who had caused Isabel and Furlan’s deaths, and he wasn’t just going to cuddle with the bastard. What the hell was he thinking?

He slowly pushed himself out of the bed, getting up and starting to pull his pants on. Erwin was watching him carefully, as if he was studying Levi like he was one of his books or maps. Levi wasn’t sure he liked it, and he shot Erwin a small glare after he finished getting dressed, tucking his gray shirt back into his pants.

“You look good in those trousers, Levi,” Erwin smirked, leaning up against the wall, “You don’t know how much you tease me when you’re wearing something so tight around that nice ass of yours.”

“We just got done fucking,” Levi scolded, “Back off.”

Erwin chuckled softly, “And? I can’t compliment you?”

“No,” Levi huffed, crossing his arms, “So what now? Aren’t you going to take me into town?”

Erwin shrugged, “I can. I thought you might need a rest. I was just, after all, in your fucking guts, as you so eloquently put it.”

Levi could feel himself turning a bright shade of red, embarrassed by what he’d said while they were having sex. It had been like he wasn’t able to control himself, and just said what was on his mind. He hadn’t been able to help it, and he didn’t think it was fair for Erwin to bring it back to make fun of him. Erwin had said embarrassing things too, right? Levi honestly couldn’t remember; he’d been in too much pleasure.

“Shut your damn mouth,” Levi snapped, “I don’t need a rest. Your dick isn’t that special.”

“Aww,” Erwin teased with a playful grin, “It’s not? Levi, I… I’m crushed.”

Levi rolled his eyes, unable to help the small smile that came to his face as he muttered, “You’re an idiot.”

When he looked back up at Erwin, the man had a genuine look of shock written on his face. Levi frowned, “What?”

“You… You smiled,” Erwin said incredulously, as if he couldn’t believe it was a possibility.

“Yeah, so?” Levi asked in annoyance, “It was funny.”

Erwin grinned, laughing softly, “I didn’t think you were capable of such a thing.”

Levi grumbled a few swears under his breath, “I’m perfectly capable of smiling, thanks. Maybe I just don’t do it around you because you’re fucking insufferable.”

“Now, now, Levi,” Erwin joked, “That’s no way to talk to your captain.”

Levi was starting to get the urge to strangle the man again, though he did find some of his antics amusing. He thought Erwin was a complete idiot, but the man could be incredibly charming and funny when he wanted to. Levi watched the handsome man leaning against the wall, looking entertained by Levi for some reason that Levi didn’t understand.

Levi headed for the door, holding it open for Erwin to lead the way. He didn’t know his way around town yet, and would need Erwin to show him where to go. Erwin walked by, pausing to press a kiss to the top of Levi’s head. Levi swatted at him, not particularly fond of or used to the affection. He followed Erwin out of the hotel, avoiding the gaze of the hotel workers who had likely heard them fucking.

The two made their way back out to the marketplace, where Levi was starting to feel a little giddy with the excitement of getting to spend some of his first paycheck. He’d never had a paycheck before, and he had a couple ideas of things he might want to buy.

But as they were walking, he felt someone following them. He turned his head to see a hooded figure a good distance behind them. He turned back around, unsure if someone was really following them, or if it was just in his head.

“You’ll need an extra set of sheets,” Erwin noted, interrupting his thoughts, “That’s the first thing every soldier buys with their first paycheck.”

When Levi turned back around, the hooded figure was gone.

Levi nodded at Erwin’s words, a little relieved that he would be able to have two sets of sheets. It wasn’t easy to wash the first pair without having a second pair to put on the bed while the first ones dried. It was the little things sometimes.

The two made their way to small shop that sold bedsheets and comforters. Levi was nervous, though he didn’t know why. He’d never had to do anything like this before, and he was looking to Erwin for some guidance. Erwin noticed Levi struggling - there was just too many different kinds of sheets to choose from.

“Here,” Erwin picked up a pack of sheets, “These are basic sheets for a twin bed. See how it says the thread count here? The higher the thread count, the more expensive it is. But the more expensive it is, the nicer it is, of course.”

Levi took the sheets from Erwin, feeling them with his fingers carefully. They weren’t very soft, but rough and course, and itchy. Levi frowned, checking the price before deciding he could afford a little higher thread count. He picked up the next one, and it was definitely a lot softer. The price wasn’t too bad either. Levi held the sheets to his chest, nodding at Erwin to let him know he decided on one.

“I can see you’re going to be someone who likes the finer things in life,” Erwin chuckled, “But that’s alright. I am too.”

Levi paid for the sheets, tucking them under his arm as they left the shop. He was used to stealing things or bartering for them, not paying for them straight out, so he had let Erwin handle his money for him, paying the man and handing back the change to Levi.

“Now you have some left over for whatever else you’d like,” Erwin smiled softly, “Is there anything specific you want?”

Levi didn’t know. He’d never been presented with so many options before. But he was thinking of something specific that he’d always wanted to do growing up Underground - a place he’d always wanted to visit, and he could see one right down the road.

“Can… Can we go to that tea shop?” Levi asked sheepishly, a little embarrassed at having to ask such a question. He was always shy about his love for tea, as it made him incredibly excited and happy, which were emotions he wasn’t used to sharing with another person.

“Sure,” Erwin shrugged, seeming unbothered.

The two walked down the street and entered the tea shop, and Levi breathed in the scent of the different teas intermingling in the air. It felt like home to him, to be amongst all this tea. He immediately got excited, a small smile on his face as he started to examine the various boxes of tea before him. He checked to see how much money he had left, and realized he had enough for two boxes of lower quality tea, or one box of higher quality tea.

Levi checked the shelves again and again, making sure he knew all the types they had before he made his decision. Erwin was standing patiently behind him, hands in his pockets as he looked around the shop. Clearly this was somewhere Erwin didn’t spend much time at.

“Oh my god, they have it,” Levi gasped, seeing his favorite high-quality Earl Grey on the top shelf. He’d only ever had it once, at a rich client’s house when he was doing some dirty work Underground. He reached up, standing on his tiptoes and straining to get the box down. He heard Erwin chuckling behind him, and wanted to smack him for being rude and laughing at his height problem.

“Do you need some help?” Erwin asked, reaching up and grabbing the box down with ease before handing it to Levi.

“Thanks,” Levi grumbled, taking the box and examining it. He opened the lid and breathed in the scent, sighing happily at the smell. He was thrilled that he would be able to afford this, and quickly shoved the box into Erwin’s hands along with his money, excited to purchase it and have it for himself.

Erwin was smiling a little, clearly finding Levi’s excitement amusing for some reason, and he went to the front to pay for the tea, coming back with the box in a cute little paper bag with the store logo on it. Levi couldn’t help himself, he couldn’t hold back the smile on his face when Erwin handed it to him.

“I’ve never seen you so happy, Levi,” Erwin noted, “Well, you’ve spent your paycheck then. Is there anything else you just wanted to look at?”

Levi shook his head, holding his sheets under one arm and his bag of tea in the other. He was so happy with his purchases. Erwin led them down the street towards a clothing shop, mentioning something about needing a new bolo tie for an upcoming event.

The two entered the tailor shop, and Levi immediately set his eyes upon a mannequin with a suit, a piece of white fabric tucked into the front. He thought it was the fanciest thing he’d ever seen, and he walked over, examining the white piece of fabric that stuck out from the neck of the mannequin. Erwin was busy talking with the shop owner before he noticed Levi staring at the outfit, and he paused his conversation to watch momentarily.

“You like the suit, Levi?” Erwin asked.

“I just like this,” Levi pointed to the white fabric, “What is it?”

“That’s called a cravat,” Erwin explained, “You tie it round your neck, kind of like a tie, but fancier.”

Levi touched the fabric gently, repeating the word, “Cravat. I like it.”

Erwin smiled a little, “Do you want one?”

Levi frowned, running his fingers over the cravat and shaking his head, “I spent all my money already.”

Erwin pulled out his wallet from his pocket, turning to the shop owner and saying, “Can you get him fitted for a cravat as well? I’ll take my usual, the bolo tie with the green gem.”

Levi’s eyes widened slightly, unable to believe Erwin was going to pay for something for him. It almost made him uncomfortable. He felt bad, felt like he would now owe Erwin for buying him this.

“N-No,” Levi protested, “Erwin… you don’t have to-”

“It’s fine, Levi,” Erwin insisted, “I make plenty with my captain’s salary. It’s really not a big deal.”

Levi shut his mouth, the tailor coming around the counter to measure his neck for a cravat. He’d never been measured for anything before, and the man was sticking pins into the fabric he had around Levi’s neck to measure him for the proper amount of fabric. Levi stayed as still as possible, not wanting to be pricked by the needles. Erwin was watching with a fondness on his face, as if he was enjoying this, though Levi didn’t understand why. Maybe he just liked giving things to people.

The tailor fitted the cravat around Levi’s neck, showing him how to properly tie it before taking it off his neck and folding it to place it in a bag for purchase. Erwin paid for that and his bolo tie, taking the bag from the tailor and thanking him.

“Thank you,” Levi muttered as Erwin took the bolo tie out of the bag and slipped it into his pocket before handing the bag to Levi.

“Of course,” Erwin patted Levi on the shoulder gently, “Think of it as an apology for ignoring you all week.”

Levi was giddy as they climbed back onto the carriage, placing his stuff on the seat and watching Erwin climb in behind him to take the seat across from him. He closed the door behind him and the carriage began to move. Levi was grateful to Erwin for buying him the cravat, and he wanted to show him his appreciation, pay him back somehow. He just wasn’t used to people getting him things, and he didn’t know how to repay him. Well, he knew one way to repay him. Levi shuffled onto the floor of the carriage on his knees, reaching up to start undoing Erwin’s pants.

Erwin stared down at Levi with widened eyes, “Levi… what are you doing?”

“I’m thanking you,” Levi paused his fingers on Erwin’s zipper to look up at him, “Unless you don’t want me to…?”

Erwin smiled softly, carding his fingers through Levi’s hair, “Levi. You don’t have to do that. You can thank me by wearing the cravat, okay? That’s good enough for me.”

Levi was confused. Erwin didn’t want Levi to thank him this way? Levi was so certain that he’d want him to. He slowly moved back to his seat, feeling a little awkward now that Erwin had insisted he didn’t have to repay him. He didn’t know how to feel.

The carriage ride was pretty quiet after that. Levi could feel himself getting sleepy the longer they rode, and it was about a half hour long carriage ride, and his head was nodding as his eyes kept closing. Suddenly, there was a shift in the carriage, and Levi opened his eyes to see Erwin sitting next to him, patting his shoulder as if to offer it up as a pillow. Levi rubbed his eyes sleepily, welcoming the offer and resting his head on Erwin’s shoulder. He didn’t know when he had started to trust Erwin, when he had stopped wanting to kill the man, but the more time they spent together, the more Levi was becoming comfortable around him. Erwin was just an easy person to get along with. He dozed off on Erwin’s shoulder, clinging to his arm.

Levi grunted into the pillow, gripping at the soft sheets below him as Erwin plowed him from behind, practically laying on top of him. They were in Levi’s bed in the barracks during lunch, when nobody would be there to catch them. Erwin had suggested it, and Levi had been hesitant at first. Why couldn’t they just have sex in Erwin’s office? Or even in Erwin’s bedroom? But Erwin had insisted it would be ‘hot’ if they had sex in a more risky place, and Levi wanted to show off his new bed sheets, so he didn’t protest.

He moaned as Erwin rolled his hips up into him, feeling his cock brush up against his sweet spot. Levi had the top bunk, and Erwin was tall enough as it was, so he had to lay on top of Levi so that he wouldn’t hit his head on the ceiling. Levi could hear Erwin’s panting breaths in his ear as he continued to thrust, harder and harder, faster and faster as he neared his orgasm. Levi whimpered, reaching his hand down to stroke his cock as Erwin fucked into his prostate repeatedly now. He was determined to keep the sheets clean, and had placed a towel down to catch any sweat or precum that went flying.

“Levi,” Erwin groaned in his ear, “God, darling. Always so tight for me. Are you going to cum?”

“Y-Yeah,” Levi whined, pushing his ass back as best he could, “Yeah, E-Erwin… fuck - go harder!”

Erwin moaned and pounded Levi’s ass as hard as he could, smacking sounds ringing through the air. Levi gasped and cried out, mouth parted as moans came spilling out of him, the feeling in his stomach rising as Erwin continued. He was so close.

Erwin gave him a few harsh thrusts to his sensitive spot, which sent him over the edge, cumming onto the towel below him with a choked moan. Erwin let out a few more stuttered thrusts before cumming inside him with a grunt. He slowly pulled out and tugged his boxers and pants back up, laying down next to Levi in the small bed and wrapping an arm around him.

It was a few days since they’d been to the marketplace together, and Levi had been bent over more times than he could count in more places than he could name: the supply closet, the conference room, the mess hall after dark, etc. Erwin’s lust for him was insatiable, though Levi didn’t mind. He was enthusiastically consenting every time, so it wasn’t like Erwin was the only one who was enjoying himself.

“Levi,” Erwin smiled, tucking one of Levi’s bangs behind his ear, “Did you enjoy yourself, darling? We kept the sheets clean like you wanted.”

Levi sighed and nodded, cleaning himself up with his handkerchief before snuggling up to Erwin. They’d taken to cuddling occasionally after sex; mostly with Levi sitting in Erwin’s lap and hugging onto him - they’d never done it in Erwin’s bed before. This would be their first time cuddling in a bed together. Levi thought it was kind of nice, to share his body with someone in a way other than sex. It felt good to have somebody hold him like that.

“Yeah,” Levi nodded, burrowing his face into Erwin’s pillowy chest, “Do you like the sheets? They’re soft, right?”

Erwin rubbed Levi’s back soothingly, “Yeah, they’re very soft. You’d like my bed. I have really nice sheets too. They’re a higher thread count than even these ones.”

Levi’s eyes widened a little, looking up at Erwin, “Really? I want to feel them… are they real soft?”

Erwin chuckled, pressing a kiss to Levi’s forehead, “Yeah. Real soft.”

Levi smiled a little at the thought and tangled his legs between Erwin’s, running his finger up and down Erwin’s chest gently. He liked fancy things. Though he thought rich people overdid things and spent far too much money, he did like what they had, and some part of him wished he could have those things too: high thread counts and fancy silk curtains, bright colored clothes and the finest pastries.

“You know,” Erwin piped up, “I went to a gala once… the man was really rich. He had ice sculptures in his house for the party.”

Levi’s lips parted in some shock, “Sculptures… made just from ice? But… how?”

Erwin seemed amused by Levi’s surprise at such things, running his fingers up and down Levi’s back as he explained, “They chip away at the ice like stone.”

“But… wouldn’t it melt?” Levi asked curiously.

“No,” Erwin replied, “He was so rich that he had an indoor cooling system that kept the temperature of his house down. So the ice sculptures didn’t melt.”

Levi’s eyes were wide, “Wow… an indoor cooling system?”

“Yeah,” Erwin smiled, “The super rich have those. It’s great during the summer, keeps the heat down.”

Levi licked his finger and rubbed at a small stain on Erwin’s shirt, “I bet it is… must be nice. Underground, it would get so hot during the summer. A lot of people died from heat exhaustion.”

“That’s sad,” Erwin murmured, “I’m sorry you had to live through that, Levi. That wasn’t fair.”

Levi shrugged, scratching an itch on his nose, “S’okay. I had to live through a lot of stuff that wasn’t fair. Nothing to be done about it.”

Erwin’s fingers were in his hair again, gently massaging his scalp with the thick pads of his fingers. Erwin seemed to like his hair very much. He would always tug on it while they were having sex, play with it in the aftermath. It was sweet, Levi thought. He didn’t understand how they were becoming so close. He still didn’t trust Erwin wholeheartedly, that would take a lot more time, but he enjoyed the time they spent together. Erwin could be incredibly irritating at times with his teasing of Levi and his inability to shut up about things he was interested in, but Levi didn’t always mind all that. Sometimes, he would just listen, zone out and relax to Erwin’s voice.

“But that’s the thing, Levi,” Erwin whispered against Levi’s forehead before kissing there lightly, “We could do something about it. We could fight for a world where nobody has to live Underground - a world where people don’t have to suffer.”

Levi looked up at Erwin with some awe in his eyes, surprised by what he’d said. A world with no suffering? Where nobody had to live Underground? That sounded like quite the pipe dream to Levi. He’d never thought about such a thing before. Levi had always viewed pain and suffering as an inevitable part of life, but here Erwin was telling him that things didn’t have to be that way.

“My dream,” Erwin continued, “Is to live in a world where everyone is equal.”

Levi could feel his heart fluttering at Erwin’s words, a nervous feeling pooling in his stomach. Why the hell was he feeling this way? Levi couldn’t even describe what he was feeling, let alone why he was feeling it. It felt like bugs were fluttering around in his stomach, and he couldn’t breathe properly anymore. All he wanted to do was smile and stay like this with Erwin for as long as he could. Am I getting sick? Levi wondered briefly.

“I like that dream,” Levi replied, sighing contently at the feeling of Erwin massaging his scalp. It felt so nice, to lay here like this together.

“Levi-i!” He heard the front door to the barracks slam open, and he groaned in annoyance. Oh god, not them. He quickly drew the covers up over Erwin to hide him and sat up, struggling to get his pants back on before nearly falling to the ground. He recovered quickly, standing up straight and leaning against the bunk posts.

The idiot with the glasses came rushing up to him. Hange. Levi was slowly getting to know some of their other comrades, mostly Erwin’s friends. Hange was one of them, and they were incessant about talking to Levi, trying to get to know him better.

“Hange,” Levi crossed his arms, “What are you doing in the men’s barracks? You don’t belong in here.”

“Well,” Hange shrugged, “I don’t really belong in either barracks, if we’re being honest. I mean, can you see me in the women’s barracks? Me? With all those girls? I’d be too much for them - they’d be falling all over each other trying to sleep with me.”

Levi rolled his eyes a little, supposing they were right - about not belonging in the women’s barracks, not the women trying to sleep with them. Hange was a bit of an oddball, but they were nice enough, so Levi liked them. Come to think of it, Levi didn’t know where Hange stayed. If they weren’t in the men’s or women’s bunks, did they have their own room? Levi wondered what that must be like.

“What do you want, anyway?” Levi asked, eyeing them suspiciously. He was growing increasingly nervous that Hange would see the huge lump in his bed where Erwin was hiding - a blanket wasn’t really going to do much to hide a giant like Erwin from anybody.

“I was wondering if you knew where Erwin was,” Hange inquired, leaning against an opposite bunk, “You two have been spending quite a lot of time together.”

Levi could feel himself turning a little red from that, and tried hard to keep himself calm so that he wouldn’t give himself away. Hange wasn’t wrong, the two of them had been spending a lot of time together, but that was nobody’s business but theirs.

“I have no idea where Erwin is,” Levi lied, “Besides, we haven’t been spending that much time together.”

Hange laughed, rolling their eyes, “Okay, sure… wait, is he in here? Oh my god, he’s under that sheet. Hi Erwin!”

“Hi Hange,” Erwin replied, muffled by the blanket, and Levi cursed under his breath.

“You know you two are pretty obvious, right?” Hange asked with a knowing grin, “Mike could smell you two having sex from a mile away.”

Levi pressed two fingers to his forehead in stress, hearing Erwin getting down from the bunk to stand next to Levi. . Levi wasn’t wearing a shirt, and Erwin’s hair was messed up, so it was pretty obvious what they’d been up to. Levi was a furious shade of red, and he glanced over to Erwin, who seemed a lot less bothered at being caught.

“It’s okay, boys,” Hange smiled, “I won’t tell anyone. It’s just me, Mike, and Nana who know… oh, and Moblit. But that’s it!”

Levi cursed under his breath, “Hange, that’s like four people! I didn’t want anyone to know!”

Hange laughed, “Then you two should’ve been more discreet! I mean, disappearing together at all hours of the day, returning with your clothes and hair all messed up. Last time you two came to the mess hall, Erwin’s bolo tie was on backwards! Plus, you gotta pick less public places to fuck. Mike was in the kitchen last night and heard you two in the mess hall.”

Levi didn’t think he could turn any redder than he was right now, and he was covering his mouth with his hand to prevent himself from cursing Hange out. It wasn’t their fault that he and Erwin hadn’t been very good at keeping the secret, though it was annoying that Hange was rubbing it in.

“It’s alright, Levi,” Erwin placed a hand on Levi’s shoulder, “I trust my friends not to tell anyone else. Right, Hange?”

Hange nodded diligently, “Oh yeah - I won’t tell a soul! We’ll keep it between the six of us. Besides, before you came along, Erwin’s libido was insatiable. He was bringing home women and men almost every night.”

Levi didn’t know why, but that set an angry spark alight in his chest. He didn’t like thinking about Erwin with other men, or with other women. He knew he didn’t own Erwin, but something about the thought of the blonde sleeping with others irked him.

“Hange,” Erwin chuckled nervously, face turning red now, “Levi doesn’t need to know about all that.”

“Oh?” Hange grinned mischievously, “You mean… Levi doesn’t know about Marie?”

Levi frowned, “Who’s Marie?”

Erwin sighed and rubbed his forehead, “Hange, you know Marie’s married to Nile now. I don’t see her anymore.”

“Mhm,” Hange smirked, “Sure you don’t.”

Levi was intrigued now. Was Erwin seeing other people? He certainly hoped not. He liked the thought of being Erwin’s only fuck, of being the only one who could satisfy him. He didn’t know who this Marie was, but he didn’t like her one bit if she was someone Erwin was interested in.

“Who’s Marie?” Levi repeated.

“Marie is Erwin’s old flame,” Hange laughed softly, wriggling their eyebrows suggestively, “The two of them were inseparable. I still think Erwin’s sending her love letters, but he won’t admit it.”

Erwin rolled his eyes, “I’m not sending love letters to a married woman, Hange. Besides, Nile is my friend. I wouldn’t do that to him,” he turned to Levi, “Hange just likes to tease me about her.”

Levi felt that anger growing worse, and he didn’t understand what was making him like this. He didn’t have any claim on Erwin, so what was the big deal if Erwin had an old flame? It wasn’t like they were currently together - or at least, not according to Erwin.

“Oh,” Levi grumbled, not really pleased by this conversation they were having about Erwin with other people.

“Aww,” Hange giggled, “Don’t be jealous, Levi!”

Jealous?! Levi thought in shock. He wasn’t jealous! He was just mad for some reason. It wasn’t jealousy. Levi shot Hange a glare, instantly retorting, “I’m not! Erwin and I… we’re just having sex. Right, Erwin?”

Erwin nodded in agreement, “Exactly. Just sex, nothing more.”

Hange raised an eyebrow suspiciously, singsonging, “O-kayyy. Anyways, I was looking for you, Erwin. Mike and I were wondering if you wanted to come drinking with us tonight.”

Erwin smiled softly, clearing his throat to recover from the embarrassment of the conversation they just had. He nodded instantly, face lighting up with excitement. Levi stood there awkwardly, realizing he hadn’t been invited. He didn’t mind; he was used to not being invited to things, and after all, these were Erwin’s friends, not his.

“Erm,” Erwin looked over to Levi, squeezing his shoulder gently, “Can Levi come too?”

Hange smiled, “Of course Levi can come! You’ll love Erwin when he’s drunk, Levi. He’s so funny.”

Levi wasn’t really one for drinking, but he did want to join in on the fun. In honesty, he didn’t like to be left out, even if on the outside he would appear unbothered. Erwin looked pleased with Hange’s answer, turning to Levi and tilting his chin up gently, as if by muscle memory.

“Would you like to come with us, darling?” Erwin asked sweetly, and Levi could feel himself melting under that touch.

“Yes,” Levi whispered, aware that Hange was watching the two of them with a massive grin on their face.

“Alright,” Erwin pulled his hand away, “I’ll see you both later then. I have to go get ready. Where are we meeting, Hange?”

“Outside the mess hall after the sun goes down,” Hange explained.

Erwin nodded, and he soon left with Hange, sneaking a kiss to Levi’s cheek when Hange turned to leave. Levi could feel that warmth in his stomach at Erwin’s kiss. He must be getting ill. Levi couldn’t think what else could possibly be wrong with him.

He climbed into his bed and lay on his back, staring up at the ceiling. Thoughts of Erwin were running through his head. He didn’t understand why he was so caught up on that man. He’d never felt this way about anybody before. Maybe it was because he finally had someone to talk to. He’d never had anybody he could share things with, someone who he could be so open with. Maybe… Maybe this was what it was like to have a friend.

Levi adjusted the cravat uncomfortably, standing outside the mess hall at sundown to wait for everyone. He was nervous. He’d never been out with a group of people before. The only reason he’d agreed was because he knew Erwin would be there. And he knew Hange, so it wouldn’t be that bad, would it? He’d briefly met the other three at dinner a couple of times, though he had trouble remembering their names. He just hoped Erwin would get there first, so that he didn’t have to try and make awkward conversation with someone he didn’t really know well.

It was as though the universe had heard his wish and decided to purposefully ignore it. He saw the mop-haired man with the large nose - Mike, was it? - walking towards him, hands in his pockets. Levi swallowed thickly, shoving his own hands in his pockets and trying not to look too uncomfortable.

“Hey,” Mike muttered as he approached, “Levi, right?”

“Yeah,” Levi replied, “And you’re Mike?”

Mike nodded, and Levi could feel the awkward atmosphere start to settle in. He cleared his throat, feeling the nerves kick in. He didn’t know how long he’d be able to stand here with Mike, neither of them saying a word to each other.

“So,” Mike mumbled, “You and Erwin, huh?”

Levi internally groaned. Why did everyone have to be talking about Erwin and him? He didn’t need everyone prying into his sex life. He didn’t even know how to talk about it, let alone talk about it with someone who was practically a stranger.

“Yeah,” Levi admitted, sensing that Mike wasn’t too pleased about the fact that Levi and Erwin were together, though he couldn’t put his finger on why.

“Be careful, Levi,” Mike grunted, “Erwin is important to us.”

Levi didn’t like how Mike had said that. It was almost a looming threat; like if Levi were to mess up things with Erwin, Mike would be there to reprimand him, or worse. Levi didn’t take too kindly to being threatened, and he immediately tensed up, glaring up at the tall idiot.

“And what do you mean by that?” Levi snapped.

“I mean,” Mike glared back, bending over to get on Levi’s level, “Be careful, little man.”

Levi was about to whack the bastard over the head with one of his fists, when he heard Erwin calling out to them: “Mike! Levi!”

Mike stood up straight, pretending as though nothing at all had just happened between them. Levi gave Mike a disgusted look before forcing a small smile in Erwin’s direction, not wanting the man to think anything had gone wrong between them. Erwin looked incredibly handsome: wearing a button-up white shirt with a gray cardigan and slacks, his hair slicked back with pomade. As he got closer, Levi could smell the nice cologne he was wearing, and he felt his heart beating faster as he realized just how attracted he was to this man.

Erwin smiled briefly down at Levi before greeting Mike with a hearty handshake, slapping his friend on the back in the manly way Levi had seen other men greet one another. He thought it was a strange ritual. If someone clapped him on the back like that, he’d smack the shit out of them. But Erwin and Mike were both very masculine in that way, and Levi supposed it was just their way of saying hello.

Erwin greeted Levi next, taking his upper arm into his hand and pressing a kiss to the top of his head. Levi heard Mike let out a huff of annoyance at the action. He was a little embarrassed at Erwin’s open displays of affection. But maybe now that his friends knew, he didn’t mind kissing Levi in front of them. Levi wasn’t sure how to feel about it; it gave him jitters and made his face turn red. But part of him liked everyone knowing that Erwin was singling him out in this way; it made him feel special.

“Hello boys!” He heard a loud voice call out, immediately knowing who it was. He turned to see Hange waving at them, walking up with another man, whose name Levi couldn’t remember.

“Hi Hange!” Erwin greeted cheerfully, “Hi Moblit!”

Hange and Moblit walked down to the building they were waiting in front of, going to stand next to them as they waited for the last person. Levi could picture her: she had a blonde, short undercut with fierce blue eyes. He couldn’t remember her name, but he could remember her face pretty distinctly. He was good with things like that.

“Where’s Nana?” Hange asked, “She’s coming, right, Mike?”

Mike nodded in response, a man of few words. Erwin wrapped his arm around Levi’s shoulders, leaning down to whisper in his ear, “I can’t wait to see you drunk. I bet you’re adorable.”

Levi blushed and shoved his face away, grumbling swears under his breath and crossing his arms. Erwin chuckled and hugged him briefly with one arm before letting go. A woman was walking from the direction of the barracks towards them, and Levi recognized that this must be Nana.

“Hey!” Nana greeted as she approached, “Oh, Levi’s joining us?”

Erwin nodded, “Yeah, he’s going to tag along for the night. Hope that’s okay with everyone?”

Levi waited for protests, particularly from Mike, but nobody said anything. Aside from Mike, everyone else seemed okay with him being there. Erwin smiled when nobody spoke up, taking Levi’s hand into his own, “Okay then, let’s head out.”

The six of them began to walk into town, and Levi listened to the lively conversation that the others were having. Well, it was mostly Hange and Erwin; they were the loudest in the group, and could match one another’s energy. Mike and Levi were pretty silent, and Moblit and Nana interjected every once in a while.

They arrived at the pub, and Erwin let go of Levi’s hand once inside, heading to the bar to order a round of shots for everyone. The six of them downed the shots, and Levi visibly shivered at the taste of the whiskey as it burned in his chest.

Levi briefly glanced at the back of the bar, seeing the same hooded figure he’d seen in the marketplace. He narrowed his eyes, watching them carefully, but they soon disappeared out the back of the bar, and Levi tried to convince himself it was merely a coincidence - there was no reason to be suspicious of seeing the same person twice in a small town, right?

Mike contributed by ordering three pitchers of beer for them all to share, and they sat down at a table together. Levi was taking in everybody’s drinking habits: surprisingly, Moblit was a fast drinker, sipping on his drink pretty frequently. Hange was one to chug their drink, which wasn’t all that shocking to Levi. Mike and Erwin could drink a lot given their stature, and they probably each could’ve drank a whole pitcher by themselves. Nana was a lightweight, as she started giggling and slurring after only a shot and a drink. Levi had never really drank a lot before, but he was drinking a lot now, encouraged by the drinking habits of those around him. He could feel the alcohol starting to affect him the more they sat there; his head was fuzzy and he was starting to feel a little lighter, like he was floating. Levi had taken some of the money from his savings in his mattress to contribute at least a little bit - he didn’t like mooching off other people.

“I’ll get another pitcher,” Levi offered as Mike finished off the last one. He couldn’t afford three pitchers, but he could at least contribute something. Mike nodded, still eyeing Levi with suspicion as the shorter man got up from the table. Erwin and Hange were laughing obnoxiously about lord knows what, and Hange was elbowing Moblit to try and get him to laugh at the joke too. Nana was giggling absently at the joke, but not really paying attention.

Levi headed to the bar and ordered another pitcher of the same beer Mike had gotten, swaying a little as he stood there drunkenly. While he waited, he felt someone’s eyes on him, and turned to see a tall man hovering over him. He was fairly handsome: a little lanky, but he had green eyes and short brown curly locks.

“Hi there, gorgeous,” the man smirked, his fingers gracing the side of Levi’s cheek, “You here all alone? Lemme buy you a drink.”

The man was clearly drunk as well, swaying just like Levi was. But Levi was drunk, and he thought the man was good-looking, so his reaction was to blush and shake his head, stumbling over his response, “Erm… n-no. I’m here with friends, thanks.”

But the man was crowding his space now, taking a step closer and snaking his arm around Levi’s waist, pulling him closer and pressing his lips to Levi’s ear, “How would you like to get out of here together? I can show you a good time.”

Levi squirmed a little, starting to feel uncomfortable now. He didn’t care if the man was handsome, he didn’t want to go to home with him. He wriggled out of the man’s grasp, shaking his head, “No, thank you.”

But the man wasn’t taking no for an answer. He gripped Levi’s wrist so hard that it hurt, “Come on, baby. Let’s get out of here.”

Levi could feel panic settling in his chest as he shook his head. He tried to pry the man’s hand off, not wanting to have to cause a scene in the bar by kicking the shit out of him. He didn’t want to ruin the nice time Erwin’s friends were having by starting a fight. He felt the man’s hands snake around his waist again, this time going further and grasping his ass in his hands, growling, “I’m going to fuck this little ass so good.”

Levi gasped at the feeling, putting his hands on the man’s chest and trying to push him away. Levi was beginning to feel frantic; this man wasn’t listening to him. What the hell was he going to do without making a scene? He squeaked when the man started squeezing his asscheeks, desperately struggling against his tight hold.

“Hey,” he heard a loud voice snarl behind them. The man let him go and turned towards the voice, getting decked in the face by a large fist. Levi craned his neck to see over the man’s shoulder - it was Erwin. Levi felt relief wash over him, his heart pounding in his chest. Erwin was so sweet to save him, and Levi could feel that fluttering in his stomach again, though he still didn’t know what it was.

Erwin had the man by his shirt collar now, getting up in his face with the most furious look Levi had ever seen, nostrils flaring and lips spitting angrily, “Don’t you dare touch him like that. You stay the fuck away from him, do you understand?”

The man nodded, his nose bleeding from the initial punch, and Erwin let him go. Mike was standing behind Erwin, and Erwin turned to Mike, nodding at him. Mike grabbed the guy by the scruff of his collar before starting to drag him out of the bar. Erwin’s face returned to normal, and he placed his hands on either side of Levi’s face, as if checking for any marks the man might’ve left behind.

“Did he hurt you?” Erwin asked, a tone of panic in his voice, “I’m sorry I didn’t notice sooner.”

“I… I’m okay,” Levi muttered, “I’m okay, Erwin. Really. I would’ve taken care of it myself, it’s just… I didn’t want to cause a scene.”

Erwin smiled sadly at him, pressing a kiss to his forehead, “It’s okay, darling. I won’t let anyone touch you, okay? Go ahead and sit back down, I’ll get the pitcher.”

Levi nodded, feeling that giddy warmth flowing through his chest at Erwin’s words. He liked it when Erwin paid him special attention like that, especially when Erwin called him darling. He’d hated it at first, but it was starting to grow on him the more Erwin used it. Levi went and sat back down, feeling a stupid smile on his face as he thought about what Erwin had done for him.

“Aww,” Hange teased, “Levi, you’re blushing.”

“You must really like Erwin, huh?” Nana agreed with a giggle, and Levi wanted to smack the shit out of both of them for saying something like that. Of course he liked Erwin, but he didn’t like Erwin like that. They were just friends who fucked. What was so weird about that?

Erwin and Mike soon returned to the table with another pitcher, and Levi poured himself another glass, taking a long sip. He noticed Mike staring at him, and frowned a little, shooting him a glare.

He was about to ask what the hell was wrong - why the hell are you looking at me? - when Mike cleared his throat, grunting, “You okay?”

Levi felt a little bad for assuming the worst from Mike. He’d merely been wanting to make sure Levi was okay after the ordeal. He smiled a little and nodded, “Yeah. Thanks.”

Erwin reached across the table to take one of Levi’s hands into his own, squeezing it gently, “Don’t worry, Mike. If I hadn’t stepped in, he would’ve beat the shit out of that guy. Right, Levi?”

Levi nodded again, “Yeah. I probably would’ve.”

Mike chuckled, taking a sip of beer, “Good man.”

Erwin kissed the back of Levi’s hand, noting the bruising on his wrist from the man grabbing him and frowning. He pressed kisses there too, asking, “Does it hurt?”

Levi shook his head, “No… he just grabbed me real hard. I’m okay, Erwin. Really.”

He appreciated Erwin’s concern, and was getting drunkenly aroused by the simple act of Erwin’s lips on his hand, on his wrist. He was very attracted to Erwin, and he was busy staring at his hand where Erwin was kissing. When Erwin stopped, Levi looked up to meet his eyes, which he was surprised to find filled with a hunger that Levi only knew to be lust.

Erwin tilted his head, motioning towards the restroom on the nearby. Levi swallowed thickly, glancing nervously at Erwin’s friends, who were busy having their own conversation, laughing and enjoying one another’s company. Levi turned his eyes back to Erwin’s before nodding briefly. He could feel that hunger too, rising in his gut, that need to feel Erwin’s hands on him, to feel the man inside of him.

Erwin got up, grumbling something about needing to use the restroom, and Levi watched him head over to the door for the bathroom, motioning for Levi to follow. Nobody had even noticed what Erwin had said, and Levi was able to slip away from the table easily without causing suspicion. He knew Hange in particular wouldn’t let them live it down if they knew what Erwin and Levi were about to do.

Levi walked into the bathroom after Erwin, shutting the door. It was a single stall bathroom, but it had plenty of space. Levi didn’t think this would be particularly cleanly, though his drunk mind was starting to ignore that fact. As soon as he locked the door, Erwin pressed Levi against it, leaning down and kissing him feverishly. Levi clung to him, lips smashing against one another in a hungry fashion as they drunkenly groped at one another.

“I want you,” Levi growled when they pulled away, gripping Erwin by his bolo tie and tugging him down for another kiss, “Right now.”

“Mmm,” Erwin hummed between their lips, “I love when you’re so eager, darling.”

Levi was feeling more desperate the more that time passed while they were kissing, and he reached down to start undoing Erwin’s pants, unbuckling the belt and tearing the button open. He got down on his knees as he took out Erwin’s cock, mouth watering at how erect it was simply from their kisses. He took the head into his mouth, suckling on it before pulling more into his mouth and lapping at the veins on Erwin’s dick. Erwin groaned, his fingers lacing through Levi’s hair and tugging lightly.

“Good boy,” Erwin cooed, “You look so good on your knees, Levi. Like you belong there.”

Levi whined around him and sucked him harder at that, bobbing his head eagerly around Erwin’s cock. Erwin sighed contently, using his hands to guide Levi up and down on his cock over and over again. Levi’s eyes were half-lidded, mouth open wide and tongue wriggling against the heavy cock.

“Oh god,” Erwin groaned, “Get up, darling. I wanna fuck you.”

Levi bobbed his head for a few more seconds before pulling away and rising to his feet. Erwin didn’t hesitate in grasping Levi by the back of the head and dragging him forward for another heated kiss, and Levi found it hot that Erwin wanted to taste himself on Levi’s lips. He moaned into the kiss, fingers tangling in Erwin’s shirt and tugging him closer as they shared a passionate kiss. He’d never felt this way before - never had such a thirst for another person like he had for Erwin.

Erwin was fumbling with Levi’s pants now, tugging them down around his thighs and grasping at his asscheeks. He pulled them apart to expose his hole to the cold air, causing Levi to mewl pleasantly into their kiss.

“Such a naughty boy,” Erwin growled against Levi’s lips before moving to his neck, peppering kisses along his skin before sucking and licking at the skin there, “Wanting to get fucked in a public bathroom.”

Levi was breathing heavily, scraping at Erwin’s back and trying to buck his hips against Erwin’s. He didn’t understand why he was so feverish to have Erwin close to him; to have him touch him and caress him, kiss him and fuck him. All he knew was how desperate he was for those things.

“E-Erwin,” Levi whined, “Don’t tease me. I… I need you.”

Erwin chuckled breathlessly, nuzzling Levi’s neck before grasping him by his thighs and lifting him off the ground. Levi wrapped his legs around Erwin’s middle, feeling the man’s cock poking his asscheek. He spat on his hand as Erwin continued to kiss and suck at his collarbone, reaching down and lubricating his entrance before wrapping his wet hand around Erwin’s cock to lubricate that as well. He was still open from their earlier sex, and knew Erwin wouldn’t meet much resistance. Levi lined up Erwin’s cock with his entrance before feeling the man push up into him. Erwin silenced Levi’s loud moan with a kiss, the feeling of Erwin filling him up causing a slow but pleasurable burn in his gut. Erwin groaned and rested their foreheads together as he started to move. Levi clung to Erwin with his legs and arms, being shoved up into the door with each of Erwin’s thrusts. He used one hand to cling to the door so that it wouldn’t shake as much with their movements, wouldn’t bang against its frame as Erwin pounded him against it.

“E-Erwin,” Levi gasped as the man hit his prostate, “Erwin.”

“Shh,” Erwin whispered against his lips before kissing him again, “Shh darling. Taking my cock like that… fuck. I bet everyone in the damn bar knows how you like taking cock now.”

Levi groaned at Erwin’s words. His words always lit a fire in Levi’s belly, and they did so now, arousal filling his stomach as Erwin continued to slam his hips up into Levi repeatedly. Levi was grasping desperately at Erwin’s hair, their panting, hot breaths shared between them amongst the moans and grunts from the two.

“Oh Erwin,” Levi whimpered, capturing Erwin’s lips in another heated kiss, “S-So good… so good to me. Damn.”

Erwin groaned, thrusting upwards harshly a couple times. He glanced down to look at where their bodies connected, and Levi’s eyes followed as well, seeing that veiny cock going in and out of his hole, being sucked in and out of the two globes of his asscheeks. The sight was almost too much, and Levi slapped a hand over his mouth as he let out a loud, choked moan, tears filling the corners of his eyes. It was so good.

“Levi,” Erwin grunted, fucking him harder, which Levi didn’t even think was possible until he did it, “Oh Levi. You’re so… damn tight.”

“Gonna cum,” Levi panted, feeling that warmth pooling in his stomach, threatening to spill over, “Erwin. D-Don’t… Don’t stop!”

Erwin squeezed his eyes shut and gave it his all, pounding up into him brutally. Levi buried his face in Erwin’s shoulder, reaching the hand that was holding the door down to his cock so he could catch his seed, not wanting to make a mess of their clothes. He came hard, seeing stars, his whole body clenching up as he spilled into his hand.

“Fuck,” Levi panted, face still burrowed into Erwin’s shoulder. He was oversensitive with it now as Erwin rolled up into him with a few stuttered thrusts before cumming inside of him; warmth spreading through his insides. Erwin was breathing heavily, the two simply holding one another. Levi pulled away slowly, resting his forehead lazily against Erwin’s. Erwin’s hair was all out of place, bangs across his forehead and a deep, powerful expression on his face. Levi didn’t know what it was; it almost looked possessive, lustful.

“I will never let another man touch you again,” Erwin growled against Levi’s lips before delivering one final, crushing thrust up into Levi, “You’re mine.”

Levi gasped and groaned at the feeling, his sensitive cock twitching. He could feel just how much Erwin meant what he was saying. He didn’t know how to feel about it. He’d never been someone else’s before. But he reacted almost immediately, grasping Erwin by the back of the head and kissing him hungrily.

When the two finally pulled away, they were breathing deeply, still clinging to one another. Erwin’s softening cock slipped out of him, leaving him empty and dripping with Erwin’s cum. He whimpered at the loss of feeling, and Erwin put him down on trembling legs. Levi slowly let go of Erwin, the two still maintaining that intense eye contact for a moment before breaking it.

“Hand me some toilet paper,” Levi mumbled, and Erwin handed him some so he could clean up. He cleaned himself up and tugged his pants back on as Erwin got redressed himself.

Levi fixed his hair and straightened his clothes, looking up at Erwin, whose hair was still out of place. Levi smiled affectionately at him, reaching up and fixing Erwin’s bangs, pushing them back out of his face.

“Thanks,” Erwin smiled back, kissing Levi’s forehead lightly.

“Yeah,” Levi shrugged, going for the door and unlocking it. The two walked back out, both trying to be subtle as they made their way back to the table. The four of Erwin’s friends were still talking amongst each other, and Levi felt some relief that they hadn’t seemed to notice the two had left.

But as soon as they sat down, Levi watched Mike’s nose crinkle, and he instantly turned towards Erwin and grunted, “You reek of sex, Winnie.”

Erwin blushed, smiling sheepishly as the rest of his friends turned their attention towards him after Mike’s words. Hange immediately started laughing, “Oh my god. You two couldn’t keep it in your pants for one night?!”

Levi turned a deep shade of red, resting his forehead in his hand and looking away from them in embarrassment. Erwin was laughing nervously, “Come on guys. You can make fun of me, but let’s not embarrass Levi, okay? It was my suggestion, anyway.”

Levi took a moment to calm himself down before he looked back towards the others. Hange was grinning like an idiot, Moblit and Nana looked equally uncomfortable, and Mike looked irritated. Erwin was clearly trying to smooth things over with his friends, trying to change the conversation. Levi watched Erwin for a moment, taking in his charismatic characteristics; how he smiled so sweetly, the dimples around his lips, the creases around his eyes. He was beautiful. And Levi could feel himself getting that fluttering feeling in his stomach again.

Levi shivered violently as the snow fell around him. It was his first snow, about two weeks after the night at the pub, and even with his military coat, he was freezing. He held his arms around himself as he shook, burrowing his icy cold nose in his coat collar. They were out on training in the forest, though Levi wasn’t sure why the commander would choose such a cold day to do so. Mike and Nana were busy showing the new recruits how to maneuver through the snowy trees in winter, and Levi was watching from the ground, too cold to even move. Mike flew back to the ground, landing next to Levi and frowning at him.

“You’ll never survive another mission if you can’t live through this cold,” he muttered, and Levi shot him a glare. The two of them still didn’t get along. Mike liked to poke and prod at Levi, say little nonchalant things that made the shorter man furious. And he knew Mike did it on purpose too.

“Sh-Shut up,” Levi grumbled, “I’m… I’m fine.”

Erwin soon landed next to them, walking towards the two and frowning, “Levi? Are you okay? Your lips are turning blue.”

“He’s cold,” Mike explained, “Probably too small to hold much body heat.”

Levi narrowed his eyes at the tall bastard, swearing under his breath at his words. Erwin merely chuckled, finding the whole thing amusing. Commander Shadis soon landed amongst the three, seeing Levi and sighing in irritation.

“Smith, take Levi back to base,” Shadis ordered, “Get him warmed up. We don’t want him to get sick.”

Levi wanted to protest; to say that he wasn’t a baby, he could handle a little cold. But the idea of warming up, maybe even by a fire, sounded too good to be true. And going with Erwin was an even more appealing idea. Erwin nodded, placing a hand on Levi’s back and leading him down the path towards the military base. Levi was visibly shaking, and Erwin could probably feel it now that his hand was on him.

“You alright?” Erwin asked, pausing to take off his cloak and wrap it around Levi’s shoulders, “You’re shivering pretty badly.”

“S cold,” Levi grunted, tugging the cloak around him gratefully. It was full of Erwin’s warmth, his scent, and Levi reveled in it. He breathed it in, sighing happily at the smell of pomade and mint toothpaste.

“We’ll get you warmed up, don’t worry,” Erwin clapped him lightly on the back, and as soon as they were far enough away from prying eyes and ears, Erwin wrapped his arm around Levi’s shoulders to keep him warm.

“You not used to the cold?” Erwin asked, “Was it not that cold Underground?”

Levi shook his head, “N-Not really. It’s pretty warm in the interior. The winters aren’t nearly this bad.”

Erwin nodded in understanding, “Well, we can go to my office. I have a fireplace in there. I’ll get you warm, darling.”

Levi was shaking badly now. He couldn’t feel his toes or the tips of his fingers anymore. The wind was whipping his face harshly, and his ears, nose, and lips were numb with a stinging feeling.

A red bird landed on a tree branch nearby, and Levi paused to stare up at it in some awe. He’d never seen any birds so brightly colored, and despite the fact that he was shivering, he had to stop to look at it. Erwin stopped with him, smiling softly as he explained, “That’s a cardinal. It’s a male bird. Quite pretty, isn’t it?”

Levi nodded. It was very pretty. The only birds they had in the Underground were pigeons, and they weren’t very pretty to look at. A harsh wind whipped through the air, Levi shivering horribly and whimpering from the cold. Erwin looked down at him with concern.

“Levi?” He asked, a worried tinge in his voice, “Are you sure you’re alright?”

Levi shook his head, sniffling as his nose began to run, “M… M cold.”

Erwin smiled affectionately at him before he walked over and lifted Levi bridal style, just a little cold bundle in his arms. Levi tucked his face into Erwin’s warm shoulder, feeling the man’s body heat radiate between them. They finally arrived at the captain’s quarters, walking into the building and down the hall to Erwin’s office. Erwin kicked open the door, walking over to the couches in front of the fireplace and laying Levi there before taking off Levi’s boots and placing them on the floor. Erwin took some firewood and placed it in the fireplace, lighting it up and starting to strip himself of his winter gear. Levi was shivering violently, hugging himself tightly. He could feel the heat from the fireplace, but he was too cold to sit up and get any closer. Once Erwin had put his winter clothes away, he noticed that Levi hadn’t moved, and kneeled next to him, starting to help him out of his gloves.

“Oh wow,” Erwin frowned as he took Levi’s hands in his own, “You really are cold. Your hands are freezing.”

He took both of Levi’s hands between his own, rubbing them to get the feeling back and blowing hot air onto them. He had that concerned look on his face again. Levi’s fingertips were white, paler than usual. Erwin helped Levi out of the cloak and coat next, taking Levi’s face into his hands to examine him.

“Your nose and ears are all red, but at least your lips are turning back to a normal color,” Erwin noted, “Scoot over, darling. I’ll keep you warm.”

Levi scooted over to make some room for Erwin, who lay next to Levi on the couch and wrapped his arms around him, holding him close. Levi clung to him, freezing hands fisting at Erwin’s warm shirt, his cold socked feet entangling in Erwin’s warm legs.

“Shh. Is that better?” Erwin cooed, running his hands up and down Levi’s back to warm him up, “Am I keeping you warm?”

Levi nodded into his chest, finally starting to warm up, “Y-Yeah. It’s better.”

“Good,” Erwin murmured against the top of Levi’s head before pressing a kiss there, “… I can warm you up in other ways, if you’d like.”

Levi blushed, burying his face into Erwin’s shirt and mumbling, “Is that all you think about?”

Erwin laughed, a laugh that vibrated between them, shook the couch a little, “No. It was just a suggestion. Besides, you don’t seem to be in objection, are you?”

Levi had to admit, having sex did sound like a nice way to warm up. Maybe afterwards, Erwin would cuddle him like he was doing now, would whisper sweet things in his ear and run his fingers up and down his spine. Maybe Erwin could even hold him while they were having sex.

“Let’s do it, then,” Levi pulled his face away to look up at Erwin, who was smiling down at him sweetly, “But… But I want you to hold me when we do it… keep me warm, okay?”

Erwin nodded a little, whispering, “Turn around and pull down your pants, I’ll fuck you like that while I’m holding you.”

Levi nodded, part of him wanting to complain about having to face away from Erwin. He wanted to be able to share kisses with him, nuzzle into Erwin’s neck and moan as he was being fucked. But he decided that was far too intimate for their relationship anyway, and he turned around, tugging his pants and briefs down to his thighs.

He listened to Erwin shuffle with his own pants, felt that warm cock against his asscheek. He ground his ass back against it, hearing Erwin take in a sharp breath at his actions. Erwin wrapped an arm around Levi’s waist, tugging him closer and using his other hand to hold his cock, rubbing it between Levi’s cheeks and over his hole.

“E-Erwin,” Levi whimpered, “You gotta get me ready. I’m not open enough.”

“You do it,” Erwin ordered, “I wanna see you finger yourself.”

A small drop in his gut from Erwin’s words convinced him to follow along with Erwin’s demands. He reached two fingers up to his own lips, sucking on them and getting them slick with saliva. Erwin was softly grinding his cock between Levi’s asscheeks, rubbing up against his hole and causing Levi to sigh contently.

Levi reached his hand back, pushing Erwin’s cock out of the way before rubbing the pad of his finger across his hole. It’d been a couple of days since they’d fucked last, so he’d need a little stretching before they could do anything. He could feel Erwin’s eyes on his hole, watching as he gently pushed a finger in to the knuckle. Erwin’s breath hitched, a soft groan escaping his mouth at the sight. Levi whined, pushing his finger in a little further and wriggling it around inside of him. The slow burn consuming his stomach was growing, and he let out a moan as he felt Erwin groping at one of his asscheeks in encouragement.

“Good boy,” Erwin praised, “Keep going. Stretch yourself for my cock, come on.”

Levi whimpered at his words, lining up his second finger to push in next to the first. He moaned as he pushed it in, scissoring the fingers and stretching the opening. Erwin was watching intently, hands on Levi’s cheeks, holding them open as Levi fingered himself.

“Mmm,” Levi mewled, “Ngh- E-Erwin… I-I want it…”

Erwin groaned, thumbs rubbing into Levi’s skin as he watched, “I’m sure you do… I can see just where you want it, darling.”

Levi whimpered, fingers moving around inside himself as he pushed a third finger past the rim. Erwin sighed at the sight, “Such a pretty boy. You’re so fucking gorgeous… are you ready for it?”

Levi pulled his fingers out slowly, wiping them on his leg and nodding, “Y-Yeah. I’m ready…”

He felt Erwin’s cock rub against his stretched rim before it started to push in with a loud squelch. Levi reached a hand back to place on Erwin’s hip, squeezing it gently to encourage him to continue. He moaned as Erwin sank in further and further, his hand lifting Levi’s thigh a little so he could push in all the way. The burning in his lower stomach was growing as Erwin pushed in, bottoming out and pressing a few quick kisses to Levi’s neck to soothe him.

“Fuck,” Levi cursed, his other hand moving to cling to the fabric of the couch in front of him, “Oh Erwin.”

“Shh,” Erwin whispered in his ear breathlessly, “Feels so good, doesn’t it?”

Levi nodded, mouth hanging open in a long moan as Erwin pulled out almost all the way before sinking back in. Erwin grunted a little with the effort, pulling out and pushing back in. He started a rhythm of thrusts, one hand on Levi’s hip and the other on Levi’s thigh, holding him open.

“Erwin,” Levi moaned, “A-Ah!”

He was being pressed against the couch with each thrust, his cock rubbing against the fabric in front of him as Erwin pounded into him from behind. Levi whimpered, moving the hand he had on Erwin’s hip up to his cheek, feeling Erwin’s sideburns under his fingers.

“Shit,” Erwin swore, burying his face into Levi’s shoulder and pressing kisses to Levi’s neck, “So fucking beautiful. You feel amazing, sweetheart.”

Sweetheart? Levi could feel himself blushing, That’s a new one. He could never tell if Erwin’s nicknames were actually affectionate or not. He was so used to darling by this point, that sweetheart surprised him. It made him smile a little, his heart pounding in his chest giddily. He moaned openly at the nickname, pushing his hips back to meet Erwin’s thrusts.

“C-Call me that again,” Levi requested, trying not to sound too desperate, “T-Tell me… Tell me again, Erwin.”

“Such a gorgeous boy,” Erwin immediately gave him as he rolled his hips a little faster, the snap of their hips hitting one another echoing throughout the room, “My sweetheart.”

Levi moaned louder, unsure of why those words were making him so aroused. He grasped at Erwin’s hair, pressing him into his neck and whimpering. Erwin was fucking him harshly now, balls hitting the globes of his ass brutally. Levi let out a little ‘ah’ noise at each thrust, head falling back onto Erwin’s shoulder. Erwin was mouthing at Levi’s neck lazily, groans vibrating against Levi’s skin.

“Am… Am I…” Levi panted, “Am I being good?”

Erwin nodded into Levi’s neck, “So good. Such a good boy.”

He punctuated his words with two hard thrusts, causing Levi to cry out and moan. The overwhelming pleasure in his stomach was growing, and he knew he wouldn’t last much longer. Erwin himself was breathing hard against Levi’s neck, clearly getting close himself.

“Are you gonna cum for me?” Erwin asked, breath tickling Levi’s skin.

Levi shivered, nodding and whining loudly, “Y-Yeah. Yeah, Erwin.”

Erwin moved his head from Levi’s shoulder, moving a hand up to grasp Levi by his jaw and turning his head so he could kiss him deeply. Levi whimpered into the kiss. This had been exactly what he’d wanted from the beginning: to kiss Erwin while being fucked. It sent him over the edge, and his hand shot down to his cock to catch the seed there so that he wouldn’t make a mess of the nice couch. He moaned into the kiss, feeling Erwin give him a few more stuttered thrusts before cumming inside of him.

Levi sighed contently, pulling away from Erwin and resting their foreheads against one another. He didn’t understand this feeling. This was more than friendship, wasn’t it? Something deeper, something that required so much trust between them. He didn’t understand what it was, but he knew that he’d never felt this way for Furlan, nor for Isabel. This was something different from a friendship.

Erwin slipped his softening cock from Levi, and Levi took a handkerchief from his pocket, quickly cleaning up both his front and back so that he wouldn’t ruin the couch. Once he was clean, he shuffled around on the couch, turning to face Erwin and smiling up at him sheepishly. Erwin smiled back down at him, wrapping a large hand around the back of Levi’s head and resting their foreheads against one another again.

“I love it when you smile for me,” Erwin whispered against his lips, “Makes me feel special.”

Levi blushed, pecking Erwin’s lips in embarrassment, “Don’t read into it.”

Erwin chuckled, fingers running up and down Levi’s spine, just like Levi had wanted. He felt so safe here, like he could let go of all his worries when he was with Erwin. He couldn’t help the stupid grin on his face, and buried it into Erwin’s chest so that he couldn’t see. He didn’t want Erwin to know that he was feeling all these things, as he didn’t understand them himself.

“You know I mean it when I say those things,” Erwin murmured against the crown of Levi’s hair, “When I say that you’re beautiful.”

Levi could feel that horrible blush creeping up on his skin again, and he only burrowed his face into Erwin’s chest further. He didn’t understand how someone could think he was beautiful, especially someone who looked as stunning as Erwin.

“Look at me, darling,” Erwin requested, and Levi couldn’t help but listen, tilting his red face up to look into Erwin’s sharp blue eyes.

Erwin was caressing his cheek lightly, and Levi couldn’t help but feel that fluttering in his stomach again. He wanted to cry, it was such a wonderful feeling to be here with Erwin like this. He didn’t know what was so emotional about it all, but it was just a feeling that he’d never felt before; this joy, this safety.

“You’re so beautiful,” Erwin sighed, his fingers tracing Levi’s cheek before running along his lips, “Your lips,” moving upwards to brush them next to his eyes, “Your eyes,” moving them to run through his hair, “Your hair. Beautiful.”

Levi had never felt so red in his whole life. He swallowed thickly, that emotional feeling flowing back to him. Why was he so emotional? What the hell was wrong with him? Maybe he really was getting sick.

Nobody had ever called him beautiful before. Well, that wasn’t true. He’d had plenty of creeps call him beautiful, trying to entice him, give him things, tell him how pretty he was. But he’d never had someone sincerely tell him he was beautiful. He thought perhaps Erwin was pulling his leg.

“You… You don’t have to say those things,” Levi mumbled, eyes flicking down to avoid Erwin’s, “Specially if they’re not true.”

“Darling,” Erwin tilted Levi’s chin up so that they were looking in one another’s eyes again, “I wouldn’t lie about that. You’re gorgeous.”

Levi couldn’t help it now. The tears were coming to the corner of his eyes. No, he thought desperately, Not now. Not in front of Erwin. He sniffled, looking around uncomfortably, trying to avoid Erwin’s intense gaze. He didn’t know what to do with himself. He wanted to run, wanted to get the hell out of there as fast as he could. He couldn’t let Erwin see him in this vulnerable state.

“S-Stop it,” Levi pleaded, “Please. I… I don’t want… I can’t…”

“Levi,” Erwin insisted, “It’s okay. I’m here. I’m not judging you, sweetheart.”

There it was again. Sweetheart. Levi whimpered, shaking his head frantically, feeling panicked. He tried to push Erwin away, reaching down to tug his pants back up so he could get up and run out of there. But Erwin was one step ahead of him, sensing what was happening and wrapping his arms tighter around Levi so he couldn’t go.

“Levi,” Erwin tried again, “Don’t run away… it’s okay. Tell me what’s wrong.”

“No,” Levi sniffled, pounding his fists weakly against Erwin’s chest, “N-No, I… I can’t. I want to go. Let me go.”

“Shh,” Erwin shushed him, “Just let me hold you. It’s okay to cry. It’s okay. Tell me what’s going on.”

“No!” Levi cried out, panic filling his chest, “No no no! Let me go! I don’t want to hurt you!”

“You don’t have to hurt me, Levi,” Erwin said as he reached down to grip Levi’s wrists, stopping him from hitting him, “Just calm down. It’s okay to cry. It’s okay.”

Levi could feel his lower lip quivering as he looked around, wanting to look anywhere but Erwin’s face. He couldn’t take it; Erwin must be so disappointed in him. Humanity’s strongest soldier, falling apart in his arms like a small child.

“I can’t… I can’t,” Levi’s hands shook, trying to tug them away from Erwin, “Let me go. Please, let me go!”

“Levi,” Erwin whispered, “Levi, look at me.”

Levi looked up at him finally, into his eyes. He was shocked to find no disappointment there, no pity. There was pure concern in Erwin’s eyes, as if he cared so much about Levi’s well-being. Levi didn’t understand why Erwin cared so much about him.

“My beautiful darling,” Erwin murmured, “My gorgeous Levi.”

Levi shook his head, tears finally breaking forward as he let out a quiet sob. Erwin was nodding, letting go of Levi’s wrists and wrapping his arms around him, shushing him and whispering things like ‘it’s okay’ and ‘I’ve got you’ in his ear. Levi felt his walls breaking down, his emotions overflowing. He’d never allowed himself to cry in front of others like this, not even Isabel and Furlan.

“Why are you crying?” Erwin asked, rubbing his back, “Talk to me.”

Levi sobbed, fingers grasping at Erwin’s shirt as he rested his forehead against Erwin’s chest. He didn’t know why he was crying, if he was honest with himself. Was he crying because Erwin had called him beautiful? Was he crying because he felt safe here, and he wasn’t used to that feeling? What the hell was wrong with him?

Erwin just held him while he cried, and Levi had never felt so pathetic in his whole life. But he knew Erwin wasn’t judging him, wasn’t disappointed in him. He’d said those things, right? So Levi knew he wasn’t pathetic for crying. Not here, not with Erwin.

Levi didn’t know how long he cried for, but it felt like once he’d started, he couldn’t stop himself. He shook in Erwin’s arms, tears flowing constantly. Finally, after what felt like ages, the tears slowed, the sobs subsided, and he was simply sniffling, feeling a bit of relief at letting all his emotions go like that.

“I…” Levi piped up in the silence, “I’ve never been told I’m beautiful… not like that. Not by somebody who meant it.”

He heard Erwin sigh with a tinge of sadness behind it, and he was being held tighter now, “You are, Levi. So beautiful. Don’t let anyone tell you different.”

Levi felt his lower lip wobble again, and willed himself to stop it this time. He was okay now. He didn’t need to cry anymore. He was beautiful. Erwin thought he was beautiful, so it must be true. Erwin wouldn’t lie to him, would he? Levi could feel that smile creeping up on him again, burying his face into Erwin’s chest so Erwin couldn’t see it. He didn’t need Erwin to know how he felt. He didn’t even know how he felt, so how could he explain it to Erwin? All he knew was that Erwin was special to him. And that, to Erwin, he was beautiful.

Levi was under Erwin’s desk a week later, sucking his cock. He’d had Erwin’s cock in his mouth for over an hour now, just suckling with half-lidded eyes, warming Erwin’s cock as he worked. He liked being used like this; it made him feel like he had a purpose. Plus, it made him incredibly aroused. Erwin was sighing from his ministrations, carding a hand through his hair and absently fucking his fingers into Levi’s mouth every once in a while.

Finally, he leaned back in his chair, pulling his length out of Levi’s mouth and looking down at him, “Levi, come here darling. Let me fuck you over my desk.”

Levi got up, giddy with excitement over getting to do this. They’d both been busy over the past week, unable to have sex, and Levi had prepared himself in the shower this morning as he knew he’d get to spend all afternoon in Erwin’s office. He wanted to surprise Erwin with the fact that he’d opened himself up in preparation for this moment.

But before Levi even got the chance to bend over, there was a loud knock on the door of Erwin’s office. Levi scowled, grumbling swears under his breath as he moved to sit in the chair in front of Erwin’s desk, crossing his arms.

“Come in,” Erwin called after zipping his pants back up.

The door opened, Hange standing there with an obnoxious grin on their face, “I knew I’d find Levi in here! Did I interrupt?”

“No, Hange,” Erwin replied with a smile, lying through his teeth, “Did you need something from him?”

Levi wanted to smack the shit out of Hange for interrupting them, and Erwin for lying about it. If it were him, he would’ve kicked Hange out and bent over Erwin’s desk in a matter of minutes. But Erwin was ever the professional, and Hange was giggling excitedly as they entered the office and shut the door behind them.

“Why didn’t you tell us your birthday was coming up?!” Hange exclaimed, grasping Levi by the shoulders and shaking him lightly.

Levi could feel his heart beating faster, a panic coming over him. Oh no, he thought, How did they find that out? He didn’t like people knowing about his birthday. He’d made Isabel and Furlan promise to keep his birthday a secret amongst the three of them. He didn’t like people to fuss over him.

“Your birthday is coming up, Levi?” Erwin asked with a raise of his eyebrow, “Why didn’t you say anything?”

Levi blushed, shaking his head, “It’s… It’s not a big deal. I don’t really like to celebrate it.”

Hange let go of him and sat next to him, “Levi! We have to celebrate! Come on, what do you wanna do? We could go to the bar… we could go out to dinner… ooh! Ooh! We could throw a party!”

“No,” Levi insisted, “Please no. I really don’t-”

“I’ll get right on it!” Hange stood back up, bouncing excitedly, “Don’t you worry about a thing, Levi! I’ll make sure you have the best birthday party ever!”

Levi held his hands up to tell them to stop, “N-No… Hange, I really don’t want-”

“I’ll see you guys later!” Hange exclaimed, rushing from the office and shutting the door behind them as they left. Levi was sitting in the wake of the confusing and speedy encounter, staring at the door with slightly widened eyes. He turned back to Erwin, who looked slightly amused at what had just happened, chuckling under his breath.

“Don’t laugh,” Levi frowned, “You have to stop them! I… I don’t want a party!”

Erwin smiled, “You must not know Hange if you think I have the power to stop them. Hange will do whatever they’ve set their mind to, Levi. Besides, a party will be fun! We can drink, dance, sing, play games-”

“That all sounds awful,” Levi grumbled, “I don’t like the attention…”

Erwin laughed a little, “It’ll be okay, darling. It’ll just be one night, and who knows? Maybe you’ll have fun.”

Levi huffed in annoyance, crossing his arms, “I doubt it.”

Erwin scratched at an itch on the side of his nose, a smirk on his face at Levi’s clear annoyance as he replied, “So what day is your birthday then?”

Levi shot him a small glare for the question before sighing loudly, “It’s Friday. The 25th.”

Erwin tapped his chin lightly, as if he was thinking, “The 25th…”

Levi didn’t know what was going through Erwin’s head; what he was thinking about. But he wanted to get his mind off his birthday. He didn’t want to talk about it. When he was a child, Kenny would bring him sweets on his birthday, but other than that, he didn’t have many happy memories from his birthdays - no parties, no cake, no candles, no happy childhood like Erwin probably had. Like they all probably had.

Levi stood from his chair, placing his hands on the desk and leaning forwards, “Now, where were we?”

He wanted to move on, to forget about his birthday. Erwin smiled coyly, placing his hands on the desk and standing, “As much as I’d love to have you bent over my desk, Levi, I do have some matters I must attend to. Perhaps we can reconvene at a different time?”

Levi sighed in frustration as Erwin began to head to the door, waiting for Levi to join him so he could lock up his office. He just couldn’t catch a break, could he?

Levi knocked on Erwin’s door for the third time, annoyed that he wasn’t answering. It was his birthday, the cursed day. Thankfully, nobody had said anything to him the entire day, so he’d made it through without having to deal with too much attention. He was almost suspicious, as even Hange hadn’t said anything, and he knew that they were the most excited to celebrate his birthday out of anyone.

Finally, the office door opened, and Erwin was standing in the doorway, wearing a nice button-up shirt with a light blue cardigan over it and a pair of tan trousers. Why was he dressed so nicely? Levi stared at him skeptically, about to ask when Erwin invited him to come in. Levi walked into the office, seeing a box on the desk that was wrapped with nice bright blue paper and a pretty white bow on top. Levi internally groaned. He didn’t want anyone to get him gifts - it made him feel guilty. He didn’t want to owe anyone anything, and Erwin had already bought him that cravat in the marketplace. What could he possibly have gotten him for his birthday?

“I got you a gift,” Erwin smiled, placing a kiss to the crown of Levi’s head before closing his office door, “Happy birthday, darling.”

Levi was blushing, not used to this kind of attention on his birthday. Erwin took his seat at his desk, motioning for Levi to come and open the gift. Levi huffed in annoyance, trying to hide his embarrassment in irritation. He walked over and picked up the gift carefully, not sure if it was something fragile or not. He pulled the bow, undoing it and letting it fall from the gift before he gently tore at the paper. Levi wasn’t used to opening gifts - he’d only gotten one or two gifts from Kenny growing up, and those had been very special occasions for him: once when Kenny had gotten him that knife, and the other time he’d gotten Levi a new set of clothes - both times wrapped in some old newspaper. He’d never had anything wrapped so nicely as this, and he was almost hesitant in tearing the paper, not wanting to ruin it.

But he eventually got the paper off, seeing a regular cardboard box beneath it. He glanced up at Erwin briefly - the bastard was grinning with excitement - before starting to open the box. He saw a bit of white as he peered into the box, and reached in to pull whatever it was out. It was a tea cup, porcelain white with a bright red cardinal painted on the front. Levi’s mouth parted in some shock, setting the box on the desk and immediately examining the beautiful tea cup, turning it in his hands as cautiously as he could; he was terrified he might break it.

He looked up at Erwin in shock, “It’s… It’s a tea cup.”

Erwin smiled knowingly, “Yes, Levi. It’s a tea cup. Your tea cup. Look at the bottom.”

Levi flipped the tea cup to look at the bottom, where he saw his name written in elegant cursive with black paint: Levi. It said his name on it. Levi could feel a giddiness filling his heart, looking up at Erwin with a shy smile, “That’s… That’s my name!”

Erwin couldn’t stop beaming, “Yes, Levi. I had them paint your name on it; so you’d always know it’s yours.”

Levi tilted the tea cup back so he could look at the cardinal painted on the front. It was so pretty, the lovely bird they’d seen walking back in the snow not so long ago. Levi loved this gift. It was probably the best gift he’d received - even better than the knife from Kenny. He wanted to give Erwin everything to repay him - kiss him, hug him, nuzzle his face into Erwin’s neck and thank him again and again for getting him something so wonderful.

“It’s beautiful…” Levi murmured, still looking over the tea cup. It was so white. Growing up, he’d only ever drank out of metal cups and mugs, sometimes old tin cans. He’d never owned porcelain; it must’ve cost Erwin a small fortune to buy this for him.

“You like it?” Erwin asked.

Levi nodded cheerfully, gently placing the tea cup back into the box to keep it safe. He closed the box, smiling up at Erwin, “Thank you, Erwin. I… I’ve never had anything so nice. It’s so generous of you.”

Erwin leaned back in his chair, almost in relief, as if he had been worried Levi might not like it. Levi was about to stand, to go around the desk and give Erwin the biggest kiss, but Erwin reached under his desk, pulling out another box. This one was black, not wrapped, with a silk black ribbon. Another gift? Levi thought. He couldn’t accept all this - it was too much for Erwin to buy him such a nice porcelain tea cup, let alone get him a second gift.

But Erwin pushed the box across the desk towards him, swallowing thickly as though he was nervous. Why is he nervous? Levi wondered, tilting his head in curiosity as he drew the box closer to him on the desk.

“This is for you too,” Erwin forced a smile even though he was clearly on edge for some reason, “I bought it when I visited the capital the other day.”

Levi eyed him suspiciously for a moment before placing his hand on the box, pulling the ribbon and letting it fall onto the desk. He took the top off the box and immediately felt himself turning red as he found a pair of lacy, red lingerie inside - the type that women wear. Levi’s heart rate picked up. The lingerie was gorgeous; it looked like it was intricately hand-crafted; Levi knew how much work went into making lace, and the fabric that wasn’t lace was silk, which Levi had never even touched in his life let alone worn. He looked up at Erwin, who was also flushed, waiting for an explanation.

“I… I saw it in a store window and thought you would look stunning in it,” he explained, “It’s… It’s something women wear for their husbands in the capital.”

Levi was thoroughly embarrassed, though he wasn’t entirely sure why he should be. He and Erwin had been intimate for some time now, and the lingerie was a very lovely gift. He was just worried: what if he didn’t look good in it? What if he turned Erwin off?

“I… I like it,” Levi said slowly, picking up the panties and running his fingers over the silky bits before tracing the lace with his index finger, “It’s pretty…” He looked up at Erwin, “Do you really think I’ll look good in them?”

Erwin nodded, sucking in a deep breath as if he’d forgotten how to breathe, “Y-Yes, Levi. You’d look… well, I can’t even put into words how I imagine you’d look.”

Levi took the bralette out next, examining it carefully before noting that Erwin was watching his every move like a hawk, like he was seeking Levi’s approval. Levi raised his eyes to meet Erwin’s, the two holding eye contact for a moment before Levi whispered, “Close your eyes, Erwin. I… I’m going to put it on.”

Erwin’s eyes widened slightly, as though he hadn’t expected Levi to want to put it on right away. But he barely hesitated, taking only a brief moment of surprise before he covered his eyes with his hands, looking down at his lap so Levi would know he wasn’t peeking. It almost looked funny: a grown man covering his eyes with his hands like a child.

Levi rose from his chair and started to take off his clothes, folding them neatly and placing them on the chair he’d just been sitting in. He moved the tea cup box on top of his clothes, suspecting that he was about to be bent over the desk, and not wanting to accidentally knock the box off the desk and break it. Once he was finally in the nude, he picked up the bralette, slipping his arms through and fastening the eyelets at the back. He adjusted it, thinking how odd it felt to have something tight like this over his chest, though he supposed their military gear wasn’t much different. He took the panties out next, turning them the right way round. The back was simply a lacy line that would split his asscheeks, putting them on display for his lover. He stepped into them and pulled them up, checking to make sure Erwin was still covering his eyes - he was. Levi adjusted his cock and balls so that they sat comfortably in the silk at the front, feeling the lace string at the back settle between his cheeks. He examined himself as best he could without a mirror, deciding this was as good as it was going to get.

“You… You can look now,” Levi muttered, holding one arm with his hand across his stomach, nerves filling his chest.

Erwin took his hands away and looked up from his lap, eyes widening at the sight of Levi in the lingerie. His lips parted, practically gaping at the man in front of him. Levi felt a little vulnerable like this, though he did like the way Erwin was staring at him.

“L-Levi,” Erwin breathed, “You… You look absolutely perfect. Come here, darling. I want to touch you.”

Levi, ever obedient to Erwin’s words, let go of his arm and walked around the desk to stand in front of Erwin, each step filling his stomach with a fluttering anxiety. He wasn’t so sure he looked perfect like Erwin had said, but he was excited for Erwin to touch him. This whole situation had him a little aroused: Erwin wanting to see him in something so raunchy and Levi obliging and putting the outfit on for him.

Erwin’s eyes were raking Levi’s body, taking in every inch of him. When Levi stood in front of Erwin, he was surprised to notice Erwin was forming quite the tent in his pants already. Levi blushed, realizing just how much this outfit was turning Erwin on.

Erwin grasped Levi by the ass, pulling him closer and running his finger along the lace between his cheeks. Levi whimpered quietly at that as the fabric rubbed against his hole, but Erwin wasn’t quite done examining the lingerie yet. He pressed a palm to Levi’s cock, feeling the silk there with the lace border and sighing contently.

“God, Levi,” Erwin let out a shaky breath, “The things you do to me.”

He let his fingers trail upwards, a single digit circling Levi’s nipple through the lace of the bralette. Levi could feel his cock twitching in the panties, his fists clenched at his sides as he tried to hold himself back from jumping into Erwin’s lap and attacking him with kisses and much more.

Erwin hummed in satisfaction, muttering something about how this was the ‘best money ever spent’ before asking, “Would you mind spinning in a circle for me, sweetheart?”

Levi could feel himself getting redder, but he nodded, slowly turning in a circle for Erwin to examine him. He could hear Erwin breathing deeply, could feeling the man’s fingers grace his hips, his ass, as he turned. When he was facing Erwin again, the man had a hungry, lustful expression, as if he was a starved lion that wanted to devour Levi like a little gazelle.

“Bend over the desk,” Erwin ordered, getting up from his chair.

Levi did as he was told, laying himself over the desk. Erwin’s desk was always so big compared to his little body, and he had to stand on his tiptoes to be able to rest his hips on the edge comfortably. He raised his hands above his head to cling to the edge of the desk, knowing Erwin was likely about to destroy him.

He felt Erwin’s fingers grazing his skin before they grasped at his ass, playing with the fatty muscle before pulling back a hand to clap against his ass, eliciting a yelp from Levi. He shifted a little on the desk, trying to regain composure.

“You look exquisite, darling,” Erwin murmured, groping his asscheeks, “Positively stunning.”

Levi wanted to giggle at the big words Erwin was using; sometimes he could sound so corny. But he refrained, not wanting to ruin the mood. He felt Erwin’s clothed cock rub up against his ass, a pitiful whine leaving Levi’s lips.

“What would you like me to do?” Erwin asked, pausing his actions, “You are the birthday boy, after all.”

Levi’s eyes widened a little. That was true; it was his birthday. He pondered for a minute what he’d like Erwin to do to him. Of course, he wanted the man to fuck him, but there were other things he could think of that he wanted from Erwin.

“L… Lick me,” Levi whispered, a blush appearing on his face, “Lick me there… like you did on the carriage.”

He turned to look over his shoulder, seeing a smirk on Erwin’s face as he teased, “I’m sorry? Where did you want me to lick you? You’ll have to be more specific than that, sweetheart. I don’t seem to recall what I did on the carriage.”

Levi huffed in annoyance, turning his head back to face forwards before he muttered, “Lick… Lick my hole, Erwin. P-Please.”

“Ahh, there’s a good boy,” Erwin cooed, using both hands to pull back Levi’s cheeks, exposing him to the cold air of Erwin’s office.

Levi felt Erwin hook a thumb in the lace of the panties, pulling the string to the side to hold it out of the way. It stretched the front in just the right way, straining against his cock to rub him just perfectly. He whimpered, glancing over his shoulder again. He wanted to watch when Erwin pressed his face between his cheeks.

Erwin gave him a smug smile before leaning down, blowing warm air on the furled entrance. Levi whined, wanting to grab Erwin by the hair and force him down there. The man was just such a tease, and Levi couldn’t handle it. He wanted to be touched, fucked, anything and everything.

Erwin licked a long stripe from his balls to his hole, just like he had on the carriage that first time. Levi gasped and moaned, back arching from the feeling. Erwin didn’t pull away like last time, though. This time, he licked his hole again before placing a wet kiss there.

“H-ah,” Levi panted, “E-Erwin…”

“Shh,” Erwin whispered, “Is the birthday boy enjoying his gift?”

Levi whimpered and nodded, feeling precum forming on the head of his cock. He was suddenly frantic, squirming a little, “E-Erwin. Take the panties off, I don’t want to get them dirty.”

Erwin chuckled, “I want to fuck you in them. That’s why I bought them. But don’t worry, I promise I’ll hand wash them for you first thing tomorrow morning.”

Levi turned to look at Erwin with wide eyes, “You… You’d do that? You promise?”

Erwin smiled at Levi and nodded before burrowing his face in between Levi’s cheeks, licking at his hole a few times in a row. Levi cried out, facing forwards again and moaning. He wasn’t sure if he was moaning at Erwin’s actions, or at the fact that Erwin had promised to wash the panties for him. It was a promise that was too good to be true.

The tip of Erwin’s nose nudged at his hole as Erwin licked his taint, and for once Levi was thankful for Erwin’s abnormally large nose. He whimpered, fingers clinging to the edge of the desk for dear life as Erwin began to eat him out, slurping and sucking at his hole. It felt amazing. Levi had never felt anything like this before. It sent shivers up his spine, pleasurable sparks that caused warmth to pool in his stomach.

“Ngh,” Levi moaned, “Ah, ah! P-Please… oh god.”

Erwin pulled away, digging his thumbs into Levi’s cheeks a little harder to spread him apart further, “Please what?”

Levi rested his hot forehead on the cold wood of the desk below him, panting, “Please… Please fuck me, Erwin.”

Erwin pressed a long, wet kiss to Levi’s hole before his tongue began to spear past the rim, causing Levi to gasp, having to bite down on his knuckle to keep a loud cry at bay. He didn’t need everyone in the building to know that the birthday boy was getting eaten out by Captain Smith.

Erwin fucked Levi with his tongue for a few seconds before Levi felt one of his fingers wriggle its way in as well. Levi couldn’t do anything except take it, back arching and fingers clinging to the desk so hard that his knuckles were turning white. Erwin circled his tongue before nudging a second finger in, fucking them in all the way and searching around for Levi’s sweet spot. Levi could feel his stomach building, and a sharp ping of pleasure shot up his spine when Erwin finally pressed his fingers against the spot.

“Erwin!” Levi cried out. So much for keeping quiet, he thought.

“Mmm,” Erwin hummed, stroking the spot before pulling his tongue out and slipping a third finger inside, “Such a good boy.”

Levi moaned; Erwin fucking his hole at a steady pace now with three fingers. His mouth was hanging open, drool accumulating and dripping onto the desk below. Levi was too far gone to even bother wiping it up. He’d clean the desk when they were done.

“Are you ready for it?” Erwin asked, “Do you want your real gift, hmm?”

“Your dick isn’t a gift,” Levi grumbled in irritation, though he did want it.

Erwin chuckled softly behind him as he pulled out his fingers and stood up again, undoing his pants and tugging them down as he replied, “Are you sure about that? You seem quite eager for it. Well… I suppose if it’s not a good enough gift, I’ll have to take it back.”

Levi could hear the egotistical bastard doing his pants back up, and a panic started in his stomach as he shook his head quickly, “W-Wait! N-No, Erwin… don’t… don’t put it away!”

Erwin laughed under his breath, undoing his pants again and pulling them back down, “Alright, sweetheart, alright. I’ll give you what you want.”

Levi soon felt the warm, wet cockhead at his stretched rim, and he let out a choked sob as it began to sink in. It was setting all his nerves on fire, making his toes curl, filling him up so nicely that he couldn’t help but moan at the feeling. Erwin wasn’t taking his time; he was pushing in with one long thrust, not stopping until he was all the way in. His breath hitched as he did so, finally letting it out when he bottomed out.

Levi was breathing heavily, eyes half-lidded. Erwin was still holding the panties out of the way, and they were still rubbing against him in just the right way. He whined loudly, fingers grasping at the wood, nails scraping against it. Erwin always filled him just right; his cock rubbing against Levi’s sensitive spot easily.

“M-Move,” Levi pleaded, “Move.”

Erwin didn’t have to be told twice, as he pulled out almost all the way before shoving himself back in roughly. Levi yelped, being rutted forwards on the desk from the force of it. Erwin began pounding him, not teasing him anymore like he had been this whole time. Levi cried out, moaning loudly and desperately holding onto the desk to try and keep from moving around with Erwin’s thrusts.

“So sexy,” Erwin grunted, holding Levi’s ass wide open, “Such a beautiful boy.”

Levi groaned, tears in the corners of his eyes as his ass was rammed over and over by Erwin’s thick cock. Every time that fat thing dove back in, Levi could feel it in his stomach, rubbing up against his sweet spot deliciously.

“Is this what my good boy wanted?” Erwin teased, “You wanted my cock?”

Levi nodded quickly, worried that if he didn’t answer soon enough, Erwin might stop. And that was the very last thing he wanted. He moaned as Erwin rewarded him with two brutal thrusts before resuming his fast pace, dragging Levi back on his cock repeatedly.

“E-Erwin!” Levi cried, “Erwin I… oh god! A-Ah! Ah!”

Erwin groaned, fingers digging into Levi’s hips, “You’re such a perfect little thing, aren’t you? You were made for this cock.”

Levi whined, turning to glance back at Erwin over his shoulder as he nodded in agreement with Erwin’s words. Erwin looked utterly debauched, his hair all fallen out of place, eyes overlaid with lust. He caught Levi’s eyes, staring directly into them as he delivered a few more harsh thrusts that had Levi’s mouth dropping open, moans spilling from him.

“E-Erwin,” Levi whimpered, reaching his hand out to grip at Erwin’s shirt.

Erwin slipped a hand under Levi’s torso, tugging him up so that Levi’s back was flush against Erwin’s chest. He fucked Levi like that for a moment, Levi barely able to touch the floor; just being held up by Erwin’s one arm while his other hand grasped Levi’s asscheek, still holding the panties back from getting in the way. He used the other hand to tweak and circle Levi’s nipples over the bralette.

Levi moaned hoarsely, stretching his toes to try and touch the floor, try and get a grasp on the situation. But Erwin had other plans. He sat back in his chair, bringing Levi down with him and bouncing him in his lap a few times. Levi gasped and cried out, hands on Erwin’s massive thighs as he started to lift his hips in an effort to ride him.

“That’s right, darling,” Erwin murmured in his ear, breath heavy, “Get that cock, go ahead.”

Levi tossed his head back onto Erwin’s shoulder, moaning and circling his hips before lifting them again and continuing to ride like his life depended on it. His ass was making loud clap noises every time he slammed his hips down onto Erwin’s fat cock. The pleasure was building, especially in this position, where Erwin was ramming into his sweet spot even better than he had been when Levi was over the desk.

“Mmm,” Levi whined, “H-ah! E-Erwin… I’m so close!”

Erwin tucked his hand into Levi’s panties and wrapped it around Levi’s cock, pumping it once, twice, while Levi bounced eagerly in Erwin’s lap. Levi turned to bury his face into the side of Erwin’s neck, moaning loudly against the skin as he came in the panties, soiling them with his seed. His limbs were turning to jelly, but he tried his best to keep riding, wanting Erwin to cum too. Erwin went back to gripping Levi’s hips, thrusting up into him a few more times before he too came, filling Levi up with the warm substance. Levi stayed where he was, face in Erwin’s neck, a quiet sob escaping his mouth from the overwhelming feeling of Erwin cumming inside him.

“Shh,” Erwin cooed, turning his head to capture Levi’s lips in a kiss, “Shh, sweetheart. It’s okay. I’ve got you.”

Levi sighed at Erwin’s words, practically melting into the man’s arms. Erwin manhandled him, slipping his cock out before turning Levi around so the smaller man was straddling him. Levi wrapped his arms around Erwin, burrowing his face into Erwin’s shoulder and letting himself rest in Erwin’s arms.

“You did so well,” Erwin whispered in his ear, “I hope you had a good birthday fuck, Levi.”

Levi nodded lazily into Erwin’s shoulder, a whimper leaving his lips as some form of a response. Erwin chuckled, fingers carding through Levi’s hair gently as he rocked them back and forth gently, shushing Levi and whispering sweet things to him.

“Well,” Erwin finally sighed, “We should get going.”

Levi pulled away, frowning down at Erwin from his position in Erwin’s lap, “What do you mean? Where do we have to go?”

“I have one more gift for you,” Erwin smiled, “It’s in the mess hall. We’re running late now.”

Levi raised an eyebrow, curious as to what Erwin was talking about. That’s when the realization came over him, and he groaned in annoyance, “Oh god. It’s not a party, is it? I really, really don’t want to go.”

“Well, it was meant to be a surprise,” Erwin chuckled, “Promise you’ll act surprised, okay? Hange worked really hard on it.”

Levi huffed, crossing his arms, “I didn’t ask for a surprise party. In fact, I specifically said I didn’t want one!”

Erwin smiled, pressing a kiss to Levi’s lips, “You’re cute when you pout like that. Now come on, let’s get going.”

Levi sighed, getting off Erwin’s lap and beginning to get changed back into his normal clothes. He left the panties and bralette in the box on Erwin’s desk for him to clean tomorrow, decided to keep the tea cup in Erwin’s office for the time being as well. Erwin tugged his pants back up, fixing his hair and taking his handkerchief out to blot at the sweat on his face from their activities.

“How do I look?” Erwin asked, holding his hands out.

Levi didn’t know what to say. Hot as fuck, would’ve been his initial reaction, but he swallowed those words back, grumbling instead, “You look fine. Let’s go.”

Erwin laughed under his breath, walking over to Levi and kissing the crown of his head affectionately, “Try to have a good time, okay? Hange has really been looking forward to doing this for you.”

Levi didn’t understand why. It wasn’t like he was their friend. Hange was Erwin’s friend, not his. He took Erwin’s hand as they left the office, walking down the hallway and heading out of the captain’s quarters towards the mess hall. Levi was remembering what Erwin had said about looking surprised for Hange. How the hell was he supposed to look surprised? Nothing surprised Levi. He just wasn’t used to making that kind of expression.

They arrived at the mess hall, and Erwin looked back to smile at Levi before turning the door knob and opening the door. He let Levi go in first, and Levi could sense the bodies in front of him, even though it was pitch black.

“Surprise!” They shouted, turning on the oil lamps and lighting up the room. Levi had known it was coming, but he still jumped a little from the loudness of it all. It was just Erwin’s friends: Nana, Moblit, Hange, and Mike. He wasn’t sure why they gave a fuck about him enough to throw him a birthday party; he didn’t know them very well. But he supposed it was nice of them to want to celebrate with him.

“U-Um…” Levi stuttered, not sure what to say, “Er… thanks, I guess.”

Hange rushed up to Levi and threw their arms around him, hugging him tight and squealing, “Happy birthday, Levi! How old are you?”

Levi cringed at the hug but allowed it, knowing Hange had put a lot of work into this party for him. But he paused at the question. How old was he? He honestly had no idea. 21, maybe? 22? He’d never known exactly how old he was; Kenny didn’t know either.

“Uh…” Levi muttered as Hange pulled away, rubbing the back of his neck awkwardly, “I think… I think I’m 22? I don’t know.”

Hange smiled sadly, “That’s okay, Levi! You’re certainly younger than all of us!”

Hange placed a hand on his back and led him over to the table where they were all sitting, Erwin following behind him. Hange forced Levi to sit down next to Mike, much to his and Mike’s annoyance. Nana was pouring wine for all of them, and Erwin took a seat across from Levi, exchanging a soft smile with him as if to say ‘I know this is a lot for you, but I appreciate you trying’.

Mike grunted as he pushed a box in front of Levi, one wrapped in red paper with a matching red bow on top. Levi was in shock. They had bought him a gift? But… But why? Levi didn’t know what to say, looking up at the five of them. They were grinning at him, waiting eagerly for him to open it.

“You… You shouldn’t have gotten me something,” Levi muttered in some awe, “I… I didn’t think you were going to-”

“Don’t worry about it, Levi,” Nanaba insisted, “Just go ahead and open it!”

Levi pulled the bow, undoing it and unwrapping the box carefully. He didn’t know what he’d done to deserve something like this. He opened the box, pulling out a green cloak, much like the one Erwin and the others had to keep them warm in the cold winter. It had the ‘wings of freedom’ emblem on the back, and Levi examined the nice embroidery, running his fingers over it. He couldn’t help himself; a smile appeared on his face.

“Aww,” Hange grinned, “Levi! You’re smiling!”

Levi could feel himself blushing, hearing Moblit smack Hange lightly on the shoulder and scold, “Don’t ruin it!”

Levi bit his lip to try and hide his smile, feeling thoroughly embarrassed for showing such emotion. But he was happy; this was turning out to be the best birthday he’d ever had. He’d never had gifts like this; Isabel and Furlan would scrape together money to get him a pastry or a small cake for his birthday, but they couldn’t afford gifts. He’d never had friends throw a surprise party for him, or had birthday sex.

“Try it on,” Mike nudged Levi with his elbow, and Levi wasn’t even annoyed at him this time.

“Yeah Levi!” Nana exclaimed, “You should try it on! We all chipped in to get it for you.”

Levi stood from the table and draped the cloak over his shoulders, doing up the clasp carefully and looking down at himself. He felt so special, so fancy. He’d never felt like this before. He tried to hold back his joy, to keep it to himself, but he just couldn’t. He was far too excited, far too giddy to not share it with them.

“It’s… It’s so nice,” Levi smiled shyly, “It’s… It’s warm. Thank you.”

“Now you don’t have to freeze your ass off on our missions,” Mike teased with a grunt.

Levi chuckled softly, and the eyes of everyone at the table went wide at his laughter. He couldn’t help himself; it was funny, especially coming from Mike. Hange was the first to break out into a grin, “Levi! I don’t ever think I’ve heard you laugh before!”

Levi gently took off the cloak, folding it up nicely and placing it back in the box as he muttered, “Well don’t get used to it.”

Hange giggled happily, getting up from their seat, “Sit down, sit down! We have something else for you.”

Levi sat back down, closing up the box. Mike pushed it to the edge of the table to make room as Hange brought over a cake with candles in it, setting it in front of Levi. Levi had never had an actual birthday cake. Hange handed Moblit the matches, and he began to light the candles one by one until they were all burning. They began to sing to him, a birthday song that Levi had heard plenty of times in his youth; whether it was for his own birthday or for others. He could feel himself blushing again, gripping the edges of his seat as he watched the candles flicker in the dimly lit mess hall. Levi noticed Erwin staring at him with an affectionate smile on his face, and it only made him more embarrassed and timid as he smiled back.

“Okay Levi, blow out the candles,” Nana clapped her hands excitedly, “And make a wish.”

Levi thought for a brief moment about what he wanted his wish to be. He already had so much. He had a tea cup, a nice new cloak, new friends, and… Erwin. He glanced at Erwin, who was beaming at him as if he was proud of Levi for enjoying himself so much. Levi could feel that fluttering in his stomach again, and he knew what he wanted from the man. He’d been secretly wanting this for a long time, ever since they’d had sex in Levi’s bed in the barracks for the first time. I wish Erwin would take me to his bedroom, Levi thought to himself before blowing out the candles. He didn’t even want to go to Erwin’s bed for sex, though that would be nice too. He just wanted to be in that intimate place with Erwin. Erwin’s bedroom must’ve been special if Erwin hadn’t brought him there yet, and he wanted Erwin to trust him enough, to care about him enough to bring him there.

“What did you wish for?” Hange asked.

“He can’t tell you,” Moblit insisted, “Then the wish won’t come true.”

Levi caught Erwin’s eyes again, exchanging another sweet smile with him. He didn’t understand his feelings for Erwin, but they certainly weren’t feelings he’d had for another human being, ever. He felt so differently about Erwin. His heart would pound in his chest, he’d get all nervous and shy when he thought about how he felt about Erwin. Something between them was so intimate, so trusting, so special. Even though Levi didn’t know what it was, he still loved every second he spent with Erwin, and he silently hoped that his wish would come true.

Artwork by: Mysh

Levi reached up to take his tea cup down from Erwin’s shelves in his office. He’d decided to keep it here, where it would be safe, as opposed to in the barracks where anybody could find it. He took it down from the shelf and went to Erwin’s desk where he had a pot of tea already brewed. He poured himself some, sitting down across from Erwin and taking a small sip. He liked the way the tea burnt his taste buds, liked how it felt dancing hotly across his tongue. But he was too eager, and some of the tea trickled from his lips down his chin. He set down the tea on a coaster on Erwin’s desk, about to wipe it off when Erwin reached across.

“Levi,” Erwin murmured, eyes focused on the dribble, “You have some tea on your chin.”

Erwin wiped it off gently with his thumb, and Levi could feel that blush settling in on his face as he watched Erwin’s intense look. He was so handsome: the way his eyebrows drew in so seriously, the way his eyes fixed on Levi’s chin, the way his lips screwed up in concentration. Erwin’s thumb lingered after wiping away the tea, moving upwards and stroking his cheek affectionately. Levi could feel his blush getting worse, staring into those sharp blue eyes, feeling his heartbeat pick up. That was the moment he knew. The thought came to him without his brain even forcing it. It was an effortless thought; it came to him so simply: I’m in love with you, Erwin Smith.

Levi was shocked initially by it; caught off guard. He felt relief flow through him as he finally came to this realization, though at the same time it scared him to death. Was it true? Was he really in love with Erwin? He’d never been in love before… was that what this feeling was? The feeling that had been bothering him for so long, every time he was around Erwin. Was it love that he was feeling?

His eyes widened, panic-stricken, as he tore his face away from Erwin’s hand and stood up quickly, staring at Erwin in shock. Erwin looked up at him with confusion, almost concern at Levi’s sudden outburst.

“Levi?” Erwin raised an eyebrow, “Is something wrong?”

Levi swallowed thickly, shaking his head, “N-No… I just… I remembered I… I have to do something.”

Erwin frowned, “Oh? What is it?”

Levi just stared at him, “Um… n-none of your damn business!”

He turned on his heel, abandoning his tea and walking out of the office in a huff. He didn’t know why he’d reacted that way. He just didn’t know how to handle the sudden thought that he might be in love with Erwin. He needed to talk to someone about this, but who? Who would understand how he was feeling? Who could he talk to? Usually, he’d talk to Erwin about something this deep, but he couldn’t let Erwin know how he felt about him… well, how he possibly felt about Erwin. He wasn’t setting anything in stone yet. Fuck, he thought as he passed by the single room Hange lived in within the captain’s quarters. That was someone he could talk to. He prayed Hange wouldn’t blab it to the world, but he needed someone to tell, someone to share his thoughts with.

He stopped in his tracks, raising his hand and knocking on the door. Hange soon opened it, their face lighting up in surprise at seeing Levi there, “Levi! You came to visit! What’s the special occasion?”

Levi grabbed Hange by the collar and brought their face close to his, growling, “Listen carefully. I’m going to talk, and when I ask for it, you’re going to give me advice. If you dare tell a soul what I’m about to tell you, I will end your goddamn life. Understood?”

Hange’s eyes were wide with shock, nodding a little in agreement to what Levi was saying. He let go, and Hange adjusted their glasses, moving aside to let him in. Levi walked in, immediately crinkling his nose at the scent. Hange’s room was a pig sty, clothes and empty cups and plates everywhere.

“Oh my god,” Levi shot Hange a disgusted look, “How the hell do you live like this?”

“Hey, this is better than it was!” Hange explained, “See? I cleaned my bed off. Come sit.”

Levi didn’t know how having a clean bed was a good thing when there was so much mess all around it. He stepped over the piles of dirty laundry, trying to hold his breath. This was repulsive. Maybe he’d made the wrong decision to come talk to Hange about this. He sat down on the bed next to Hange, who was sitting way too close, looking beyond excited that Levi had come to talk to them.

“So, what is it?” Hange asked curiously.

“Well I…” Levi muttered, “I just wanted to know… um… how do I know when I’m in love with someone?”

Hange’s eyes widened significantly before they squealed loudly, grasping Levi by the arm and jumping up and down, “Are you in love with Erwin?!”

Levi slapped a hand over their mouth, growling, “Don’t say that so loud! And no! I mean… maybe?”

Hange giggled with excitement, shaking Levi by his arm and exclaiming once he took his hand away, “That’s so cute! Are you going to tell him?!”

“Hange,” Levi sighed, ripping his arm away from them, “I don’t know if that’s how I feel. That’s what I’m asking you. I… I’m not very good at understanding my emotions… and I feel some sort of way about Erwin that I don’t understand.”

Hange was grinning like an idiot, looking thrilled that Levi was talking to them about this. Maybe he really had made a bad choice by coming here. Hange took some deep breaths to calm down before they placed a hand on Levi’s shoulder. Levi didn’t understand why they were so touchy, but he didn’t like it.

“Well,” Hange started, “How do you feel when you’re around him? Let’s start there.”

Levi frowned, shrugging off Hange’s touch before starting to ponder what they had asked him. How did he feel when he was around Erwin? A warm feeling filled his chest just thinking of Erwin, and he didn’t know when he’d begun to feel so giddy at the thought of the blonde bastard. But he tried his best to describe how he felt, even if he didn’t understand it.

“I… I mean,” he tried, “I get all fluttery… in here,” he pointed at his stomach, “And I can’t breathe properly and I… I don’t know, Hange. Every time I’m with him I find something else about him that surprises me… in a good way.”

Hange was grinning again, and Levi wanted to smack that grin right off their stupid face, but he refrained. Hange cleared their throat, continuing, “Well, Levi. You definitely have a crush on him, but I think we both know that. So we have to figure out if the way you feel is really love, or just like. Do you think you could picture a relationship with him?”

Levi blushed a little at that. A relationship with Erwin? What would that be like? He supposed he’d never given it any thought. But now that he was picturing it, he could feel himself getting more embarrassed at the joy that filled his heart at the thought. He could picture their life together; Levi cleaning and cooking in a nice little cottage with a white-picket fence in the woods somewhere far from here, Erwin coming home from work with flowers and greeting Levi with a kiss. Maybe they could have pets… or maybe even kids. Levi couldn’t help but smile at that thought. Were those things really possible? They seemed like such a far away dream.

“Well… yes,” Levi admitted, not wanting to give details as to what he’d just been thinking about, “I… I think that’s something I’d want. I’ve never been in a relationship though, but I think I’d want to try it with Erwin.”

Hange nodded, trying to keep their excitement at bay for Levi’s sake, “That’s so sweet, Levi. Now, I would say the main difference between liking someone and loving someone is how you feel around them. Do you want to spend all your time with Erwin?”

Levi instantly nodded despite himself. He hadn’t wanted to seem so eager, but he did want to spend all his time with Erwin. He woke up in the morning thinking of Erwin, went to bed at night with dreams of Erwin. Erwin was someone who was always on his mind.

“Do you just feel happy with him?” Hange asked, “Or is it more like… he’s someone you can’t live without?”

Levi thought deeply about this question. Perhaps the first part was true. Maybe he just felt happy around Erwin, and nothing more. Maybe this was really just a crush, not love. But the more Levi gave thought to it, the more he found the latter to be true. Now that he’d met Erwin, been with him, spent so much time with him, he was realizing he couldn’t do without him. He needed Erwin’s warm touch, his sweet smile, his intelligence and his charm. He needed Erwin. He couldn’t live without him.

“I… I can’t live without Erwin,” Levi mumbled sheepishly, “I need him.”

Hange sighed dreamily, leaning their head on their hand, “Levi, I think you’re in love with Erwin.”

Levi blushed. If Hange thought he was in love with Erwin too, then maybe he really was. He’d never been in love before, but Hange seemed to know what they were talking about. He wrapped his arms around himself, as if comforting himself through all of this. He didn’t know how to accept it. When had this happened? How had he fallen in love with Erwin?

Levi spent the rest of the day avoiding Erwin like the plague. He just didn’t know how to handle his emotions. Should he tell Erwin? Should he keep it a secret? What if Erwin didn’t feel the same? All these questions were bothering him, making him feel anxious and terrified. But he knew he couldn’t avoid Erwin forever, and he didn’t want the man to think anything was wrong between them. If he asked Levi what was wrong, Levi wasn’t sure he could tell him.

But the next morning, Levi was called into Erwin’s office, told by one of the new recruits that Erwin was looking for him, and he had to go see Erwin. He made his way down the hall to Erwin’s office slowly, trying to avoid seeing him for as long as possible. He pushed open the door to Erwin’s office, being greeted with the blonde’s charming smile. It made him melt.

“Levi,” Erwin asked, “Where did you go yesterday? I missed you.”

Levi could feel his heart flutter. Erwin missed him? That was so sweet. Levi couldn’t help but feel giddy from those words. He closed the door behind him, a smile on his face. He didn’t know how to answer Erwin’s question though.

“U-Uh,” Levi lied, “I wasn’t feeling well.”

“Oh,” Erwin responded, a frown on his face, “Well, you know you could’ve just told me. You didn’t have to run out like that.”

Levi blushed, “Sorry. I… I didn’t know what to say.”

“Well, are you feeling better now?” Erwin wondered.

Levi nodded, “Yeah. I feel much better. Just a bad headache, that’s all.”

Erwin held his arms out, smiling softly at him, “Come here, darling. Let me hold you.”

Levi could feel himself getting all flushed again, but he did as he was told. He walked over to Erwin shyly, and as soon as he was close enough, Erwin pulled him into his lap, hugging him close. Levi clung to Erwin’s shirt, burrowing his face into Erwin’s shoulder and breathing in his pleasant scent.

“I was worried you were mad at me,” Erwin whispered against his ear.

“No,” Levi replied, “I’m not mad at you, Ervy.”

Levi blushed upon realizing what he’d said. It came out of nowhere, this cute little nickname. He buried his face into Erwin’s shoulder deeper, feeling embarrassed and praying Erwin hadn’t heard it.

“Ervy?” Erwin chuckled, rubbing Levi’s back gently, “That’s new.”

Levi whimpered quietly, “I… I didn’t mean to say that…”

“It’s okay, sweetheart,” Erwin sighed happily, “I like it. It’s cute.”

Levi wrapped his arms around Erwin’s neck and hugged him close, feeling content to be in Erwin’s arms like that. He wished they could stay like this forever. He could feel Erwin’s breath on his cheek, his eyelashes tickling Levi’s skin. Maybe Erwin liked it when Levi acted cute like that, and Levi wanted to do anything to make Erwin happy, even if it was a little embarrassing to himself.

“Ervy,” Levi murmured, “I… I need cuddles.”

Erwin drew a sharp intake of breath, clearly surprised by Levi’s cute act. He held Levi closer, pressing kisses to his cheek with a smile on his face, “Aww, you need cuddles?”

Levi knew that couples tended to play up the cutesy act with one another, so he supposed this wasn’t too weird, right? He wanted them to be a couple, wanted them to act like a couple, so this was okay to Levi. Nobody else had to see them like this. It was just for them.

“Uh huh,” Levi nodded into Erwin’s shoulder, and Erwin only held him closer, running his fingers up and down Levi’s spine.

“Aren’t I cuddling you right now?” Erwin asked, nuzzling Levi’s cheek lovingly.

“But I…” Levi blurted, “I want to go to your bed, Ervy.”

Erwin paused his actions, pulling away to look at Levi in the eyes. He looked surprised, as if he hadn’t expected Levi to request such a thing. Maybe Levi had overstepped. Maybe it was too soon to ask Erwin something like that.

“Mmm,” Erwin smiled up at him, gently bumping their noses against one another, “I’ll take you there someday soon, darling. I promise. It’s special to me, okay? I don’t bring just anybody into my bedroom.”

Levi could feel his heart fluttering, and he closed his eyes as Erwin nudged their noses together, a smile on his lips, “Okay, Ervy. As long as you promise.”

Erwin nodded, capturing Levi’s lips in a gentle kiss. They just sat like that for a while, exchanging gentle, affectionate kisses and nuzzling against one another. Levi could’ve stayed like this in Erwin’s arms forever. Erwin was so warm, his body so toned yet soft. It felt like an eternity could pass between them and Levi wouldn’t even notice. Should I tell him now? Levi wondered. He wanted to. He wanted to confess to Erwin, let him know how he felt. It was exciting news, but Levi was worried Erwin might reject him.

Although, Erwin was holding him and treating him affectionately, and he had been for quite some time now. Did he feel the same way? Levi couldn’t tell, but he wanted to believe it was true; that Erwin did love him too.

“You’re special to me too, Levi,” Erwin rested their foreheads against one another, “Very special.”

Levi could feel that blush on his face again, his cheeks heating up. He laced his fingers together behind Erwin’s neck, tugging him closer so that he could kiss him. He wanted to say ‘You’re special to me too, Erwin’, but before he got the chance to, someone was knocking at the door. Actually, they were opening the door, only knocking once before walking in. It was Mike, who was likely used to coming and going in Erwin’s office.

He looked between the two of them; Levi in Erwin’s lap, the two holding onto each other. Erwin and Levi looked up, and Mike cleared his throat awkwardly, looking down at the floor to give them a moment. Levi quickly untangled himself from Erwin’s arms, blushing furiously as he went to sit in the chair across from Erwin’s desk.

Erwin smiled at Mike, pretending as though he hadn’t just seen them in that state, “Hey. Did you need something, Mike?”

“I was just wondering what you were up to,” Mike muttered, “I should’ve known Levi was here. I could smell him.”

Levi didn’t like Mike’s ability to smell people; it was weird to him. And he wasn’t particularly fond of Mike either, though the two of them tolerated one another. He crossed his legs in his chair, still red in the face from Mike catching them in such an intimate position.

“Oh,” Erwin nodded, “Well, I was just finishing up some reports before Levi came in. But if you needed something, Mike, I’m available to talk.”

Levi wanted to kick Mike out, tell Mike ‘no’, Erwin wasn’t available to talk. It was Levi’s time with Erwin, and Mike should leave. Levi turned to glare at Mike, so that he could sense that Levi didn’t want him here; that he wanted to be alone with Erwin. Mike glanced briefly at Levi, unable to hide a smirk at how much he was probably annoying the shorter man.

“Yeah,” Mike decided, “I’d like to talk. Levi, do you mind?”

That big-nosed motherfucker, Levi thought to himself angrily. Mike probably didn’t even have anything to tell Erwin; he was likely just saying so to kick Levi out and have Erwin for himself. Levi knew that Mike and Erwin had been best friends for a long time, and he also knew that Mike was likely jealous of the time Erwin was spending with Levi. But Levi couldn’t help that he was more interesting than Mike.

“No,” Levi grumbled, getting out of his chair, “I don’t mind.”

In reality, he was pissed. But he was also not about to be rude to Mike in front of Erwin. He didn’t want Erwin to think the two people he was closest with didn’t like one another. Levi was going to leave, when Erwin stopped him with a quiet, “Wait.”

Levi stopped, turning to see Erwin getting out of his chair. He walked around his desk towards Levi, wrapping an arm around his waist and tugging him close before planting a sweet but wet kiss on his lips. Levi blushed significantly, but wrapped his arms around Erwin’s neck, allowing the kiss.

Erwin pulled away, smiling down at Levi, “Come by my office later, okay?”

“Okay,” Levi agreed with a smile in return, before turning on his heel and walking past Mike, being sure to give him a smug look. Mike looked irritated.

Levi left the office and shut the door, hearing the deep voices resume inside. He walked away, feeling pleased with himself. Erwin clearly valued him more than Levi initially thought; to kiss him like that in front of Mike. Maybe Erwin really did feel the same way about him.

Levi was laying in bed that night when he heard the barracks door open. He could never sleep very well with all the snoring men around him, and this night was no different. But the door opened when Levi knew that everyone was already in their beds, and it set him on edge. He reached for the knife he kept under his pillow, grabbing it by the handle and peering over the edge of his bed. Whoever it was wasn’t very careful; they were pounding their loud feet on the ground as they walked.

“Levi,” he heard them whisper, and immediately knew who it was: Erwin.

He smiled a little, tucking the knife away and leaning over the edge of his top bunk. Erwin approached his bunk, standing on his tiptoes to share a greeting kiss with him. Levi couldn’t help but laugh softly as Erwin struggled to climb the ladder and get into the bed next to him.

“What are you doing here?” Levi whispered, scooting over so that Erwin had some room to snuggle up next to him. He didn’t even notice that he was grinning. He simply loved being around Erwin, loved his presence, and was excited that Erwin had come to visit him.

“You didn’t come visit,” Erwin whispered back, “So I thought I’d come visit you instead.”

Levi snuggled up to Erwin’s chest, gripping his shirt in his fingers and taking in Erwin’s scent. He was so enamored with this man. How could he feel this way about somebody? He just wanted to be as close to Erwin for as long as possible.

“I’m sorry,” Levi apologized, “I got busy with training.” He smiled up at Erwin, “I’m free now though.”

He felt Erwin wrap his arms around Levi’s waist, fingers trailing down to grip his ass in his hands. Levi squeaked quietly, his face starting to turn red as he laid his head on Erwin’s shoulder.

“Should… Should we go to the showers?” Levi suggested, “Or maybe the mess hall?”

Erwin leaned down to murmur in Levi’s ear, “I wanna do you right here. You have to promise me you’ll be quiet though.”

Levi whimpered at that, his cock twitching in his pants when Erwin began groping at his ass. He liked the sound of doing it here, Erwin fucking him so nicely while everyone else around them slept. It was risky; and it gave Levi a warm feeling in his gut.

Levi nodded, tilting his head back to capture Erwin’s lips in a kiss. He felt like a giddy teenager with a crush; smiling into the kiss and pulling Erwin closer. Erwin sighed into the kiss, teeth clashing together as their tongues rubbed against one another. Levi wrapped one leg around Erwin’s waist to drag them closer together, grinding his hips against Erwin’s and eliciting a sharp gasp from the blonde at his actions.

Erwin pushed his hand into the back of Levi’s pants, rubbing at his hole and causing Levi to moan quietly into Erwin’s mouth. Erwin kept kissing him: sweet, long things that had Levi hazy with want for the man. Levi felt desperate for Erwin’s kisses, his mouth open and willing as Erwin’s thick and rough tongue ran over his own. Erwin nibbled lightly on Levi’s lower lip, exploring his mouth with his tongue and exploring Levi’s ass with his hands. He was groping fervently, and Levi was having a difficult time keeping his moans at bay. He was fisting at Erwin’s shirt to hold himself together.

“I should’ve asked you to wear your panties,” Erwin muttered against Levi’s lips before licking and sucking at his lower lip. Levi whined. Fuck, I should’ve worn the panties, he thought to himself, picturing just how Erwin might’ve reacted.

“You’ll just have to use your imagination,” Levi breathed between heated kisses.

“Turn around, darling,” Erwin ordered, and Levi felt his heart sink a little, though he did as he was told. He wanted to face Erwin, to share kisses with him while they fucked. But Erwin always wanted to do Levi from behind. Maybe when they finally had sex in Erwin’s bed, Erwin would do him while they faced each other. And that was something Levi wanted more than anything.

Levi ground his ass back against Erwin’s crotch, feeling his erection already forming there. He was breathing heavily, biting down on his lower lip, which was already swollen from Erwin’s kisses. Erwin hurriedly tugged Levi’s pants down, holding three fingers up to Levi’s lips and whispering in a deep voice, “Suck.”

Levi whimpered, opening his mouth and taking them in. He swirled his tongue around them, sucking them as if they were Erwin’s cock. He let drool accumulate in the sides of his mouth, sucking and tonguing at the fingers desperately.

“Mmm,” Erwin hummed, “Such a good boy.”

Levi’s eyes rolled back from the praise, and soon Erwin’s fingers were removed from his mouth, his cheeks being pried open and a finger prodding at his rim. He gasped when the first digit sunk into him, rocking back on it gently.

“What would your bunkmates think?” Erwin murmured in his ear, “If they knew you were being opened up for my cock right next to them?”

Levi blushed, a quiet moan escaping his mouth as he pushed back eagerly against Erwin’s finger, “E-Ervy… I want it.”

Erwin groaned at Levi’s use of his nickname, sliding in a second finger, “You want it? I’ll give it to you, darling. Don’t worry.”

Levi let out a shaky sigh, reaching a hand back to touch Erwin’s face, run his fingers along his jawline. Erwin was fingering him persistently, gripping his hip with his free hand and stroking soothing circles there. Levi could feel himself being stretched open, his hole starting to welcome it now. He loved feeling Erwin’s gentle touch on his hip, his hot breath on his neck as he concentrated on what he was doing.

“Shh,” Erwin cooed, pushing a third finger in, “So beautiful for me. You’re my sweetheart, aren’t you? All mine.”

Levi nodded hazily, as if he was drunk on the pleasure he was feeling. He reached his hand up to his mouth, covering it and muffling a groan. He wanted to be Erwin’s sweetheart; he wanted to be Erwin’s everything. Erwin pressed kisses to his neck - gentle, affectionate ones, before pulling his fingers out. He could hear Erwin’s pants being tugged down, feel the large cock fall out and land against his asscheek. He hungrily pressed back against it, wriggling his ass to keep Erwin’s attention.

“So impatient,” Erwin tutted with a chuckle, starting to rub the warm cock head against Levi’s hole, “Are you gonna be quiet?”

Levi nodded, hand still covering his mouth in case he couldn’t stay quiet. This was certainly the riskiest place they’d ever done it, with all these people around. Granted, they were asleep, but they still had to make sure they didn’t wake anybody up.

Erwin started pressing in, holding his breath as he did so. Levi whimpered, his free hand grasping at Erwin’s hair behind him and tugging his head closer so that Erwin’s chin was on his shoulder now. Erwin finally breathed upon bottoming out, pressing a gentle kiss to Levi’s cheek as he started slowly pulling out to the tip before pushing back in. Levi let out a muffled moan into his hand, sighing happily at the kiss Erwin had given him. Erwin started moving, rocking his hips in and out and nuzzling at Levi’s neck.

“Shh,” Erwin groaned quietly, “You’re gorgeous, sweetheart. Absolutely stunning. You feel so good around me.”

Levi whimpered, removing his hand for a moment, “E-Ervy… Ervy.”

He sighed against Levi’s skin, rolling his hips upwards into Levi and pressing sweet kisses down Levi’s neck. Levi could feel the sweat breaking on his brow, the burning feeling of being filled like this growing in his stomach. When Erwin angled himself and hit his sweet spot, he couldn’t help but gasp, moaning loudly. Erwin slapped a hand over Levi’s mouth, grinding up into that spot over and over as Levi whimpered into Erwin’s palm.

“Shh,” Erwin whispered, “Oh shh, sweetie. I’ve got you. You’re gonna wake everyone up with those slutty noises of yours.”

Levi could feel his eyes rolling back from Erwin’s dirty words. He moaned into Erwin’s hand, and Erwin used his free hand to tangle around Levi’s torso, pulling him back on his cock with each thrust. He then moved his hand to grip Levi’s thigh, holding it up so he could fuck in deeper. Levi whined, vision blurry as tears began to build from the pleasure of it all. Erwin was just fucking him so good. Sure, it wasn’t like their usual, hungry fucks, but it still felt amazing.

Levi could feel himself getting closer, and tried to signal Erwin by pushing back against him eagerly. Erwin sighed against his neck, kissing and nudging at Levi’s skin with his nose. He groaned into Erwin’s hand, feeling the tears slip past his eyelids and down his cheeks. This felt so intimate, so loving. Levi had never been fucked like this.

“Are you crying, darling?” Erwin murmured, “You like it that much?”

Levi nodded, moaning muffled into Erwin’s palm again. He was still gripping Erwin’s hair in one hand, now using the other to stroke his cock as Erwin rubbed against his prostate with each thrust. He wanted to say it so badly; it was like the words were trying to be fucked out of him: I love you. But he couldn’t say it. He was so afraid. What if he ruined the moment? What if he ruined everything?

“Go ahead,” Erwin growled in a deep voice, “Cum.”

Levi gasped, catching his seed in his hand as he came. He still didn’t want to ruin his nice sheets - he’d just washed them. He groaned as he came down, feeling Erwin fucking him a little more hurriedly now as he chased his own orgasm. Levi squirmed, feeling a little sensitive, but Erwin soon finished inside of him, the warm feeling filling him up.

Levi sighed as Erwin pulled his hand away and slipped his cock out of him, and he took out a handkerchief, cleaning himself and Erwin up carefully. He turned to face Erwin, smiling up at him after he put the soiled handkerchief in his laundry bag that hung off one of the bed posts.

Erwin was smiling back, wiping away the stray tears on Levi’s face. Levi blushed, feeling a little embarrassed that he’d cried, but it had just felt amazing. It had made his stomach turn pleasantly, gave him that fluttery feeling in his stomach. Erwin had held him so sweetly, fucked him so nicely. Erwin shared a couple of kisses with Levi before he moved to get up, and Levi reached out a hand, clinging to Erwin’s shirt.

“D-Don’t go,” Levi insisted, “Please… stay with me.”

Erwin chuckled softly, leaning down and kissing Levi’s forehead, “I’d love to, but you know I can’t. If we want to keep this a secret, it’ll be kind of hard to do that if people see us cuddling in the morning.”

Levi frowned, nodding a little. Erwin was right, but he was still disappointed. He wanted Erwin to stay with him overnight for once, cuddle him and kiss him. He wanted to wake up to Erwin by his side, holding him so tight.

“I’ll see you tomorrow,” Erwin kissed his lips, “Try not to be too upset, okay? I know you’ll miss me.”

Levi blushed, shooting Erwin a small glare and mumbling, “Shut up. I’ll be fine.”

Erwin grinned and laughed softly before hopping down from the bunkbed. Levi listened to him head out of the barracks, an empty feeling in his chest. Erwin had been right. He was already missing him.

Levi knew he was in love with Erwin from just how much his heart ached when they were separated. They didn’t get a chance to see each other the next day, as they were both too busy with military duties. Levi spent the day in training, thinking about Erwin’s sweet lips, his gentle touch, his soft smile. He went to bed that night feeling empty inside, needing that hole in his heart to be filled by Erwin’s presence. The day after, Erwin was in meetings all day, and Levi wasn’t able to see him. But Erwin had snuck into the barracks to visit Levi at night, hadn’t he? So Levi figured he could try and sneak into Erwin’s office, see if the man was still up this late.

He slipped out of his bed, pulling on his winter coat and boots over his pajamas. He snuck out of the barracks and down to the captain’s quarters, sighing in frustration when he realized the doors were locked this late. He huffed in irritation, tugging desperately at the doors.

“They’re locked after sundown,” someone behind him said, and Levi froze. He knew he could get into trouble for sneaking out of the barracks at night, and he turned to see who had spoken. It was Mike, standing at the corner of the building smoking a cigarette. Levi frowned, crossing his arms. Mike wasn’t technically supposed to be out either, but he had special privileges, being Erwin’s closest friend.

“You know you’re not supposed to be out, Levi,” Mike grunted, flicking some ash off the cigarette before taking another drag.

“Neither are you,” Levi accused, “But I won’t tell if you don’t.”

Mike chuckled, “Deal. I have the key, by the way. You going to see Erwin?”

Levi nodded, suddenly feeling like he needed to be nice to Mike in order for the man to let him in. He really wanted to see Erwin. He needed to see Erwin. It’d almost been a full two days since they’d seen each other.

“Would you let me in?” Levi asked, “I haven’t seen Erwin in a couple of days now.”

Mike dropped his cigarette and ground the tip of his boot into it to put it out. He leaned against the wall of the building, eyeing Levi with suspicion. They just didn’t trust one another. Levi could tell that Mike thought he was up to something, and the two just didn’t like sharing Erwin between them.

“Tell you what,” Mike muttered, “I’ll let you in, if you tell me your intentions with Erwin.”

“My… intentions?” Levi raised an eyebrow, a little confused. Mike was worried that… what? That Levi would leave Erwin high and dry? That Levi was simply using Erwin? Levi thought that his affection and care for Erwin was pretty obvious, especially when Mike had walked in on them snuggling in Erwin’s chair that one time.

“Yes, Levi,” Mike repeated, “Your intentions. What are you planning with Erwin?”

“Well I… I don’t know,” Levi huffed defensively, “I… I guess it depends on what he wants.”

“But what do you want?” Mike asked, “I’m asking about your intentions, not Erwin’s.”

Levi could feel himself getting red in the face with embarrassment, wanting to curse Mike out for pressing him like this. But he knew that if he wanted to get into the building, he’d have to tell Mike something. And he’d have to be truthful; Mike was good at sniffing out lies.

“I… I want…” Levi mumbled sheepishly, looking down at his boots, “I want a relationship with him, okay? I want to be his, you know what I mean? To… To spend my life with him… I’d do anything for him. So you don’t have to keep up this ‘protective’ act. I’m not going to hurt Erwin. That’s… That’s the last thing I want.”

When Levi looked back up, Mike was smirking. Levi wanted to smack the shit out of him. That was, until Mike wrapped an arm around his shoulder, patting his back heartily and giving him a side hug. Levi was very uncomfortable, but let Mike do what he needed to.

“I’m glad,” Mike let him go, “You treat him right, okay? As long as you do that, we won’t have any problems between us.”

Levi nodded, watching Mike take a ring of keys from his pocket and unlock the door. He held it open for Levi, who gave him a grateful smile before walking into the building. Mike waved at him, and Levi waved back, thanking him for opening the door.

“Of course,” Mike replied with a smile, “Have fun.”

Levi had never seen Mike smile at him before, and he felt a little better about their relationship now that they’d talked things out. Mike was just worried for Erwin; wanted to make sure Levi wasn’t going to hurt him, and Levi couldn’t really fault him for that.

Levi walked down the hall towards Erwin’s office, seeing the light pouring from the door at the end of the hall, meaning Erwin was still awake. Levi smiled, reaching out to open the door when he got close enough. He could feel the giddiness filling his chest at the thought that he was going to see Erwin, finally, after two days of missing him terribly. He was going to run to Erwin, jump into his arms, hug him and kiss him and tell him how much he cared about him. How much he loved him.

Levi pushed the door open, ready to greet Erwin with a happy grin, but was quickly greeted with a sight that had his mouth dropping open. A short, black-haired man that Levi recognized as a captain in the military police whose name he didn’t know, was bent over Erwin’s desk, pants around his thighs, as Erwin, his Erwin, fucked the man from behind. All the breath left Levi’s lungs at the sight, his heart stopping in his chest.

“So sexy,” Erwin growled at the man, “So beautiful, sweetheart.”

Levi felt like someone had punched him in the gut. But… But I’m his sweetheart, he thought in confusion, unable to do anything but stare in shock. The two hadn’t noticed him yet, Erwin slamming his hips harshly into the shorter man’s ass.

“Oh god,” the military police captain moaned, “Oh Erwin.”

“E… Ervy?” Levi finally found the voice to pipe up, “What… What are you doing?”

The two looked up, Erwin pausing his actions at the sound of Levi’s voice. His eyes widened upon seeing Levi standing there. The shorter man covered his face in embarrassment, muttering something to Erwin about telling Levi to get out. Levi could barely hear anything; his ears were ringing, everything in his body going numb with shock.

“Levi,” Erwin breathed, panting from the strenuous activity he’d been doing before Levi walked in, “Levi… uh… could you perhaps give us a moment?”

Levi couldn’t believe the audacity of Erwin right now. If he wasn’t so shocked, he would’ve been furious. But he couldn’t be mad, could he? Erwin wasn’t technically his. Erwin didn’t belong to him. They’d never established anything official, so Levi couldn’t fault Erwin for sleeping with someone else.

But as Levi stood there, staring, he could feel the emotions well up anyways. He felt jealous, upset, betrayed. He didn’t understood what he’d done to deserve something like this from Erwin. They’d been so affectionate with each other, hadn’t they? Had it all been fake? Maybe this was just something that Erwin did with those he slept with. Levi was feeling a little stupid now. Maybe he’d been misreading all the signs.

“Levi?” Erwin tried again, the silence between them growing awkward now.

Without another thought, Levi turned around and shut the door behind him - slammed it, actually, quite loudly. He hadn’t meant to; he was just so hurt. He could feel the tears stinging his eyes as he flew back down the hall quickly. He just wanted to go back to bed.

Levi rushed out the front door of the building, past Mike, who was smoking another cigarette. He almost knocked right into the brick wall of a man, and avoided him by mere inches as he stormed across the military grounds, tears blinding him.

“Levi?” Mike called after him, “Levi! What’s wrong?”

He could hear Mike following him, the man easily able to keep up because of his damn long legs. Mike put a hand on his shoulder to stop him, turning him around and placing both hands on Levi’s shoulders.

“Levi,” he repeated, “What’s wrong? What happened?”

Levi sniffled, shaking his head as he desperately tried to keep the tears at bay. He wasn’t going to cry, not in front of Mike. He couldn’t. He sucked in a deep breath, trying to stay calm, but his whole body was shaking. He couldn’t stop thinking about Erwin’s face when Levi had walked in, couldn’t stop thinking about what he’d said to the shorter man he was fucking: So beautiful, sweetheart.

Levi thought he was Erwin’s sweetheart. Erwin had called him beautiful. Was he just saying those things? Levi felt the tears well up, and he bit his lip hard to stop them. He shook his head again at Mike, struggling against his hold to try and walk away, but Mike was holding him tight, and Levi was too emotional to use his full strength right now.

“What happened?” Mike asked again, clearly getting concerned now, “Did somebody hurt you?”

Erwin hurt me, he thought to himself. Sure, the man hadn’t physically hurt him, but the emotional pain felt very physical to him. It was like Erwin had beat him up, left him for dead. That’s what walking in on Erwin fucking somebody else felt like to him.

“He… He…” Levi stuttered, gulping in breaths of air like a fish out of water as he tried desperately to remain calm, “He was fucking someone else. He was… He was fucking someone else!”

Upon saying the words, he burst into tears, holding his face in his hands in embarrassment as he shook with sobs. He didn’t cry in front of others, especially not someone like Mike, who he’d literally only just became friends with. He felt two strong arms wrap around him, and buried his face into Mike’s chest, letting himself go. He thought he probably sounded so pathetic, crying like this over someone he didn’t even have a claim to.

“I’m sorry,” Mike murmured, “I’m so sorry, Levi.”

Levi clung to Mike’s shirt, sobbing hysterically. He felt like such an idiot. Why had he fallen so hard for Erwin’s charm? Why did he have to let himself open up to Erwin? He’d been so vulnerable with Erwin, and look where that had gotten him. I knew I shouldn’t open up to anybody, Levi thought miserably, hiccuping and wiping his eyes with one fist, I shouldn’t trust people.

“Take some deep breaths,” Mike advised, “You gotta breathe, Levi. You’ll work yourself into hysterics if you don’t calm down.”

Levi nodded into Mike’s shirt, deciding he’d probably cried enough. He sucked in some deep breaths, trying to calm himself. His whole body was trembling, but the breathing was helping him to feel a little better. Well, physically better, not emotionally. He was still pretty fucked up about what he’d seen. He wasn’t sure he’d ever get over it; or at least not for a long time. It was too soon for him to just forgive and forget.

“I’m sorry, Levi,” Mike sighed as Levi pulled away from him, wiping his eyes and hiccuping again, “I should’ve warned you. I just… I thought it would be different this time.”

“What… What do you mean?” Levi asked, sniffling and looking up at Mike through puffy, tear-filled eyes.

“Erwin’s never been able to keep a relationship,” Mike explained, “He’s never been able to dedicate himself to just one person. I thought… I thought this time it would be different. I thought you were too special to him. I don’t understand why he did this to you.”

Levi sniveled miserably, those tears welling up again. He swallowed them back this time, feeling the worst he’d felt in a long time. He’d thought he was special to Erwin too. Erwin had told him he was special. Why would he lie like that?

Levi didn’t talk to Erwin for the rest of the week. In fact, he avoided everyone for the rest of the week. He faked sick so he wouldn’t have to go to training, stayed in bed day in and day out, going in and out of sleep. At least when he was sleeping, he didn’t have to feel the pain. Mike must’ve told their other friends, as Hange had tried multiple times to see him, but he’d refused, pretending he was too sick to see anybody. But he knew he couldn’t keep them at bay forever. Hange was someone who would see him if they wanted to see him.

Levi heard all his bunkmates leave the barracks in the morning, and turned over to watch them go. He saw one head amongst them going the wrong way, and recognized the ponytail - Hange. He quickly tugged the covers up over his head, pretending as though he was sleeping. But Hange wasn’t taking that bullshit today, apparently. They tugged the sheet off him, and Levi saw them standing on the ladder.

“This is ridiculous, Levi,” Hange frowned, “You can’t avoid everyone forever. You can’t avoid Erwin forever.”

Levi glared at them, grabbing the sheet and tugging it back over his head, only to have Hange tug it back down again. Levi didn’t want to talk about Erwin. He just wanted to wither away here in his bed; stay here for the rest of his life. The only times he’d gotten up was to retrieve food (which he wasn’t eating much of) or to shower (he needed to stay clean, of course). He turned away from Hange, hoping that if he didn’t look at them, they might leave.

“Levi,” Hange sighed, “Come on. Talk to me. I just want to help.”

“Fuck off,” Levi grumbled, “I don’t want to talk to anybody.”

Hange huffed in some irritation, grabbing Levi by the shoulder and forcibly turning him over. Levi smacked their hands away, growling, “Hey!”

“Levi!” Hange snapped, “Come on, I’m just trying to be helpful! Let me help!”

“You’re shouting at me!” Levi retorted angrily, “How is that helpful?!”

Hange took a deep breath, clearly trying to calm themselves down before trying again in a softer voice, “I’m sorry. Look, Levi. Everyone’s worried about you. Especially Erwin. He didn’t realize he’d hurt you so much, and he feels really bad about it.”

“I…” Levi swallowed thickly, “I’m not mad at him… it’s my fault. I shouldn’t have been so stupid.”

Hange gave him a sad smile, patting his leg gently, “Levi, you’re not stupid. Erwin does care about you. You should talk to him.”

Levi hadn’t thought Erwin would even want to talk to him after what had happened. He thought everything was over between them; that Erwin was done with him. It didn’t occur to him that Erwin might actually feel bad, or might actually want to talk to him.

“He hasn’t been sleeping,” Hange explained, “Or eating. He misses you.”

Levi could feel his heart flutter at that. Erwin still cared about him, still missed him. Maybe this had just been a mistake. Maybe it had been a moment of weakness. Besides, they weren’t together, Erwin hadn’t technically done anything wrong, right?

“Fine,” Levi decided, “I… I’ll go see him, but… do you know who that guy was? The one he slept with.”

Hange shrugged, “Just some guy he sees from time to time. His name is Lucien, we all call him Luc; he’s a captain in the military police. Every time he’s in town the two of them spend a night or two together. I would’ve warned you, but I didn’t know he was coming into town.”

Levi frowned, sitting up in his bed. He started playing with the sheets in between his fingers, staring down at his hands as he asked, “Does… Does he have feelings for Luc?”

He looked up to see Hange shaking their head, “I don’t think so. I think Luc is just a good fuck for Erwin. And Erwin can be pretty insatiable when it comes to sex. Before you came along, he would bring home a new person almost every night.”

“Oh,” Levi muttered, unable to help but be a little disappointed by that, “Is… Is that all I am to him too? A good fuck?”

Hange avoided his eyes for a moment, as if pondering how best to tell him. They cleared their throat, “Well, I’m not sure, Levi. That’s something you’d have to ask him. But if it helps, I think he likes you a lot more than he lets on. He likes to pretend he doesn’t have feelings for people when he clearly does.”

Levi sniffled, rubbing the side of his nose, “I see. I’ll go talk to him then. Maybe we can clear some things up.”

Hange smiled a little, patting Levi on the knee, “Good. I don’t like seeing you two so upset.”

With that, Hange made their way back down the ladder and out of the barracks. Levi waited until they fully left before he too climbed down the ladder, heading to the showers to get ready. He got dressed and fixed his hair up nicely. He wanted to look good; to make Erwin want him. Because he couldn’t have him; not right now, not when Levi was still so vulnerable and upset with him.

Levi made his way out of the barracks, thankful that everyone was off for lunch and wasn’t wandering around the grounds. He didn’t need people asking him where he’d been, or talking to him in general. He walked into the captain’s quarters, heading down the hall to Erwin’s office. He paused in front of the door. Last time he’d opened this door, he’d been greeted with a horrific sight. He shook the thought from his mind before knocking on the door, hearing Erwin call for him to ‘come in’.

He pushed the door open, walking in and shutting the door behind him to give them some privacy. Erwin looked up from his desk, doing a double take when he realized who it was standing in his office.

He stood up, stuttering in shock, “L-Levi. You… Are you okay? I haven’t seen you…”

Erwin took a step around his desk towards Levi, who took a step backwards towards the door. He didn’t want Erwin to be close to him right now. He was feeling very hurt, and needed Erwin to answer some questions before anything else. Erwin stopped in his tracks, a pained look coming across his face. He looked like he hadn’t been sleeping, like Hange had said.

“I’m okay,” Levi lied, crossing his arms as if to protect himself, “I’m just… I’m confused, Erwin. I thought… I thought we had something special.”

“We do,” Erwin frowned, “We do have something special, Levi. I… I’m sorry I wasn’t more open with you; I should’ve told you I was going to sleep with Luc when he came back to visit. We always… it just always happens. I’m sorry, Levi. I really am. I didn’t mean for you to walk in on something like that.”

Levi hugged himself with his arms in comfort, frowning back at Erwin, “I don’t believe you when you say we have something special, Erwin. How am I supposed to believe that after what I walked in on?”

Erwin held his hand out, “Let me show you, Levi. I want you to see how special you are to me.”

Levi stared at his hand, wanting to take it. He wanted Erwin to show him, was curious what Erwin meant by that. But he was afraid. What if Erwin broke his heart again? He wasn’t sure he could handle that again.

But he wanted to trust Erwin again, and besides, Erwin hadn’t really betrayed him, had he? They weren’t in a relationship; Levi didn’t have any claim to Erwin. So it was simply a misunderstanding, right? Levi sighed, squeezing his eyes shut for a moment before opening them again. He walked forwards, reaching out and taking Erwin’s hand cautiously.

Erwin smiled at him, squeezing Levi’s hand gently, “Thank you for trusting me, Levi.”

Levi nodded, feeling some relief at the touch of Erwin’s hand. He’d been so touch-starved for the past few days; he’d really missed Erwin’s warmth. Erwin began leading them out of the office, down the hall towards where the captain’s bedrooms were. Levi could feel his breath hitch, his heart rate picking up. Was… Was Erwin taking him to his bedroom? Levi was shocked, but very excited. This was what he’d wanted; what he’d wished for on his birthday.

Erwin stopped in front of a red oak door, taking out his keys and unlocking it. Levi clung to his hand, unable to help a small smile from appearing on his face. He wanted to tackle Erwin, kiss him and hug him, thank him for bringing him to his room. He’d never felt so grateful to Erwin before, but he felt that way now.

Erwin pushed the door open, letting Levi go inside first. Levi walked in, pleasantly surprised by how clean it was. It was beautiful. Erwin must’ve had the highest thread count sheets - they looked so soft and welcoming. His bed was in the center of the room; a queen-sized bed with a beautiful cherry oak frame that had ornate decorations on the headboard. He had a nice matching dresser with a mirror across from the bed, two matching nightstands on either side of the bed, and tall bookcases that lined the walls on either side. But it wasn’t cluttered and messy like Erwin’s office could get; it was very organized and well-kept. It looked as though Erwin even dusted all the shelves of his bookcases; Levi couldn’t see any dirt or dust build up anywhere in the room. White, embroidered lace curtains hung in the windows.

“I love it,” Levi murmured, Erwin following him into the room and shutting the door behind him, “It’s so beautiful, Erwin.”

“Thank you,” Erwin smiled, wrapping an arm around Levi’s shoulder, “Not many people get to see my bedroom. You’re one of the lucky few.”

Levi suddenly wondered who else had been in Levi’s position before him. Maybe that Marie lady, maybe even Luc. Levi hoped not, but he couldn’t help himself from asking, “Who else has been in here?”

“Friends like Mike, Hange,” Erwin shrugged, “Marie. That’s it.”

So Marie had been in this room. But at least Luc hadn’t. Levi was thankful for that. He couldn’t picture being with Erwin in this room knowing that Luc had been in here. It would’ve ruined it a little for him. Erwin walked over to the bed and sat on the edge, and Levi hesitated for a moment before walking over and sitting next to him. Erwin tucked Levi's bangs behind his ear affectionately before pressing a kiss to his cheek.

Now that Levi was here, he knew exactly what he wanted. He wanted to spend all night in Erwin’s bed with him; wanted Erwin to have sex with him while they faced each other and shared kisses; wanted to cuddle afterwards and wake up the next morning next to Erwin. He lay his head on Erwin’s shoulder, his fingers spider-walking up Erwin’s thigh towards his crotch. Erwin was holding his breath when Levi began, clearly surprised that Levi was initiating things between them.

“Levi,” Erwin murmured, “Did you want to have sex in my bed?”

Levi blushed, but nodded a little, fingers ghosting over Erwin’s crotch, “This… This was my birthday wish, Ervy.”

Erwin’s breath hitched in some shock before he chuckled softly, “That’s so sweet, Levi. You really wanted to come see my bedroom that much?”

Levi nodded against Erwin’s shoulder, “Yeah… I wanted to be special to you.”

“You are, Levi,” Erwin whispered before kissing the top of his head, “You are.”

Levi could feel himself getting redder - his cheeks heating up. He climbed into Erwin’s lap, straddling him and resting their foreheads against one another. Erwin tilted his chin to kiss Levi, the two sharing brief kisses between them for a couple of minutes. It was sweet; to have such loving kisses be shared between the two. Levi was happy; he was special to Erwin, and that meant everything to him.

“So beautiful, Levi,” he murmured against Levi’s lips, “How did I get so lucky?”

Levi giggled softly, fingers on Erwin’s jaw while Erwin’s hands were gripping him by the ass, tugging him closer. He loved spending time together this way. They didn’t even have to have sex, though Levi still wanted to; they could simply enjoy each other’s company, touching each other and holding one another.

“Ervy,” Levi sighed as Erwin began to nuzzle his neck, placing gentle kisses there, “Ervy, I want you.”

Erwin gently sucked a spot onto Levi’s neck, causing him to whimper and squirm in Erwin’s lap. His neck had always been so sensitive. Erwin groped at his ass, leaning up to nibble at his earlobe. Levi ran his fingers up and down Erwin’s upper back, nails gently scratching the skin.

“Let’s get these off you, darling,” Erwin whispered, starting to undo Levi’s pants before pressing a kiss to Levi’s cheek, “So pretty for me. You’re my pretty boy, aren’t you?”

Levi nodded sheepishly, groaning quietly as Erwin pressed a hand to his crotch to feel how hard he was. He was already fairly erect, and was getting worse by the second as Erwin started rubbing him. Levi climbed off Erwin’s lap momentarily to help him get his pants and boxers off, discarding them along with his boots and socks on the ground. He pulled his shirt over his head, tossing it aside as well.

“So gorgeous,” Erwin smiled, admiring him for a moment before pulling him back onto his lap, “You’re gonna look even prettier when you’re on my cock, won’t you?”

“E-Ervy,” Levi whimpered at the words, his cock bouncing from the arousal that filled his belly.

Erwin reached into his bedside table and pulled out a small bottle of oil, pouring some on his fingers before he used his dry hand to pull back Levi’s cheeks. He pressed a finger to his rim, circling it carefully as he pressed kisses along Levi’s jawline to comfort him. Levi let out a low moan as that first finger began to sink inside, a burning feeling consuming him as it went. Erwin was shushing him, looking over his shoulder to get a better view of his finger disappearing between Levi’s round cheeks.

“E-Erwin,” Levi breathed, burrowing his face into the crook of Erwin’s neck, hot breath on Erwin’s skin.

“My sweetheart,” Erwin sighed, pushing the finger in further and stroking at his walls to open him up.

“I… I wanna be,” Levi choked out through a moan, “W-Wanna be your sweetheart, Ervy.”

“You are, darling,” Erwin insisted, wriggling a second finger in next to the first, “You’re all mine.”

Levi smiled against Erwin’s neck, slowly rocking his hips back against Erwin’s fingers as he let out a loud whine, that arousal in his stomach building. Erwin was being so gentle with him, so careful. This was unlike any fuck they’d had before, and Levi felt incredibly special, just like Erwin had said he was. His loving actions were proof. Levi was becoming more and more certain that Erwin felt similar about him.

Erwin pressed in a third finger, stretching them to open Levi up for him. He moaned, bouncing back with some eagerness and starting to mouth lazily at Erwin’s neck. Erwin fucked him like that for a good minute, rubbing up against his prostate with every other thrust. Levi could barely keep his eyes open at the pleasure.

“Mmm,” Levi whimpered, “Oh god… E-Ervy I… I need you.”

Erwin removed his fingers shortly, pressing kisses to the side of Levi’s head. Levi shakily climbed off Erwin’s lap so that Erwin too could get out of his clothes, and once he was nude, he sat back on the bed against the pillows, holding his arms out for Levi to come sit in his lap again. Levi couldn’t help but feel incredibly excited. They were actually going to have sex facing one another this time. All his dreams were coming true.

He climbed across the sheets and into Erwin’s lap, smiling down at him shyly. Erwin smiled back up at him, taking his cock and lining it up. Levi wrapped his arms around Erwin and lay his head on Erwin’s shoulder, relaxing his body as Erwin began to push in. He groaned, fingers scraping at Erwin’s back, lightly for now. Erwin kept pushing up into him, until he was all the way in, and the two of them were breathing deeply at finally being connected.

Levi wanted to cry; he’d never felt so happy before. He gasped when Erwin started fucking up into him, resting his forehead in the crook of Erwin’s neck and moaning at the feeling. He’d never felt so good, both inside and out. He could feel the wet tears running down his face, the pleasure building in his stomach, the burn in his ass feeling so nice as Erwin filled him again and again.

“A-Ah!” Levi gasped when Erwin hit his prostate, “E-Erwin!”

“Shh lovely,” Erwin murmured against his head, pecking the shell of his ear gently, “I’ve got you, darling. I’ve got you. You can let go.”

Levi lifted his head from Erwin’s shoulder, tilting it back to moan loudly as Erwin rammed up into his prostate repeatedly. He let the tears pour down his face, his cock rubbing against Erwin’s stomach with each thrust. He was already incredibly close, that feeling inside him bubbling up and threatening to overflow.

“Fuck,” Erwin grunted, burrowing his face into Levi’s shoulder as he let out a deep sigh, “You feel so good, Levi.”

Levi was panting as Erwin kept fucking up into him, trying his best to bounce on Erwin’s cock in response. He let a sob tear from his throat as his orgasm tore through him, all his emotions welling up in that one sob.

He wanted to say it. It came out of nowhere, but he couldn’t hold back. It was coming out of him just like his orgasm had moments before. He took a moment to calm down from his orgasm before he clung to Erwin, waiting for the man to finish inside of him. Levi was cradling Erwin’s head on his shoulder, stroking his blonde locks and pressing gentle kisses to Erwin’s jaw as the man fucked up into him with stuttered thrusts, breathing heavily as he was clearly close.

“E-Ervy…” Levi whimpered, “Ervy, I… I love you.”

It felt so freeing to finally say it. Levi could feel a rush of relief wash over him after he’d uttered those words. As soon as he finished saying those words, he felt Erwin’s thrusting stop as he buried himself in as deep as he could.

“Fuck,” Erwin groaned, finishing inside of him, “L-Levi!”

Levi kept stroking his hair, tilting Erwin’s head up and kissing him on the lips. Erwin’s eyes were hazy, drunk with the orgasm he’d just had. He slipped out of Levi, sighing happily at the kiss. Levi ran his fingers through Erwin’s hair, smiling down at him from where he was perched in Erwin’s arms. He was waiting for Erwin to recognize what he’d said, waiting for him to say it back. Erwin was breathing deeply, trying to calm down, before a look of realization passed over his face, and his eyes widened in shock.

“Wait… did you…” Erwin breathed, raising an eyebrow, “What did you just say?”

Levi blushed, fingers massaging Erwin’s scalp affectionately as he repeated, “I said I love you, Ervy.”

Erwin just stared at him, wide-eyed, opening and closing his mouth. Suddenly, Levi was feeling a little uncomfortable. Why hadn’t Erwin said it back yet? Maybe he was just in shock; maybe he just hadn’t expected Levi to say it. Levi was trying to give him the benefit of the doubt. Erwin broke eye contact with him, looking off to the side and biting his lip.

He looked back at Levi then, guilt in his eyes, “I… I’m so sorry, Levi. This is… it’s not like that. This is just sex between us. I thought… I thought you knew that.”

Erwin might as well have kicked him in the balls. Levi felt his heart drop into his stomach, his chest constrict so that he couldn’t breathe properly. He couldn’t help the pathetic whimper that left his throat as he asked, “W-What?”

“Levi,” Erwin frowned, “This is just sex.”

“But…” Levi tried, “You… You said I was special to you.”

Erwin was looking incredibly uncomfortable now, clearing his throat and avoiding Levi’s eyes. Levi could feel the tears welling up, this time from the deep pain in his chest. He held back, feeling his legs start to tremble. He wasn’t sure if it was from the stress he was feeling, or from sitting in this position for too long.

“Levi,” Erwin sighed, “You’re special to me… but like, the way… the way a horse is special, you know?”

Levi stared back at him, not pleased in the slightest that he was being compared to a horse. He had no idea what Erwin was talking about, and raised an eyebrow in confusion and some hurt.

“No no,” Erwin tried to correct himself, “You see… a horse is very useful in certain situations, but like… I wouldn’t bring a horse home to meet my mother, you know?”

Levi’s mouth dropped open at Erwin’s words, though he quickly closed it. Erwin seemed to sense that what he’d said hadn’t come across well, and he rubbed his forehead in stress, “That’s… That’s not what I meant, I just-”

“It’s okay,” Levi pushed himself off Erwin’s lap, getting off the bed and starting to get dressed, “I… I should really get going, Erwin.”

He knew exactly what Erwin had meant by that. You’re just a little thing I like to fuck, nothing more. He might as well have just said that, spared Levi the analogy. Levi was shaking, trying to keep himself together. He refused to cry in front of Erwin over this. He didn’t want to look any more pathetic than he already did.

“Levi,” Erwin murmured, “Come on, don’t go. I… I didn’t mean it like that.”

“It’s okay,” Levi reiterated, lying through his teeth as he zipped up his pants and pulled his shirt on, “It’s fine. Really. I just… I have to go.”

Erwin was frowning, looking regretful and guilty. But he didn’t say anything more except for, “Okay. I’ll see you later?”

Levi forced a smile, nodding a little as he pulled on his socks and boots, “Y-Yeah. I’ll see you later, Erwin.”

With that, he walked out of Erwin’s bedroom, feeling as though everything he’d hoped from his time in Erwin’s bedroom had been crushed. He sniffled, trying to hold himself together. He needed to talk to somebody, anybody. He could see Hange’s bedroom at the end of the hall, and wiped his eyes on his sleeve as he walked to the door and knocked frantically.

“Come in!” He heard Hange call, and he pushed the door open, surprised to find that the bedroom that had been so cluttered and dirty before was now clean. He suspected Moblit had something to do with that.

Speaking of Moblit, Levi was also shocked to find that Mike, Nana, Moblit, and Hange were sitting on Hange’s bed, drinking and playing card games. They were all staring at him, as Levi simply stood in the doorway, fists at his sides and eyes threatening to spill over with tears. Now he really couldn’t cry. He was already worried about crying in front of Hange, but the other three too?

“Levi?” Hange frowned, raising an eyebrow, “Is everything okay? Did you talk to Erwin?”

Levi wanted to run, but his boots felt like they were glued to the ground. He sniffled, nodding his head in response and looking around the room with panicked eyes. Hange got off the bed, setting their cards down and starting to walk cautiously towards him, as if Levi were a deer that might get scared off.

“What did he say?” Hange asked, the rest of them looking at him with some concern as they could clearly tell Levi was on the verge of tears.

“I told him I love him,” Levi sniffled loudly, trying to keep his tears at bay but having a very difficult time, “And he… he told me I… he said I was as special to him as his horse.”

Eyes widened throughout the room, Mike instantly piping up, “He said what?!”

Levi nodded, hiccuping and shoulders shaking as tears began to run down his face, “H-He said that… that I was useful like a horse, but he wouldn’t bring me home to his mother.”

With that, Levi let a sob escape, finally breaking down. He felt Hange’s arms around him, hugging him tight. Levi could barely see through his tears, and just let Hange comfort him. He watched Mike get up, looking incredibly pissed off, and leave the room, slamming the door behind him. He didn’t know what Mike had in mind, but he was likely going to go talk some sense into his friend.

Hange led him to the bed, sitting him down on the edge and sitting next to him. Levi lay his head on their shoulder, sniffling and taking the handkerchief Moblit handed him. Nana sat on his other side, rubbing his back soothingly. He sniveled sadly, feeling so stupid, so pathetic. How could he have possibly thought Erwin could love him back? How could he have thought anybody could love him? Levi had known for a long time - he was simply unloveable.

Mike and Erwin weren’t speaking to one another. Levi wasn’t sure what words were exchanged between them after Mike stormed out of Hange’s room to go talk to his friend, but the next day at the mess hall, the atmosphere was incredibly awkward between the two. He didn’t understand why Mike would try to defend him; maybe what Erwin had said was just too awful for him to stay out of it.

The six of them were sitting at their usual table in the mess hall, silently eating their food. Hange had tried to start up the conversation a couple times to no avail. Levi was alright with the silence; he didn’t really feel like talking anyway. But when Erwin got up to clear his tray, he placed a hand on Levi’s shoulder, causing the shorter man to tense up. Mike stopped eating, watching Erwin like a hawk, as if he was concerned Erwin might hurt Levi with something other than his words.

“Levi, would you mind stopping by my office after you’re done eating?” Erwin asked quietly.

Levi didn’t look up at him. He stared down at his bowl of soup before nodding a little, deciding he was curious enough to see what Erwin wanted from him. Erwin walked away after that, and Levi could sense the rest of their eyes on him.

“What?” Levi looked up, “Stop looking at me like that.”

“Just be careful, Levi,” Hange frowned, “We’re worried about you. Don’t overextend yourself to Erwin if you’re uncomfortable.”

Levi sighed, finishing up his soup and getting up, “I’m fine. Thanks, Hange.”

He put away his tray and headed to Erwin’s office, shoving his hands in his pockets. After his meltdown in Hange’s room, he’d passed out in their bed. On a normal day, Levi wouldn’t have trusted Hange’s bed to be clean, but Moblit had reassured him that he’d changed the sheets that morning.

Levi walked up to Erwin’s door, knocking on it and waiting to hear ‘come in’ before he pushed it open. Since he’d walked in on Erwin and Luc, he’d had a fear that he might see something like that again every time he opened Erwin’s office door. But Erwin was merely sitting at his desk, waiting for Levi to come see him.

“Levi,” Erwin leaned forward on his desk on his elbows, smiling sadly at Levi, “Close the door, darling. I have something I want to say.”

Levi closed the door, walking over and sitting down in the chair across from Erwin’s desk. He waited for Erwin to speak, crossing his arms and leaning back in the chair to show Erwin he wasn’t pleased with what Erwin had said to him the day prior.

“I’d like to apologize,” Erwin started, “For what I said yesterday night. I… I fumbled my words. I really didn’t mean to compare you to a horse. That was probably one of the worst things I could’ve said. What I meant was that our relationship is purely sexual to me - I’m not interested in a romantic relationship. Now… it’s up to you how you’d like to continue things.”

Erwin sighed and held up three fingers, “We have three options. We can either pretend yesterday didn’t happen and continue on how we were, we can end things here and just be friends, or we could end things and simply not talk to one another anymore unless absolutely necessary. The last option is one I’d like to avoid, if possible, but it’s ultimately up to you. I’ll go along with whatever you’d like.”

Levi stared at Erwin. He didn’t want to lose him. The last option seemed like an impossibility to Levi; avoid speaking to Erwin anymore? He didn’t want that. He didn’t want to just be friends with Erwin either. How would he be able to handle it if Erwin decided to move on - decided to sleep with others? He was already sleeping with Luc whenever the man came into town. Levi wasn’t sure he could handle Erwin being with other people, especially when Hange and Mike had told him Erwin’s sexual appetite was insatiable. How many people would Levi have to see with Erwin? It was just too painful of a thought.

“I… I want to keep this going,” Levi whispered, trying not to sound too pathetic as he looked down at his lap, “I don’t want us to end what we have. I’ll get over my feelings for you. Let’s just continue what we were doing before.”

In all honesty, Levi didn’t know whether he could actually get over Erwin. But he knew it would take time, and as long as he could still be with Erwin during that time, he could cope with the fact that Erwin wasn’t going to fall in love with him; that he would never get his dream of a nice cottage in the woods with Erwin with a white picket fence around the property.

Erwin was smiling when Levi looked up at him, looking cheerful at Levi’s choice, “I’m glad you want to continue things with me, Levi. I really am sorry for what I said yesterday. It wasn’t what I meant… let me make it up to you?”

Erwin pushed his chair back and patted his knees, signaling Levi to come and sit in his lap. Levi felt a little unsure about that. He remembered Hange’s words: Don’t overextend yourself to Erwin if you’re uncomfortable. But Levi felt bad. He didn’t think it was fair for him to keep sex from Erwin, especially when they’d just made an agreement to forget what happened yesterday and continue things. Plus, Erwin wanted to make it up to him, and Levi thought that was sweet of him. He got up shakily and walked over to Erwin, straddling him and burying his face into Erwin’s shoulder, hugging him tightly. Erwin sighed in some relief and wrapped his arms around Levi’s waist.

“I’m gonna give you the best sex of your life, Levi,” he whispered in his ear, “I want to make you feel good.”

Erwin didn’t seem to know how to convey his emotions except through sex, but Levi didn’t mind. Well, he did mind in some capacity, but right now he was just thankful Erwin still wanted him. He felt Erwin’s mouth on his neck, his hands moving down to grope at Levi’s asscheeks. He was trying to convince himself he wanted this just as much as Erwin did, but he wasn’t really in the mood. Stop complaining, Levi, he thought to himself, You’re ruining this for yourself. Just let him do what he wants.

Levi truthfully didn’t think he had the right to tell Erwin ‘no’. Who was he to deny Erwin his right to Levi’s body? He was Erwin’s sweetheart, after all. His darling. And he didn’t want to disappoint Erwin, or go against his orders.

Erwin sighed, bucking his hips up to grind against Levi. Levi clung to him, simply wanting to stay in Erwin’s strong arms. He was so warm, so soft to hold onto. Levi wanted to go to Erwin’s bed again, spend the night with him there, but he was too anxious to suggest it. He was worried things might go just as poorly as they did last time they were in Erwin’s bedroom.

“Shh,” Erwin cooed, sucking on the shell of his ear, “Shh, my darling. Let’s get these pants off you, okay?”

Levi nodded, getting up and letting Erwin help him out of his pants. He couldn’t help but be half-hard already; Erwin had been rubbing up against him. He got undressed from the waist down and went to climb back into Erwin’s lap, but Erwin put his hands up to stop him.

Levi was confused at first, until Erwin instructed, “Lay over the desk, sweetheart. I want to take you from behind.”

Levi nodded again, though he felt a little uneasy about that. He’d hoped they would at least do things face-to-face again, but that wasn’t going to be the case. He bent over the desk anyways, whimpering when he felt Erwin spit on his crack, saliva dribbling down and over his hole. It was so dirty, and Levi’s cock jumped at the feeling.

“N-Ngh,” Levi grunted when Erwin pushed two fingers inside, still fairly loose from the night prior. He held onto the edge of the desk above his head, laying his face on the cool surface of the wood as Erwin began to finger-fuck him earnestly.

“Such a pretty boy,” Erwin whispered, “Can’t wait to shove my cock in there.”

Levi moaned at that, turning to look back at Erwin, who was looking incredibly hungry to fuck Levi right there and then. Levi whined as he turned back around, pushing back gently on Erwin’s fingers to show he was eager for it too, even if he still felt weird about this whole situation. I just want him to love me, he thought miserably, the thought making him tear up. Erwin added a third finger, fucking into his prostate so hard he was being jolted forwards on the desk, yelps escaping his mouth at the feeling.

“Such a good boy,” Erwin growled, punctuating his words with his thrusts.

Levi groaned, squirming a little as he fought back tears - he wasn’t in pain, just was thinking about the feeling of dread in his stomach at how much he cared about Erwin, and how much Erwin didn’t seem to care about him. Erwin removed his fingers and hurriedly pulled down his pants and boxers to his thighs. Levi braced himself on the desk as Erwin began shoving in, a low groan escaping the blonde’s mouth. Levi sniffled quietly, feeling the tears come forward as Erwin started to fuck into him gently.

“Oh sweetheart,” Erwin sighed, “God you feel so good.”

Erwin just kept going, not noticing the tears rolling down Levi’s face. Levi just couldn’t stop picturing that white picket fence, that nice cottage in the woods he’d been dreaming about with Erwin. He’d never felt this way about anybody before. Why, oh why, did the first person he felt this way about have to be someone who didn’t reciprocate his feelings? Levi felt his prostate being pounded, the pleasure mixing with his emotional pain as tears were fucked out of him. He buried his face in his elbow to hide the tears - he didn’t want Erwin to see. He wasn’t going to fuck up his relationship with Erwin now, not since they’d made an agreement to keep having sex together.

“Shit,” Erwin groaned, tangling his fingers in Levi’s hair, “Don’t hide now, darling. I wanna hear those noises.”

Levi shook his head before feeling Erwin tug him up from out of his elbow, the blonde now able to see his tears. He slowed to a halt inside Levi, staying quiet for a moment as Levi sniveled pathetically, trying to hide his face in his hands.

“Are… Are you crying?” Erwin asked before a groan left his mouth and he started to thrust again, “Fuck, Levi. Is the dick just that good?”

Levi stared back at him incredulously for a moment, unable to believe that Erwin would really think something like that, though the man could be an egotistical bastard when it came to his dick. Plus, it wouldn’t be the first time Levi had cried during sex. He wiped his eyes with one fist before nodding a little to confirm what Erwin had said, even though it wasn’t true. He just didn’t want to ruin everything; he wanted to please the blonde. Erwin moaned again, apparently finding that arousing, and panted as he fucked Levi wildly.

Levi let himself go. If Erwin thought he was crying for his dick, then he didn’t have to hide his tears anymore. He sobbed, clinging to the edge of the desk and letting Erwin have his way with him while he essentially had a mental breakdown over the fact that Erwin would never love him. Erwin would never feel the same way about him. He could feel the pain in his chest, how it constricted his ability to breathe properly as he sobbed openly. Finally, after what felt like ages, Erwin finished, warmth filling Levi up on the inside. Levi didn’t cum; he was completely soft by this point. Erwin pulled out slowly, patting Levi on the ass and telling him ‘good job’, per usual.

Levi tried to stop the tears, he really did. But they wouldn’t stop flowing down his face. He couldn’t stop his shoulders from racking with sobs, his whole body shaking with the sorrow and grief he felt for a relationship that could never be; for a love that would never be requited. He could hear Erwin calming down behind him, tugging his pants back up, and was trying to pull himself together at the same time so Erwin wouldn’t realize the real reason he was crying.

He shakily stood up, sniffling and tugging up his pants. He hiccuped, his lower lip quivering before he let out another sob, covering his face as he began to weep again. He just couldn’t hold it together anymore.

“Levi?” Erwin questioned with caution in his voice, “Wait… are you really crying? What’s wrong?”

Levi shook his head, sniffling loudly and feeling hot tears soaking his face. Erwin’s hand was on his shoulder then, as the man cleared his throat awkwardly, “Levi, tell me what’s wrong. I want to help.”

“I… I can’t,” Levi wept, frantically starting to search his pockets for his handkerchief. He couldn’t find it; he must’ve forgotten to put one in his pockets this morning. When he wiped away his tears and could see a little better, Erwin was holding out his own handkerchief to Levi, who took it gratefully and blew his nose, disgusted that he was such a mess.

“You can tell me,” Erwin frowned, brushing Levi’s bangs out of his face, “Come on, darling. What is it?”

Levi sniveled and wiped his eyes on his sleeve, giving in, “I-I… I just… you don’t love me, Erwin.”

Erwin’s eyes instantly widened at Levi’s words, as he realized what it was that Levi was so upset over. He was suddenly looking extremely uncomfortable, and Levi was feeling more and more guilty over bringing this problem up again. Why couldn’t he just suck it up and move on? Why did he have to bring this up and ruin everything between them? Levi felt like such an asshole. He was probably such a burden to Erwin, who simply wanted to enjoy sex with Levi, and here Levi was sobbing pathetically.

“Oh,” Erwin replied shortly, as if he didn’t know what else to say. He took his hand off Levi’s shoulder.

Levi let out another sob, as if he couldn’t stop himself. He rubbed his eyes again, feeling like a total idiot once again for having stupid feelings about Erwin that he couldn’t control. I’m such a fucking loser, Levi thought miserably, blowing his nose again into the handkerchief.

“Levi,” Erwin sighed, rubbing his forehead in some stress, “Maybe… Maybe you should go.”

Levi could feel his stomach drop from Erwin’s words. He didn’t want Erwin to push him away. His heart started pounding faster, and another set of uncontrollable sobs shook his shoulders as he tried to backtrack their conversation. He didn’t want Erwin to kick him out of his office, didn’t want Erwin to abandon him like he’d been abandoned so many times before. Stop being such a burden to everybody, he thought to himself, lower lip quivering.

“N-No, I…” Levi tried, sucking in a couple deep breaths to try and calm down, “P-Please… don’t k-kick me out. I’ll stop. I’m sorry.”

Erwin was staring down at him with a look of both concern and… was that disgust? Annoyance? Levi couldn’t tell, but the man didn’t look particularly pleased to be in this situation. Levi could feel that guilt again. Why did he have to keep doing this to poor Erwin? His stupid feelings were getting in the way of the sex Erwin wanted to have with him.

“Levi,” Erwin tried again, putting his hands on his hips, “I really think you should go. This is very… uncomfortable for me. I don’t know what to say.”

Levi was just feeling worse by the second. He knew he was making everything bad between them. He sucked in some more deep breaths, squeezing his fists at his sides to try and will himself to stop crying. Once he was calm enough, he looked up at Erwin through tear-filled eyes.

“I’m sorry,” Levi apologized before staring down at the floor as tears rolled down his cheeks, “I… I won’t do this again, I… I’m just letting my dumb feelings get in the way. It’s all my fault for letting them ruin everything. You… You don’t deserve it, and I don’t want to deprive you of sex just because I’m being fucking stupid and emotional.”

Erwin sighed heavily, sounding frustrated as he replied, “Listen, Levi. I am not in love with you. Okay? You need to get that through your head. And if you can’t handle that, then you need to go.”

Levi winced at Erwin’s harsh words, but he nodded anyway, wiping his tears on the back of his fist. Erwin was right. Levi was lucky that Erwin was fucking him. Erwin could have anyone he wanted… but he chose Levi, and Levi knew he should be grateful, shouldn’t be burdening Erwin with stuff like this. He felt like such a fool for having a breakdown like this in front of Erwin, such an idiot for almost ruining a good thing he had going for him.

“I… I understand,” Levi whispered, hiccuping quietly, “I’m really sorry, Erwin. It won’t happen again.”

“It’s okay…” Erwin agreed, sighing a little as he sat back down at his desk, “I kind of wanted to go for round two until I realized the reason why you were crying. I really thought you were just enjoying my dick.”

Levi, immediately wanting to please Erwin and make up for the situation, sunk to his knees, placing his hands on Erwin’s thighs and rubbing them through the fabric of his pants. Erwin was eyeing him curiously, as if wondering what he was doing.

“Please,” Levi pleaded, “Let me make it up to you. I… I’d do anything. Just don’t send me away…”

Erwin stared down at him from his chair, hands on the armrests lazily as he sighed a little, “I suppose I’ll let you suck my dick… if you want to.”

Levi felt relief wash over him. Erwin still wanted him. Erwin wasn’t going to send him away. He started undoing Erwin’s pants quickly, wanting to make this good. He was going to give Erwin the best blow job of his life.

“Thank you,” Levi replied gratefully, pulling Erwin’s dick out of his pants, “I promise I’ll make it up to you, Erwin. I’ll make it good.”

Erwin leaned forward, using his thumb to brush away at some leftover tears on Levi’s face. He looked confused, a frown on his face as he did so. Levi just assumed he was being nice, and he held Erwin’s cock in his hand before sinking down on it and starting to suckle on the tip. He listened to Erwin let out a sigh of contentment as the man sat back in his chair.

“That’s much better, Levi,” Erwin encouraged, swiping a hand through Levi’s black hair and tugging on it lightly, “This is where you belong, darling. On your knees like this with my cock in your mouth.”

Levi whimpered at Erwin’s words, believing they were true. This was what he was made for. He wasn’t made to love, or to be loved. He was a play thing, a toy for pleasure, and nothing more. Why would he think he was worth anything more than that? What had he done in his life to make him believe he was worth more than that?

Levi was sitting in the mess hall the next morning, his ass sore as hell. They’d fucked twice more after Levi had sucked Erwin’s dick. Erwin was relentless, but he didn’t pressure Levi into anything. Levi gave his full consent, even though on the inside he felt like garbage about the whole thing. Mike was sitting across from him, giving him a look of pity. But Levi didn’t want to be pitied. He just wanted Erwin to care about him.

Erwin and Hange were discussing some grand plan they had for capturing a Titan on their next mission, which Levi thought was a little ridiculous. Capturing a Titan? It sounded impossible. Levi was barely paying attention, pushing his food around on his plate with his fork. He was miserable.

“Hey,” Mike tapped his fork lightly in Levi’s line of sight, causing Levi to look up at him with confusion.

“What?” Levi asked.

“Let’s go for a drink tonight,” Mike grunted, “Just you and me.”

Erwin’s ear had picked that up quickly, as he turned away from his conversation with Hange to shoot Mike a glare. They still weren’t on speaking terms. Levi wondered just what Mike and Erwin had said to one another to cause them to ignore each other for this long.

Levi wasn’t sure why Mike was taking pity on him, but he was certainly being a better friend to him than Erwin had been, and Levi appreciated that. He smiled a little and nodded, “Yeah. That’d be nice.”

“Actually Levi,” Erwin interrupted, “I was wondering if you’d come to my office later?”

He raised an eyebrow as if to challenge Mike’s request, and Levi suddenly felt incredibly conflicted. He was worried that if he didn’t go and see Erwin, maybe Erwin would forget about him and move on.

“Maybe we can go another time?” Levi asked Mike, giving him an apologetic look.

Mike shot Erwin a look before he shrugged at Levi, “Sure. Maybe tomorrow night.”

“Levi spends his nights with me, actually,” Erwin interjected, which wasn’t entirely true. Levi spent his evenings with Erwin, he spent his nights alone in his bed in the barracks. But Levi could sense Erwin didn’t want him to hang out with Mike, though he didn’t really understand why. It was probably due to the argument the two of them had had in private.

“Well, maybe you should let Levi decide what he wants to do,” Mike retorted in irritation, and Hange was glancing between the two with a worried look.

“Now now, boys,” Hange smiled, trying to smooth things over, “Let’s not argue.”

The two of them went silent at Hange’s words, turning back to their food. Levi didn’t know what to say. He wanted to go out with Mike; thought it’d be nice to spend some time with someone other than Erwin. It’d probably be good for him. It’d get his mind off everything that had been going wrong over the past few days.

Levi took a sip of water. That’s when he heard Mike mutter loudly under his breath, “Forget the stick, Erwin’s got a whole damn log up his ass.”

Levi couldn’t help it. It was funny. He choked on the water, coughing a couple of times before bursting into a fit of laughter at what Mike had said. Mike looked up, a little surprised that Levi had laughed. Erwin looked equally shocked, and a little annoyed at what Mike had said as well. In fact, he looked more than irritated - he looked furious, though Levi didn’t know why. It was just a joke.

“That’s it,” Erwin slammed his fist on the table, causing the four of them (everyone except Mike) to jump at the loud sound. He stood up, glaring down at Mike, “You and me, outside. Now.”

Levi’s eyes widened, about to protest that the joke wasn’t worth fighting over, but Mike had already stood up, seemingly having had enough of Erwin’s antics. The two began to head towards the front door of the mess hall, and Hange, Moblit, and Nana quickly got to their feet as well. Levi trekked behind them as they followed Erwin and Mike, feeling uneasy. He didn’t want Mike and Erwin to fight, especially not when it was probably his fault they were fighting in the first place.

When they pushed the door open, a crowd was starting to gather, Erwin and Mike facing off against each other. Erwin took the first step forwards to place two hands on Mike’s chest and shove him hard, causing Mike to stumble back a few feet. Mike swung at Erwin, who ducked and raised his fist to punch Mike.

“Boys!” Hange scolded, going to stand between them, “Knock it off!”

Moblit rushed after Hange to help, probably more worried about Hange’s well-being than Mike and Erwin’s. Nana stood next to Levi with her arms crossed, clearly not impressed by her friends’ behavior. Levi didn’t know what to do. He was glued to the spot, standing next to Nana and just watching. Erwin’s fist was caught by Mike, who shoved Erwin back hard enough for him to fall on his ass. Hange stood between the two so that Erwin couldn’t get up and retaliate. Erwin stood back up, dusting himself off and glaring dangerously at Mike.

“Come on,” Hange growled, “You two are best friends. You shouldn’t be fist-fighting one another!”

Erwin spat in Mike’s direction, ignoring Hange, “You better back off, man.”

Mike looked calm, calmer than Levi had ever seen him, and that’s how Levi could tell the man must’ve been furious. He glared at Erwin before growling, “If you love him, then just tell him, you jealous fuck!”

Levi’s eyes widened, looking between the two of them. Love? Who… me? Erwin looked equally shocked at Mike’s accusation, stuttering angrily, “I-I… I have no idea what you’re fucking talking about!”

“You know exactly what I’m talking about,” Mike pointed a finger at Erwin before turning around and storming off.

Erwin looked after Mike with some regret before swallowing thickly and running a hand through his hair. He saw Levi standing there and walked over to him, unable to look Levi in the eyes. Levi didn’t understand what was happening. What the hell had Mike just said? Did he just accuse Erwin of being in love with Levi? That couldn’t be true… could it?

“Come on, Levi,” Erwin grumbled, taking Levi’s hand, “Let’s go back to my room. See what Mike thinks of that.”

It suddenly struck Levi that Erwin was jealous. He’d been so angry with Mike because he was jealous that Mike had asked Levi out for a drink, jealous that Mike had made Levi laugh at a joke at his expense. But why was Erwin jealous? Did he really want Levi all for himself? Erwin had been pretty possessive of him - Levi was thinking back to when Erwin had said Levi was all his when they had fucked in the pub bathroom, after that man had grabbed at Levi at the bar.

Levi held tightly to Erwin’s hand, glancing back at Hange, who looked worried. He knew his friends were worried about him, though he didn’t understand why. He was still reeling over the fact that he even had friends, let alone that they gave a fuck about him. It had taken him a long time to trust and befriend Isabel and Furlan, so he didn’t really understand how normal friendships worked.

Erwin led him towards the captain’s quarters, and suddenly, Levi was realizing that Erwin was going to have sex with him again. His ass was still sore from yesterday, and he didn’t know if he could take another round. He tugged on Erwin’s hand to stop him, and Erwin stopped in his tracks, looking back at Levi in some confusion.

“What’s wrong?” Erwin asked, raising an eyebrow.

Levi whimpered, pulling his hand out of Erwin’s and shaking his head, “I… I don’t want to.”

He didn’t know what had come over him, but Erwin certainly looked surprised at Levi’s words, questioning, “What?”

“Erwin, I…” Levi sucked in a deep breath, clenching his fists at his sides and looking down at the ground, “I… I don’t want this!”

He clenched his teeth, feeling anger flowing through him. He was mad, though he couldn’t entirely explain why. He just didn’t feel right about Erwin going after Mike for simply trying to be a good friend to him. He didn’t like the fact that Erwin had just decided he was going to take Levi back to his bedroom and fuck him just to get back at Mike, without even asking Levi if that’s what he wanted.

“Levi,” Erwin frowned, “What are you talking about?”

“I… I’m going out with Mike tonight!” Levi decided, looking up at Erwin defiantly.

Erwin looked taken aback, laughing under his breath, “Levi… come on. You’re not seriously going out with Mike.”

Levi glared, feeling that anger rising in him as he shouted, “You can’t tell me what to do, Erwin! I’m… I’m going!”

Erwin stared at him with wide eyes, clenching his own fists at his sides before snapping back, “Fine! Do whatever you want.”

“Fine!” Levi yelled, turning around and stomping off. He could feel his heart pounding in his chest. Did he just ruin everything with Erwin? He could feel that fear and panic inside him; that need to turn around and apologize, to beg Erwin for forgiveness. But he was trying to hold onto that tiny part of him that had gotten angry with Erwin; that part of him that was fed up with how Erwin had been treating him lately.

He headed towards the barracks building that Mike stayed in, seeing him standing outside of it smoking a cigarette. He was intent on going to the bar with Mike tonight; he didn’t care what the hell Erwin had to say about it.

Levi giggled drunkenly, taking another sip of the beer Mike had bought for him. Mike was busy telling him about the time that he and Erwin had gone fishing up at the lake by Mike’s childhood home, and Erwin had accidentally let the anchor slip through his hands and fall to the bottom of the lake.

“Then, by some miracle,” Mike continued, “We came across another anchor that was sitting amongst some rocks on the shore. And Erwin, just for the fucking joke, let that anchor slip through his hands too and to the bottom of the lake. We laughed for hours over it.”

Levi chuckled, tossing back his head to get the last bits of beer out of the mug. He set down the empty glass, hearing Mike order him another from the bartender. He was already two beers in, and he was enjoying his time with Mike so far. He was pretty funny.

“You two have been good friends for a while now, haven’t you?” Levi asked.

“Yeah,” Mike sighed, downing the rest of his third beer - he was a much faster drinker than Levi, and probably not as much of a lightweight, “He’s a good guy. Just very… confused, emotionally.”

Levi nodded in agreement, “Yeah. What did you two argue over anyways? I’ve never seen you so mad at each other.”

Mike shrugged, leaning back in his chair, “It was stupid. I told him he’s in denial about you - it’s clear that he likes you. But he wasn’t having it. I said something I probably shouldn’t have. Told him just because Marie broke his heart doesn’t mean he should ignore his feelings forever.”

Levi’s eyes widened a little, remembering Marie from that conversation with Hange. He wondered just how heartbroken Erwin had been when Marie got married, wondered if perhaps that was why Erwin was so emotionally stunted.

“Then he said something really shitty,” Mike grunted, “Told me Helga never would’ve married me.”

Levi raised an eyebrow, “Who’s Helga?”

Mike looked solemn all of a sudden, picking up the next beer the bartender slid to him as he explained, “She was my childhood sweetheart. Followed me to the Survey Corps, decapitated by a Titan on our first mission. We were only 13.”

Levi stared in some shock, surprised not only by Mike’s story, but also by the fact that Erwin would throw that sort of insult at Mike. He must’ve been really upset about the Marie comment.

“It’s not our first fight,” Mike noted, “But this is certainly a bad one. Just know that he likes you, Levi. He just needs time. And… And don’t let him treat you like a toy. You’re a human being, you deserve better from him.”

Levi could feel himself blushing, though he wasn’t sure if it was from the alcohol or not. He appreciated Mike’s words, a smile appearing on his face. He was starting to notice just how handsome Mike was; he was built much like Erwin, only a little bigger. Levi could feel his heart thumping in his chest. Surely this was all the alcohol, but Levi was beginning to feel a little arousal in his belly as he watched Mike down another beer.

“Thank you,” Levi mumbled, “Erm… Mike? I… I know you mentioned Helga, but… are you into men as well?”

Mike nearly choked on his beer, apparently sensing where Levi might be going with this. He cleared his throat, calmly taking a sip of beer before nodding, “Yeah. Mostly into women, but I’ve been with some men.”

Levi was nervous, but he wanted to thank Mike for taking him out. Even though he was still sore from Erwin, his drunkenness would numb that pain, wouldn’t it? He reached out a hand and placed it on one of Mike’s biceps, putting on a flirty face.

“Mike,” he smirked, running his fingers up and down Mike’s bicep, “What do you say we get out of here? Go somewhere more… private.”

Mike turned to look at him with some surprise, wide eyes raking up and down Levi’s body for a moment before he bit his lip and turned back to his beer, grumbling, “No.”

Levi was a little taken aback by his abrupt rejection, but Mike quickly tried to explain himself, probably not wanting Levi to feel bad, “Look, you’re good-looking, Levi. I’m flattered, really I am. But I can’t do that to Erwin. He’d be crushed.”

Levi frowned, nodding in some understanding. Mike was a good friend to Erwin, even if the two were fighting right now. He knew after his talk with Mike that he had to have a conversation with Erwin. If Erwin really did like him, then Levi wanted to hear it from Erwin’s mouth, and he wanted to coax Erwin through that emotional pain leftover from his breakup with Marie.

When they were done with their drinks, Levi and Mike headed their separate ways (Levi gave Mike a drunken hug and thanked him for being a good friend). Levi instantly went to the captain’s quarters, remembering he didn’t have a key, which wasn’t a problem for him. He walked around the building to the window where Erwin’s office was, planning on climbing in through there. The window was already open a crack, meaning he wouldn’t even have to wedge it open. But when he got close enough, he could hear familiar voices speaking heatedly. He hid under the window sill, recognizing it as Erwin and Hange.

“Erwin,” Hange was saying, “You’re acting like a child. If you like Levi, that’s okay. But you need to hand out some apologies. Firstly to Mike because how dare you bring up Helga like that. And then to Levi because you’ve been treating him like shit lately. And I think you should apologize to me, Nana, and Moblit for putting us through this - it’s not fun sitting in the mess hall together when things are so awkward with the three of you.”

Levi peeked out over the window sill, seeing Erwin rub his forehead in stress as he replied, “Look, don’t you think I know all that? I know how I’ve been acting. I… I’m ashamed of myself, Hange. But I can’t… I can’t just confess to Levi, especially when I don’t even know how I feel.”

“Erwin,” Hange frowned, going to stand at Erwin’s side and rub his shoulder in comfort, “It’s okay to have feelings for Levi. What are you so afraid of? He clearly cares a lot about you. He told you he loves you. If you feel similar, then say so!”

Erwin was silent for a moment, elbows on his desk and head in his hands. He let out a shaky sigh, “I… I don’t want to get hurt again. What Marie did to me… I can’t go through that again. That’s why I got so angry and jealous today. I’m worried someone’s gonna take Levi away from me. Sure, he says he’s in love with me, but what if he decides in a month that he loves someone else more?”

Levi was surprised to hear how choked up Erwin sounded; like he might cry at any second. Marie must’ve really broken Erwin’s heart for him to be so afraid of confessing to Levi, afraid of feeling for Levi in any capacity.

“You can’t be afraid of that for the rest of your life,” Hange replied, “Right now, you’re ruining your chances with Levi by trying to protect yourself. You’re hurting him. He’s heart-broken, Erwin. Surely you don’t want that for him?”

Erwin was silent, and Levi watched him wipe some tears on the back of his hand. Levi’s heart sunk. He wished he could jump through the window and hug Erwin, comfort him, tell him everything would be okay. He wanted to reassure him that he wouldn’t leave; he would love Erwin for as long as humanly possible. He would never do what Marie did.

“I’ll… I’ll apologize to Mike,” Erwin vowed, “And I’ll talk to Levi. I… I don’t know if I’m in love with him, but I definitely feel something for him, and I know I should apologize and be more honest with him about my intentions. I need to do better.”

Levi figured he had eavesdropped enough, and besides, it was chilly out. He figured the conversation between Hange and Erwin was wrapping up anyways, and he headed back to the barracks, feeling a little bit better about the whole situation. Erwin might not love him, but now he knew that Erwin at least cared for him. And he was looking forward to the moment Erwin would tell him that in person.

Levi went to the mess hall for breakfast that morning, seeing Erwin and Mike talking over by the garbage cans. He sat down with Hange, Nana, and Moblit, who were also busy watching Mike and Erwin with caution, as if they were worried the two might start fighting again. But after about five minutes, the two exchanged a tight hug, smiles on their faces, before heading over to the table where the rest of them were.

Erwin sat across from Levi, shooting him a shy smile. Levi smiled back before turning to his food and starting to eat. He could feel Erwin’s eyes on him, and couldn’t help but revel in the feeling of having Erwin’s attention out of everyone in the room. It made him feel important; made him feel special.

“Levi?” Erwin piped up, a hint of nervousness in his voice, “Would you mind coming to my office after breakfast?”

Levi looked up from his food, nodding a little, “Sure. Sounds good.”

Levi had never seen Erwin eat so fast, and he himself was hurrying, as he was eager to hear what Erwin had to say. Mike even offered to put their trays up for them when they were done, so that they could go and talk to one another in Erwin’s office. Levi followed the blonde out of the mess hall and to the captain’s quarters, trying to keep up with his long strides.

They walked into Erwin’s office together, Levi shutting the door behind him. It was so exciting, almost as if they were about to have sex, when they were actually just going to be talking. But Levi was thrilled to hear what Erwin had to say, especially when he already knew generally what it was going to be.

“Levi,” Erwin sighed as he sat down at his desk, leaning back in the chair, “I… I owe you an apology. A big apology, for how I’ve been treating you. You were right. I have no right to tell you what to do. You’re not a sex toy, you’re a person. And I shouldn’t have been treating you like you were an expendable sex object, especially when I knew you had feelings for me.”

Levi was sitting across from him, hands in his laps, nodding at Erwin’s words. Erwin continued, “I… I want to be honest with you, Levi. I want to tell you how I feel. I’ve just been… concerned. The last time I confessed to someone, I got my heart broken. And I’m afraid. I don’t want to get hurt again.”

Levi frowned, “Erwin… I’m not going to hurt you. I promise. I love you… I love you very much. And I just want you to be honest with me. Please.”

Erwin was staring at Levi with an almost terrified look, as if he was scared to admit how he really felt. Levi was sure it was hard for him. But Erwin owed him honesty at the very least, after all they’d been through.

“Levi, I…” Erwin sucked in a deep breath, staring down at his lap before he looked up to share eye contact with him, “I like you. I really like you. It… It might even be love. I just… I need more time to figure it all out, but I do want you to know how much I care about you.”

Levi could feel himself smiling, could feel the tears coming to his eyes. This had been all he wanted to hear. He just wanted Erwin to care about him, even if he didn’t love him. And Erwin hadn’t even denied loving him either, which Levi was incredibly happy for. He wanted desperately to throw himself at Erwin, hug him and kiss him and let Erwin hold him.

But Erwin wasn’t done. He kept talking, “And Levi… I don’t want you to ever feel like you have to do something just because I ask for it. Especially with sex. Please don’t force yourself to endure anything just because you want to please me. That hurts me more than anything. I want everything we do to be enthusiastically consented to. Do you understand?”

Levi nodded, feeling some relief wash over him. He had always felt as though he had to do whatever Erwin said, even if Erwin had never told him he had to. He just felt guilty when he didn’t go along with these things, and he was thankful Erwin was telling him all this now.

“Okay, Erwin,” Levi nodded, “I… I need some time to fully forgive you, but I appreciate your apology, and your kind words. I… I feel a lot better about our relationship now.”

Erwin smiled softly, holding his arms out, “Come here, darling.” He paused, slowly putting his arms down, “Unless… you don’t want to? That’s okay too. I would understand.”

Levi quickly got up, maybe a little too eager for his own liking, “N-No, I… I want to. I want you to hold me, Ervy.”

Erwin looked relieved as Levi walked around his desk, climbing into his lap and straddling him. He clung to Erwin, arms wrapped around his neck, burrowing his face in Erwin’s shoulder. He was so happy he could cry. Erwin held him tightly, sighing and pressing kisses to Levi’s cheeks, his jawline, his neck.

“I’m so sorry, sweetheart,” Erwin whispered against his ear, “I… I fucked up. I fucked up so badly. I’ll never let you go, I promise. I’ll never hurt you again.”

Levi sniffled, feeling the tears come to his eyes now, “It’s okay, Ervy. I… I just wanted to be yours. I still want… want to be yours.”

Erwin rubbed Levi’s back, “You are mine, Levi. You’re my sweetheart. You’re my baby.”

Levi could feel his lower lip wobbling, and he held as tightly as he could to Erwin, as if he was worried that letting go meant he would lose Erwin forever. To say he was happy was an understatement. He was thrilled. To be Erwin’s sweetheart… his baby - it meant everything to him.

“And… And I’m more special than your horse… right?” Levi pulled his face away from Erwin’s shoulder to look down at him with tears running down his cheeks.

Erwin looked guilty for a brief moment before reaching his hands up to wipe away Levi’s tears, “Of course you are. I never should’ve said that. You’re so special to me. Far more special than a stupid horse.”

Levi giggled, leaning down to share a brief kiss with Erwin. The two were smiling, sharing sweet kisses between them and just holding onto one another. But Levi knew what he wanted from Erwin.

“Ervy?” Levi whispered against Erwin’s lips, “Can… Can we make love in your bed?”

Erwin looked a little surprised by Levi’s words, but he nuzzled their noses together before responding, “Anything you want, darling. I’d give you the world if I could.”

Levi could feel himself blushing, a giggle leaving his lips at just how happy he was. He wiped the remaining tears from his eyes, “I… I just want us to make love… facing each other. And then I want to snuggle all night so that I wake up next to you in the morning.”

Erwin was beaming up at him, “I love that idea, baby. Can I make one request?”

Levi nodded, resting their foreheads against one another, “Of course you can. What is it, Ervy?”

Erwin looked a little sheepish as he requested, “Can… Can you wear that lingerie I got you? You look so beautiful in it… I think it would be perfect for our first time making love in my bed. Don’t you?”

Levi nodded, though he was a little timid about it too. He was happy Erwin wanted to see him in the lingerie again, and thought it would be a nice treat for the two of them to enjoy. The lingerie was in his bag back in the barracks, so he’d have to go retrieve it, but he didn’t mind. He could already picture walking into Erwin’s room, dressed in the lingerie; Erwin’s expression would be priceless. Then they could make love on Erwin’s soft, high thread count sheets, and when they were done, they could cuddle all night if they wanted to. No prior commitments, no unresolved feelings between them.

“I’ll go get it,” Levi decided, hopping off Erwin’s lap, “I’ll meet you in your room in like… ten minutes, okay?”

Erwin nodded, a smile on his face. He leaned up to press a kiss to Levi’s cheek, “I’ll be waiting for you there. See you soon, baby.”

Levi waved at him with a cheerful smile before leaving the office and starting to head back to the barracks hurriedly. He was practically skipping he was so happy, and he couldn’t wait to get back to Erwin.

Levi passed by the alley in between the buildings, seeing a hooded figure at the end of the alleyway. He paused in his tracks, wondering what this ominous figure was doing on military ground, especially when everyone else was out at training. It was then that the realization hit him. This was the same person he’d seen in the marketplace, at the pub… the same hooded figure that had been following him. Levi had an uneasy feeling in his stomach all of a sudden, something in his mind telling him to run.

But before he could, the hooded figure pulled down their hood, and Levi held back a gasp at who had been following him: it was Anke, a young woman who worked for one of the three big bosses of the Underground named Horst. He owed Horst some money, and had never gotten the chance to repay him before he left the Underground. That must’ve been why Anke had been following him.

“Where are your cute little friends, Levi?” Anke teased, taking a knife from her waist and twirling it in her hand, “The red head and the handsome blonde guy… oh no, did they get eaten?”

She was clearly mocking him, a grin on her face. Levi clenched his fists at his sides, feeling sick to his stomach. He’d left his knife under his pillow in the barracks, a careless mistake. He’d been fairly hungover that morning from his night of drinking with Mike, and had simply forgotten to put it in his boot.

“Don’t talk about them,” Levi growled, “What do you want, Anke? I can give you the money I owe.”

Anke giggled a little, taking a step towards him, “Oh, we’re far past that now, Levi. Horst doesn’t care about the money anymore. What he cares about is that you crossed him. You took money from him without repaying it in time. And now, your punishment awaits.”

“You’re not taking me back there,” Levi snarled, “I’m not going back to your little freak of a master. I know the kinds of things he does.”

Anke was smirking at him, still twirling the knife, “Oh Levi. You’re so lucky that I was sent here to kill you, and not kidnap you. Can you imagine the things you’d go through? I’m sure you’d make a nice little pet for some rich man in the interior, Horst would make sure of it. Maybe he’d even keep you for himself. He always said how much he liked your pretty ass. But unfortunately, Horst has ordered me to murder you, so here I am. Any last words, Levi?”

Levi glared at her, deciding it was now or never. He charged at her, tackling her to the ground and grabbing the wrist of the hand that held the knife and holding it above the two of them as they each grappled to take control. She grunted, kneeing him in the balls and struggling hard against his hold. He gasped in pain and shock, recoiling a little. Anke had always been an amazing fighter, and she was doing exceptionally against him right now. Horst had sent his best. One of his other cronies wouldn’t have even lasted this long with Levi, but Anke knew exactly what she was doing.

She flipped them, trying to drive the knife down to stab him. He held his hand up to block it, the knife going through the flesh and sticking through his hand. She tore it back out, causing Levi to wince at the pain as Anke raised the knife again. Levi managed to get a leg free from her hold, kicking her in the stomach to shove her away as he scrambled to his feet again. She, too, rushed to stand up, glaring him down. Levi held his bleeding hand in his free hand, shaking now from the amount of blood he was starting to lose.

His eyes were darting around as they circled one another, trying to find an escape while also paying his full attention to what her next move might be. She charged at him with the knife, and he went to dodge her before his feet were swiped out from under him by her kick. He fell to the ground with a loud oof, and felt the icy blade of the knife drive into his chest. It all happened in slow motion. She stabbed him once, twice, three times in the chest before rising to her feet and kicking dirt in his face. He was fully immobile for a moment from pure shock, unable to breathe properly as blood filled his lungs.

“A-Anke… fuck,” he spat up blood, wiping the dirt from his eyes.

“It won’t be long now,” Anke giggled cheerfully, too cheerful for what she’d just done to him, “I’ll let you die the painful way: bleeding out. Even if they find you now, you’ll still die a slow, painful death. Have fun, Levi.”

With that, the woman disappeared over the wall of the military grounds. Levi heaved for oxygen, clutching at his chest. He knew that if he didn’t get to someone soon, he would surely bleed to death. He struggled to stand, willing his limbs to work as he stumbled drunkenly back towards the captain’s quarters. Thank god it was still midday, so the doors would be unlocked, though most of the other captains would be gone to assist with training in the woods today. Erwin was the only one who he knew could help him now.

He opened the heavy door, nearly falling to his knees again once he was inside. His entire body was aching, his head pounding as blood soaked his shirt. He fell into the wall a couple of times on his way down the hallway, holding his arms over his chest in an attempt to stop the bleeding.

Levi finally made it to Erwin’s bedroom, his whole body on the verge of collapsing. He used the very last of his strength opening Erwin’s door and walking in, woozy with how much blood he’d lost on the way.

“You sure did take your time, baby,” Erwin chuckled from the edge of the bed where he sat, “But that’s okay, we can-”

He stopped talking when he saw the state Levi was in, his entire face going white as saw the blood pooling on the floor. Levi couldn’t hold himself up any longer. He collapsed on the floor in a heap, barely breathing. He couldn’t hear anything except the pounding of blood in his ears, but he could see Erwin hovering above him, tears streaming down his face as he shook Levi, screaming his name. That’s all Levi saw before everything faded to black.

Levi woke up in a place he didn’t recognize, where sand stretched for miles as far as he could see. He looked around frantically, confused and terrified. The last thing he remembered was seeing Erwin’s face, so where was Erwin? Levi could feel panic settle in as he felt his chest, which was no longer bleeding, no stab wounds to be found. Was he… dead?

He shakily rose to his feet, finding that he wasn’t wearing his military boots. He was in an outfit from his youth: a long-sleeved white shirt with a brown vest and baggy pants, a pair of small black ankle boots on his feet. He examined himself, holding up his hand to see there was no stab wound there either. Where the hell was he? Was this the afterlife?

“Bro!” He heard from behind him, and felt his entire body fill with something in between excitement and dread. It was Isabel. He was sure of it.

He knew before he even turned around, but as soon as he did, there was the red-headed girl, giggling and waving at him from a little while down the path. Next to her stood Furlan, who looked less-than-pleased to see Levi here. He didn’t know why Furlan would be angry at him except… oh god, had they been able to see what he’d been up to since their passings? He certainly hoped not. This was why he’d initially been filled with somewhat dread - he didn’t want to have to face his friends after what he felt was a betrayal to them; falling in love with Erwin, the man responsible for their deaths.

Levi couldn’t help but feel the excitement though at seeing them again, and he ran towards them, momentarily disregarding Furlan’s icy stare. He threw his arms around them both, hugging them tight. He’d really missed them both.

“We missed you,” Isabel sighed as she hugged him back. Furlan wrapped a hesitant arm around him, letting out a sigh as he nodded in agreement with Isabel.

“I missed you both too,” Levi pulled away, smiling at them, “I… I’m so sorry I left you two alone. I shouldn’t have - I shouldn’t have abandoned you. We should’ve gone together.”

Furlan frowned, “That’s not why we’re upset with you, Levi.”

“Yeah bro,” Isabel agreed, “How could you fall in love with Erwin? He was our enemy - what happened?”

“I…I can’t…” Levi held his hands up in innocence, trying to explain, “I don’t know what happened. I… It was just sex and then… then I really enjoyed his company and now… now I care about him. A lot.”

“Don’t you care about us ?” Furlan asked heatedly, “I thought we mattered to you, Levi.”

“You do!” Levi tried, sighing in frustration, “You both mean… so much to me. But I… I do love Erwin, and I can’t help that. Please, try to understand. Things are much different now that you’re gone. He makes me happy, makes me feel safe.”

He needed his friends to understand that he needed Erwin, that he couldn’t live without him. Erwin was his everything.

“We’re happy that you’re happy,” Isabel sighed. “We just… wish it wasn’t with him. He’s the reason we aren’t around anymore. We… We feel a bit betrayed, bro.”

“Yeah,” Furlan agreed. “I never thought you’d do something like this.”

Levi frowned, “He’s different now… you both need to understand - I would never do anything to purposefully hurt either of you. I just… I’m trying to live for myself now, and Erwin is… he’s someone I care about very much. Please… if I don’t have your approval I… I don’t know what I’ll do.”

Furlan and Isabel exchanged a glance, arms crossed. Furlan sighed, rubbing his forehead in some stress before he cracked a small smile, “Of course we’ll give you that, Levi. As much as we don’t like the guy… we can tell you really love him. Just… Just don’t forget about us, yeah?”

“Yeah, bro,” Isabel agreed. “Don’t forget us. We still love you too.”

Levi smiled sadly, enveloping them both into a hug, “I love you both too. I’ll never… never forget you.”

Artwork by: Mysh

Levi could hear voices around him while he was blacked out. Mostly the voices of his friends, of Erwin. He could hear doctors and nurses rushing in and out at the beginning, trying to fix him. He heard Erwin crying, and so desperately wanted to reach out to him, to wake up and tell him everything would be okay. And for a while, he himself thought he wasn’t going to make it, fading in and out of hallucinations, seeing random lights and hearing random things from voices he didn’t always recognize.

Finally, his eyes fluttered open to see Erwin asleep in the chair next to him. He took in his surroundings: he was in some type of hospital bed with all sorts of things hooked up to him. It was incredibly uncomfortable, and he wanted to rip them out, though he knew Erwin would scold him for doing so if he were awake. Erwin looked completely haggard: his eyes had dark circles around them as if he hadn’t been sleeping, his body looking weak and exhausted as he slept curled up in the chair.

Levi tried to sit up, his head pounding. He groaned with the effort, and ultimately decided it might be better just to stay laying down, as his vision was blacking out with every movement. He stayed still, whimpering quietly. His noise must’ve made Erwin stir, as the blonde man’s eyes opened slowly, then widened upon seeing Levi awake.

“Levi!” He gasped, jumping to his feet and taking his place at Levi’s bedside, “Levi, oh my god. You’re awake!”

Levi nodded a little, lifting a shaky hand towards Erwin, who took it instantly, pressing gentle kisses around the bandages on Levi’s wounded hand. He had tears in his eyes, and wiped them away with his free hand, smiling at Levi sadly.

“I was so worried about you,” Erwin murmured, “When you collapsed in my room, I… I thought you were dead.”

“M fine,” Levi mumbled, “Don’t worry, Ervy. I couldn’t leave you.”

Erwin smiled softly at that, running his fingers through Levi’s hair, “You were out for a full week, baby. But you fought so hard to stay alive. I’m so proud of you.”

He pressed a gentle kiss to Levi’s forehead, and Levi could feel himself blushing from all the attention. He couldn’t believe what Erwin was saying. He’d been out for a full week? What had happened in all that time? Where was Anke? Was she going to come back for him? Levi wasn’t afraid of her - he knew he’d be more prepared next time she confronted him.

“What happened?” Erwin asked, kissing his hand gently. “We caught the woman responsible, but she wouldn’t tell us anything.”

“Anke?” Levi frowned. “How’d you catch her?”

“She was climbing over the fence of the military grounds,” Erwin explained. “What business does she have with you?”

Levi sighed, his chest a little pained as he took in such a deep breath, “I owe her boss money. Borrowed from him a long time ago and didn’t pay him back.”

“How much?” Erwin questioned. “I’ll take care of it.”

Levi smiled softly at Erwin’s insistence to pay - it was sweet that he wanted to take care of Levi’s debts. But Levi shook his head, “It doesn’t matter now. He doesn’t want his money back. He wants revenge - that’s what Anke said. Wants to teach me a lesson for crossing him.”

“So will he send someone else now that Anke’s been caught?” Erwin asked with some concern, clearly worried about Levi’s well-being. “I’ll do everything I can to keep you safe, Levi. I won’t let anyone hurt you again, I promise.”

Levi knew that wasn’t really a promise Erwin could keep. He couldn’t be in control of who came after Levi - Levi had a lot of enemies, and Erwin couldn’t protect him from every single one of them. But the promise was sweet anyway.

“Thank you,” Levi smiled sadly. “I think he will. Horst has never been one to back down from a fight.”

“Then I’ll take him out,” Erwin stated in a low voice, sounding determined. “I have contact with the military police - I’ll talk to Nile and see what can be done.”

Levi snorted, unable to help himself. It was just so cute - that Erwin thought the military police would help with such a thing. Erwin gave him a quizzical look, and Levi reached his hand out to take one of Erwin’s, before frowning at the wrapping around his hand. He’d forgotten about the stab wound in his hand.

“The military police work with him,” Levi explained. “No chance on getting their help.”

Erwin frowned, “Oh. Then I’ll do it myself.”

He stood from his chair, adjusting his bolo tie. Levi tried to sit up again, whimpering quietly at the pain, “Erwin, you can’t. You’ll become a target - you’ll be killed.”

Erwin took a deep breath, shaking his head, “Levi. I just promised to do whatever I could to keep you safe. So I’m going to follow through on my promise.”

Levi was becoming more and more concerned by the second. He didn’t want Erwin to go. Erwin knew nothing of the Underground. He didn’t know what he was getting into - this wasn’t just one of his campaigns against Titans - he couldn’t fight dealers in the Underground with ODM gear and a master plan like he usually did.

“Erwin,” Levi tried. “Please. Don’t go. At least… At least wait for me to get better so I can go with you.”

“And what will happen in that time?” Erwin asked sternly. “Will this Horst… will he send someone else? Poison your food… smother you in your sleep? Even if we have someone guarding you at all times - what’s to stop him from getting someone to sneak in and kill you? And in your state… you can’t fight back, Levi. I’m going to take care of it. Don’t worry.”

“Don’t worry?” Levi gasped out, frantic with worry. “Don’t worry?! Erwin, you don’t know the first thing about dealing with the Underground! People are… they’re different down there, Erwin. You can’t just stroll in and demand to see Horst. You have to be careful, especially since he’s connected to the military police.”

Erwin smirked a little, “Levi, dear. You underestimate me.”

Levi frowned, “You’re too confident for your own good, Erwin. Do not do this.”

Erwin took a step towards Levi, reaching out his hand and running fingers along Levi’s cheek gently. He looked down lovingly at Levi, leaning down to press a gentle kiss to his lips before whispering against them, “I’ll be alright, my love. I love you very much, Levi, and I’m going to protect you with everything I have.”

With that, Erwin left the room, and Levi was feeling sick to his stomach. He didn’t know what Erwin had planned, but he thought the man was delusional. There was no way he could just go after Horst. Not that easily, anyways.

Levi was frantic. He hadn’t been able to sit still all day. Hange had informed him that they, Mike, Nana, Moblit, and Erwin, were about to head into the Underground to confront Horst. Levi felt so sick. His friends, his best friends, were all in danger. And there was nothing he could do but sit there.

Damn it, he thought to himself. He had to try. There was a man guarding his room, but nobody would notice if he slipped out the window, would they? Levi struggled to get out of bed, standing on his feet shakily. He groaned in some pain, hobbling towards the window. He was trying not to aggravate his stitches.

He hoisted his leg over the window sill, swinging his body over and trying to get his leg on the ground. He touched the ground with his foot and managed to get his other leg over, landing on the ground with a soft thud. He started limping towards his quarters, thankful that everyone appeared to be at lunch or on the training grounds, as nobody was really out and about on his walk back to the barracks.

Levi got into his ODM gear and his uniform, wincing at the pain he felt every time he moved the wrong way. He headed to the stables, saddling up his horse and climbing onto it. He rode into town towards the stairs to the Underground, his cloak on and hood up. He managed to get past the guards, showing his military ID and stating he was on business for Commander Shadis. He was careful as he went into the Underground, tying up his horse at the bottom of the stairs where the guards would keep an eye on it.

He hobbled down the road, cloak up over his face so nobody would notice him. He knew exactly where Horst could be found, knew what the man was capable of. He snuck around, slinking through alleyways and back roads where he wouldn’t be tracked.

Levi approached the abandoned building, opening the door to the cellar and climbing down. His chest was throbbing with pain, but he tried desperately to ignore it. He had to save Erwin and his friends. There was no way they’d be able to take down Horst without him.

He shimmied into the vents, crawling his way to the vents above the main chamber. He peered through the vent opening, staring down into the room and seeing Horst, sitting on his chair at the end of the room, fat and happy as always.

Below him, Horst was laughing, and Levi could see why. Erwin was on the ground on his knees in front of Horst, being beaten to a pulp by his lackies. Levi clenched his fists - he was going to kill Horst and all those men who were hurting Erwin like that. Mike and Moblit were cuffed to the wall on the right, and Hange and Nana were cuffed to the wall on the left.

“Erwin Smith,” Horst chuckled. “You really thought you could come here and kill me? Are you trying to defend your cute little subordinate? Perhaps I’ll reconsider my position on him, if you ask nicely. Maybe I won’t kill him, maybe I’ll turn him into my little whore instead.”

“If you so much as lay a finger on him, I’ll-” Erwin growled before he was kicked in the jaw.

Levi slowly and carefully removed the vent opening,preparing to drop down into the room and slaughter all the men. He was just waiting for the right moment - the perfect opportunity.

“Is that what Levi is to you?” Horst asked. “Is he your little whore, Smith?”

Erwin glared at the man, “Don’t call him that.”

“Does he bend over for you?” Horst teased with a grin. “Tell me.”

Levi rolled his eyes. Horst always was obsessed with Levi’s body - he’d always wanted him. He was probably just jealous. He put his legs through the hole and dropped down, landing in front of Horst and glaring up at him. He grunted in some pain, and rose to his feet slowly, removing his blades from their sheaths.

“Ahh,” Horst smirked. “Speak of the devil. Anke really did a number on you, didn’t she? Humanity’s strongest… pfft. You got beat by a little girl.”

Levi didn’t think Horst was being fair. Anke was an incredibly good fighter - not some little girl. But he raised his blade, holding it to Horst’s neck and growling, “You let my friends go now. Or I’ll separate your skin from your body.”

“Oh Levi,” Horst laughed, not in the least phased by Levi’s blade in his face. “You’re so funny. Why don’t we just make an agreement, you and I?”

Levi shook his head, “I’ll never make an agreement with you. You’ll let me and my friends go free, and you won’t bother us again, or I’ll slick your throat and kill all your men.”

“You might want to turn around,” Horst grinned evilly, and Levi glanced behind him quickly so as not to be too distracted by Horst’s words. His eyes widened slightly. There was a gun to Erwin’s head.

“Put your blades down or I’ll order him to shoot your little boyfriend,” Horst threatened.

Levi glared, looking between Horst and Erwin for a moment. He gritted his teeth angrily before dropping the blades. He couldn’t risk Erwin’s life, not now. Horst cackled, looking particularly pleased with himself.

“Now, Levi…” Horst crossed his fingers over his stomach. “How would you like to make a deal?”

Levi was staring at Horst with a fury in his eyes, still trying to figure out a way out of this. But there was still a gun to Erwin’s temple, and the last thing Levi wanted was for Horst to order them to shoot Erwin - to kill him.

“Come here,” Horst motioned with his finger for Levi to come closer. Levi was still furious, seething as he walked towards Horst.

“What the hell do you want?” Levi grunted, standing close enough now for Horst to touch him.

The disgusting old man reached two hands out, grasping Levi by the hips and dragging him down onto his lap. Levi heard Erwin growling angrily behind him like a rabid dog. Levi allowed him to do this, straddling the old man and staring down at him with an icy stare.

“You know what I want, Levi,” Horst raised an eyebrow. “Or are you really that clueless?”

Levi placed his hands on the arms of the chair, staring Horst in the eye as he rolled his hips down onto Horst’s, causing the man to gasp and groan. Levi knew he could use this to his advantage - his ability to pleasure.

“Fine,” Levi grumbled. “I’ll do what you want. Just let my friends go, and give me your word that you won’t bother them again.”

“Levi,” Erwin begged. “You can’t do this!”

“Erwin, shut up,” Levi snapped. “I told you that you didn’t know what you were doing. So just let me figure this out.”

Erwin stayed silent, and Levi hadn’t meant to be so rude about it - he was just frustrated with the situation they were in. Hadn’t he told Erwin it was a bad idea to do this? And now Levi was here, negotiating for their freedom.

“You stay here with me,” Horst ran the back of his hand over Levi’s cheek, and Levi shivered with disgust. “And do what I want. I’ll let them go. But the second that you break our deal, I’m going after them. I’ll kill all five of them, do you understand?”

Levi nodded slowly, hearing Erwin struggling desperately behind him. Horst looked smug, a satisfied smirk on his ugly face. Horst’s pudgy fingers made their way to Levi’s ass, squeezing it gently. Levi grunted, feeling uncomfortable. But he would do whatever it took to get his friends out of this.

“Take them back above,” Horst ordered.

“No!” Erwin cried out. “Levi! You can’t!”

“Erwin,” Levi turned to glare at him. “Just go.”

He was trying to convey that he had it handled - that Erwin didn’t have to worry. But Erwin looked terrified, staring at Levi with wide eyes before a bag was placed over his head, along with the others, and they were dragged from the room. Levi knew Horst would keep his word. He wasn’t a deceitful man - he would keep his promise. And now Levi owed him something in return.

But he wasn’t planning on staying forever. He would make his way back to Erwin somehow, and he was still going to kill Horst and his men. That plan hadn’t left his mind. It was just about finding the right time.

Horst’s men retrieved Levi’s weapons and took them out of the room, leaving Horst and Levi alone. Levi could feel the disgusting man’s hands groping his ass, his breath picking up as he bucked his hips against Levi’s.

“You’re going to ride me, Levi,” Horst growled in his ear. “So take off your pants.”

Levi rolled his eyes a little, getting off Horst’s lap and starting to undo his pants. He took them off and got back onto Horst’s lap, undoing the man’s trousers and taking his dick out. Levi began to suck on his own fingers, trying to make quick work of this. It was just sex, and Levi had done much worse to get what he wanted in the past.

Levi began to stretch himself on his fingers, letting out a huff as he bounced on them, trying to stretch himself quickly. Horst was not a patient man, and he wasn’t about to let himself be torn.

“That’s enough,” Horst growled. “You’re stretched. Get on with it.”

Levi shot him a small glare. He didn’t have to be nice to Horst. That wasn’t part of the deal. He lined up the man’s cock; it was short and thick, and he sat down on it, letting the man push himself inside. Levi grunted, gripping Horst by the shoulders and starting to bounce hastily - he wanted this to be over with quickly.

“Fuck,” Horst was panting and sweating grossly, gripping Levi’s hips harshly. “That’s a good boy.”

Levi grimaced, continuing to bounce as fast as he could. He was enjoying this only a little; simply because it was fucking, but not because of who it was with. He tried to imagine Erwin under him, Levi riding the man’s enormous cock while sitting in his lap.

Horst smacked Levi’s bare ass, rolling up into him. Levi groaned, whimpering at the feeling. He was doing this for Erwin. For Hange and Moblit, Nana and Mike. He kept bobbing up and down as quick as he could, dropping his hips down hard a few times.

“Such a pretty boy,” Horst snarled, squeezing Levi’s ass in his hands. “You like that, don’t you?”

Levi scowled and tossed his head back so he wouldn’t have to look at the man, circling his hips and feeling a warmth run through his lower half. He sighed and removed himself, looking back down at the blissed out expression on Horst’s face.

“Your friends will be safe,” Horst agreed, grasping Levi by the chin and tugging him down for a sloppy kiss. He tasted like brandy and cigars. Levi grimaced, gagging a little.

Horst finally pulled away, “Go wait in my bedroom. The guard outside will escort you.”

Levi nodded, climbing off his lap and getting his pants and underwear back on. Now all he had to do was find the right opportunity to strike, and find out where they put his damn blades.

Levi sighed and turned over in Horst’s bed, completely nude. The bed was empty; Horst was off taking care of some sort of business. Levi had been here for three days. Horst was insatiable, and disgusting. Levi had seen the room where the weapons were kept, and he was slowly forming a plan. He just had to wait for Horst to go to sleep for his afternoon nap.

The door opened, and Levi sat up, seeing the portly man walk into the room and shut the door behind him. Levi made eye contact with him, and Horst merely smirked and chuckled lowly, strolling over to the bed and starting to remove his pants.

Levi refrained from rolling his eyes and turned over on all fours, looking back over his shoulder at the man. Horst stepped forwards and grabbed Levi by the hips, tugging him towards him.

“Such a pretty thing you are,” Horst grunted, grubby hands grasping at Levi’s asscheeks. “But you won’t just be pleasuring me today, my pet.”

He whistled, and the door opened, two noblemen entering. Levi’s eyes widened slightly, and he shook his head a little, “Sir… I… I can’t-”

“Shut your mouth,” Horst growled, smacking Levi’s ass. “You said you’d do what I say, remember?”

Levi gasped sharply and stared between the three of them, watching the other men close the door and start taking their pants off too. He just needed to get through this… just this, and then he could get to the weapons room and kill them all.

“Levi, lay down. You’re going to let them do what they want with you,” Horst instructed.

Levi didn’t want this. He could feel his heart beating fast, nerves only getting worse by the second. But he laid down, watching the two men come over to him. One began to twist and pinch at his nipples, the other taking his balls into his hands and rolling them over his fingers. Levi gasped and whimpered, head rolling back against the sheets. How am I gonna get out of this? He wondered, anxiety building in his stomach as the man took ahold of his cock next, pumping it a few times.

“You’re gonna be a good little whore for us,” the man tweaking his nipples purred, and Levi could feel the tears filling his eyes.

Suddenly, the door flew open, gunshots ringing throughout the room. Levi shrieked and threw himself off the bed and onto the floor, covering his head with his hands as that’s all he could really do to protect himself. He waited until the gunshots stopped, but stayed on the floor, looking around with caution. The three men in the room were dead - Horst included - all shot up gruesomely, blood pooling on the ground. Levi himself was covered in blood splatter, and he wiped some from his cheek.

“Stand up with your hands above your head,” a voice called out, and Levi instantly recognized the voice.

Oh fuck.

He slowly did as he was told, though, not wanting to get shot. He came face to face with just the person he’d thought it was; the man who’d taken care of him and then abandoned him: Kenny.

Levi and Kenny stared at one another for a long moment, and Levi was fairly embarrassed to be found in such a situation - completely nude and in a room full of men. Kenny stared a moment more before bursting into a fit of cackling laughter. Levi rolled his eyes, crossing his arms over his chest uncomfortably.

“Damn son,” Kenny snorted. “I knew your mother was a whore, but I never thought you’d turn out just like her!”

Levi glared and snarled, “Don’t talk about my mother that way. Besides, I’m not a damn whore. I’m just… in a situation.”

Kenny continued to laugh, wiping his tearful eyes on his sleeve and sucking in a deep breath to calm himself, “Damn. That’s funny. You’re fuckin’ lucky I didn’t shoot you. What the hell are you doin’ here, kid? Last I heard, you were a boot-licker for the scouts.”

“I’m no boot-licker,” Levi growled. “I was forced to join. And I… I like it there now.”

Kenny sighed a little, annoying grin still on his face as he removed his jacket and tossed it at Levi, who took it gratefully. Though it was big, he still wrapped it round his small frame and tied it tightly so it wouldn’t fall off.

“And how’d you end up bendin’ over for these bastards?” Kenny chuckled. “Never woulda branded you the type to sell your body, Lee.”

“That’s not what I was doing,” Levi grunted, wiping some more blood off his face. “My friends in the scouts were captured by Horst… I traded myself for their freedom. But I was going to escape. I wouldn’t stay here.”

“Sure,” Kenny shrugged. “I don’t really care to hear your sob story, dumbass.”

Levi shot him a glare, “Then don’t ask questions.”

The two of them had what you would call a strained relationship. Levi hadn’t seen Kenny since he’d abandoned him, and he wasn’t exactly thrilled to see him now. Levi didn’t even understand what Kenny was to him - his father? A relative? Or was really just a friend of his mother’s like he’d always said when Levi asked questions.

“You’re lucky I don’t blow your damn head off,” Kenny glared back.

“You said that already,” Levi replied, strolling past Kenny and out the door.

Kenny grabbed him back the back of his collar and dragged him back, “And where do you think you’re going? Did I say you could go?”

Levi looked over his shoulder to scowl back at Kenny, “What? Am I your little prisoner now?”

Kenny gripped the coat collar tighter, “Perhaps. I could get a pretty penny for ya if you’re so experienced, shall we say.”

Levi frowned and whipped around, gripping Kenny by the neck and slamming him into the wall, “You would never.”

Kenny kicked Levi’s legs out from under him, and Levi fell to the ground before Kenny grasped him by the hair and tugged him to his feet. Levi winced in pain, squirming and struggling in Kenny’s hold.

“I know quite a few noblemen who would give me good money for you, runt,” Kenny snapped. “So whaddya got that’ll make me let you go?”

There was always a damn price. That’s just how things were with Kenny. Levi wriggled in Kenny’s grasp, groaning in some pain. His stab wounds were still healing, and being stretched out on his toes like this wasn’t making his stitches feel entirely great.

“I… I have money now,” Levi offered, hands on Kenny’s as he tried to pry his fingers away. “I can give you money.”

“I got plenty of that,” Kenny chuckled. “Don’t know if you heard, but I got my hand in quite a few places.”

“Then what the fuck do you want to sell me for?!” Levi growled angrily.

“For the fun of it,” Kenny grinned evilly, finally letting Levi’s hair go and letting him fall to the floor.

Levi grunted in pain, holding his chest where his stitches were, “You… You fucking bastard.”

Kenny smirked, “Love you too, kid,” before he took the butt of his gun and knocked Levi out.

Levi groaned, opening his eyes and looking around. Where am I? He wondered briefly, before realizing he recognized the place. He was just outside the gates of the military grounds for the scouts. His head was pounding, and he didn’t know how he’d gotten here. Had… Had Kenny been fucking with him? Had he told Levi one thing and then done another by bringing him home? Levi wasn’t sure - he could never tell with Kenny what the man was going to do, what the man had done. He was a mystery.

Levi whimpered when he felt a hot substance pooling in the front of his shirt. His shirt was becoming soaked with blood - one of his stitches had torn open on the journey back somehow. Levi grunted as he began to crawl towards the gates, seeing two guards standing in front of them chatting and shooting the shit.

“Help…” Levi croaked. “Help.”

The guards didn’t hear him at first, but they certainly saw him after a short moment, the figure of the small man crawling towards them, blood trailing behind him. Their eyes widened, and one of them quickly ran to his aid, the other rushing away from the scene to get more help. Levi could feel his heart pulsing loudly, his whole body shaking from losing blood. This certainly wasn’t as bad as when he’d been stabbed, but it certainly wasn’t good either way.

“Captain Smith!” He heard the second guard that had ran off shouting.

Captain Smith… Erwin, Levi sighed happily. He’d get to see Erwin again. He wondered briefly how Erwin was faring, if he was healing from being so brutally beaten three days prior. The first guard was trying to get the blood to stop, holding both hands over the wound and pressing down on it.

His vision was going in and out - he heard a lot of commotion around him. People running, people shouting to one another. Then, he saw Erwin, the magnificent blonde seemingly appearing out of thin air as he came into Levi’s view. Erwin instantly kneeled at Levi’s side, taking him into his arms and hugging him close with tears running down his face.

“Levi,” Erwin was crying. “Oh god. We have to get you to the infirmary. Hange! Get the stretcher, hurry!”

He heard more scrambling - was Hange there too? Maybe Mike was there… and Nana and Moblit… maybe all his friends had come to greet him, Levi thought deliriously. He smiled a little, staring up at Erwin and taking in his features. Part of him, over the last couple of days, had been worried he might not make it out of there - that he might never see Erwin again. But here he as, in Erwin’s arms again.

Erwin was lifting him now, carrying him and placing him on a stretcher. Levi shook his head, reaching his hand out shakily. He didn’t want Erwin to go, didn’t want to lose him again. He was worried if Erwin left his sight, he would be gone.

“Shh,” Erwin whispered, taking Levi’s hand gently. “I won’t leave you, baby. I’m coming with you.”

Levi sniffled, clinging desperately to Erwin’s hand as he was wheeled to the infirmary. Erwin was with him every step of the way. They had to pump more blood into him and redo his stitches, and Levi was miserable the whole time. He felt so drained and exhausted, and so damn emotional. Tears hadn’t stopped rolling down his face since he’d first seen Erwin.

As soon as the nurses and doctors left the two of them alone, Erwin smiled down at Levi, combing his fingers through Levi’s black locks. God, how Levi wanted a bath. He felt so damn dirty and disgusting, especially because of what he’d been through the past couple of days.

“Are you okay, baby?” Erwin asked, concern written all over his face. “This is all my fault. I should’ve listened to you… I just wanted to save you from Horst, but I… I made things so much worse.”

“I’m fine,” Levi muttered, feeling a little sick from all the anxiety he’d been feeling since he’d woken up in such a confusing state. “And don’t apologize. I know you just wanted to help. And… And it wasn’t too bad. Horst is dead, and so is his entire crew of men.”

Erwin stared down at him with wide eyes, “How did you do it? And… what did he do to you?”

Levi bit his lip and looked away from Erwin, unsure how much of that he wanted to share. He was already feeling queasy reminiscing about what he’d let Horst do to him. He could feel it on his skin, could feel it inside him. And it felt awful.

“Baby,” Erwin murmured, turning Levi’s head so they were looking at one another again. “You don’t have to tell me anything. You’re safe here now. Horst is dead - nobody’s coming after you. I’ll protect you.”

Levi sniffed and scratched an itch on his nose, still avoiding Erwin’s eyes even though they were now looking at one another. Levi appreciated Erwin’s sentiments, but the man could never know the things he’d gone through just to protect Erwin and his friends. Erwin couldn’t protect him. In fact, it was Levi’s job to protect Erwin, not the other way around, so Levi didn’t get why Erwin was so insistent on protecting him all of a sudden.

“Do you need anything?” Erwin wondered. “A tea, perhaps?”

“A bath,” Levi sniffled. “I just want a bath.”

Erwin frowned, “I’ll tell Mike to bring the tub in and we’ll fill it with warm water for you, okay baby?”

“Okay…” Levi breathed, barely above a whisper. He couldn’t look Erwin in the eye. He felt a little ashamed over what he’d done the past few days; felt like it was his own fault for putting himself in such a situation.

“I love you,” Erwin pressed their foreheads together, stroking Levi’s cheek gently. “I love you so much, Levi. You don’t know how happy I am that you’re home. Mike and I were just readying our horses to come back for you when you showed up.”

Levi nodded, finally staring into Erwin’s deep blue eyes and seeing the concern there, “I love you too, Ervy.”

Erwin pulled away to go get Mike, and the two of them drew a bath for Levi, Mike dragging the tub in while Erwin went to retrieve some buckets of warm water from the tap outside. Mike pulled the tub into the center of the hospital room, not looking at Levi. Levi knew the man was a little awkward when it came to serious conversations, and Levi didn’t blame him - this was a sensitive topic for sure.

Mike cleared his throat and stood up straight once he’d placed the metal tub, coughing into his hand, “Ahem. Levi… thank you.”

Levi could feel himself blushing a little, not having expected the gratitude, “O-Oh… it’s no problem.”

Mike looked up at Levi, “I’m serious, Levi. We were all so worried about you. Erwin especially. I thought he was going to lose his mind without you here. And… And if you want to talk to someone about what happened… you can always come talk to me.”

Levi frowned and nodded, watching Mike leave the room to help Erwin with the water. The two filled the tub, and Erwin helped Levi out of the bed, taking off his hospital gown and gently unwrapping his chest now that the bleeding had stopped. Levi hid his body against Erwin’s, not wanting Mike to see him. Normally, he wouldn’t have cared, but he was feeling particularly vulnerable right now.

“Mike,” Erwin said, noticing Levi’s timidness. “Can you give us some privacy?”

“Of course,” Mike replied, heading out once he’d put the last bucket of water in. He shut the door behind him, and Levi breathed a sigh of relief, pulling away from Erwin.

He hobbled over to the tub and lifted his leg, placing a foot in and sighing at the warmth that surrounded his skin. Finally, he would get to be clean. He placed the other leg in and began to sink down into the tub, sighing contently once he was all the way in.

“Let me wash you,” Erwin offered, picking up the scrub brush and beginning to lather soap onto it.

“N-No,” Levi instantly rejected, surprising even himself. “I’ll do it.”

Erwin simply nodded in understanding, not bothering to argue. He seemed to realize Levi was in a sensitive state, and didn’t want to disturb him. Erwin handed him the soapy scrub brush, and Levi began to scrub at his skin gently, reveling in the feeling of getting to clean himself.

But even as he scrubbed, he still felt dirty. He could feel the days-old cum on his skin, inside of him, the sweat and spit of the disgusting man who had taken him over and over again still tainting his skin. Levi scrubbed harder, needing to get that feeling to go away.

He continued to scrub all over his body until his skin was turning red, and even then it didn’t stop him. Erwin had been busy folding up Levi’s hospital gown and putting it on the chair before he noticed what Levi was doing.

“Levi!” He gasped as Levi broke skin, blood beginning to seep out of the place where he’d scrubbed too hard too many times. “Levi, stop it! You’re rubbing yourself raw!”

Levi shook his head, jerking away from Erwin when he tried to take the brush back, “No! No I… I’m not clean yet! I’m not… I’m not clean!”

Erwin frowned, reaching for the brush again and snatching it from Levi’s hands successfully this time, “Levi, you’re bleeding!”

Levi shook his head, frantically reaching for the brush and letting out a choked sob, “I’m not… I’m not clean. Erwin, please. Give it back. I’m dirty… I’m dirty!”

That was all he could handle, all he could say before he burst into tears. He wasn’t sure what had him so emotional. He’d been through a lot the past couple of days, but it had all been his own doing. It’s my own fault, Levi thought miserably.

Erwin dropped the brush to the ground and enveloped Levi in a tight hug, not caring if Levi got his clothes wet. Levi gripped Erwin’s shirt tightly in his hands, letting out sob after sob as his shoulders racked up and down. He was shaking, and Erwin just held him while he cried, stroking his hair and cooing things like, “Oh baby… baby. It’s okay. You’re not dirty, baby. You’re safe now. He can’t touch you anymore.”

“It hurts,” Levi sobbed. “It fucking hurts.”

He wasn’t even sure what he meant by that. Sure, his chest where he’d been stabbed physically hurt, but it felt like it was more of an emotional or mental hurt he was talking about. He hadn’t been able to process his feelings in the moment, and now he was feeling them tenfold.

“Oh sweetheart,” Erwin whispered against his hair. “I’m so sorry, baby. It’s all my fault. I won’t let anyone touch you again.”

He sniffled, trying to stop his sobs, but the tears just kept coming. Erwin rubbed his back gently, pressing kisses to the side of his head and sighing into his hair. Levi knew that Erwin probably felt awful about what had happened, but he didn’t really blame him.

“Erwin,” Levi hiccuped, wiping his eyes. “Please… don’t say those things. It’s not your fault, I… I told you to go. I told you I was going to handle it.”

Erwin kissed his cheek, “I still feel awful. I’ll never let you get hurt again, baby. If Horst was still alive, I’d strangle him with my bare hands.”

For some reason, that didn’t make him feel any better. He only cried harder, quivering in Erwin’s arms. Erwin nuzzled their heads together, trying to soothe him, “Baby… oh, baby… my poor little one… my poor sweetheart…”

Levi sniffled and wiped his tears on Erwin’s shirt, “Ervy… will you help me dry off and take me to bed… to your bed?”

Erwin nodded, pulling away from Levi and holding his face in his hands, “Of course, my love. I’ll do anything for you.”

Erwin helped him wash his hair and then lifted him out of the tub. Levi stood while Erwin aided him in drying off. He left to go get Levi some pajamas, and Levi walked over to the mirror on the wall, staring at himself in its reflection. He thought he looked so scrawny and ugly - what the hell did Erwin see in him anyway?

Erwin entered the room again, smiling at Levi examining himself, “You look so gorgeous, darling. Here, I brought you your night clothes.”

Levi crooked an eyebrow, trying to see what Erwin was seeing, “I… I think I look ugly.”

Erwin frowned, walking over to him and standing behind him, holding the pajamas in one hand and using the other to wrap around Levi’s waist. He placed a kiss to the top of Levi’s head, “You are the most beautiful person I’ve ever met, Levi. Your hair… your face… your body… it’s all perfect to me. Even your scars and blemishes - they’re perfect.”

Levi blushed and smiled sadly, “Your really think so?”

Erwin nodded, resting his chin on top of Levi’s head and examining the two of them in the mirror, “I know so. Now let’s get you in your pajamas.”

Levi nodded, taking the night clothes from Erwin and starting to pull them on. Once they were on, Erwin carried him bridal style down the hall and out of the infirmary, to his quarters on the other end of the campus. Levi didn’t care who looked at them, who giggled and whispered when they saw them like this. He just wanted to stay in Erwin’s arms forever.

Erwin carried him to his bedroom and lay Levi in his bed, pressing a gentle kiss to Levi’s forehead. Levi smiled a little, watching Erwin get changed into his pajamas as well before he locked the bedroom door and went to climb in next to Levi. Levi felt safe as Erwin drew him close.

“I love you,” Erwin whispered. “Are you feeling a little better?”

“I love you too,” Levi replied. “And… And I kind of am… I want to talk about it I think.”

Levi knew that he couldn’t keep all this inside. He’d always done that when something traumatic happened, but no longer. He had Erwin now, and he could share with Erwin what was going on; what he was feeling.

“Go ahead,” Erwin murmured, rubbing soothing circles in Levi’s lower back. “Take your time.”

Levi couldn’t look at Erwin. He rested his chin on Erwin’s shoulder and began to quietly explain, “Well… as soon as you left… he made me ride him. And from there, he was just… insatiable. It was… It was…”

Levi cleared his throat, sucking in a deep breath. Erwin encouraged him by pressing a kiss to his cheek. Levi continued, “It was horrible… I… he didn’t care whether I was sore or bleeding or…”

Levi had to stop. He couldn’t breathe. This was too much for him to talk about. Erwin could sense that, and pressed a gentle kiss to Levi’s forehead, “You don’t have to talk about it now, baby. Just give yourself some time to process everything. It’s okay.”

Levi nodded, wiping at his tearful eyes, “Can… Can we stay in here all day tomorrow? I don’t want to do anything.”

Levi knew Erwin had a lot to do, and he felt a little bad asking for this favor, but it was what he really wanted. Well, what he really wanted was still to make love in Erwin’s bed and cuddle all night, wake up next to one another in the morning. But given the state he was in from being at Horst’s place, that wouldn’t be happening for a little while. He needed time to recover, to process, like Erwin had said.

“Yes, baby,” Erwin instantly gave in, holding him tightly. “We can stay together all day tomorrow, and the next day if you need it. I’ll cancel my meetings and give my work to Hange and Mike. They’ll understand.”

Levi nodded, sniffling and clinging to Erwin’s night shirt, “Thank you, Ervy.”

“Anything for you, baby,” Erwin whispered.

“Will you… Will you tell me a story, Ervy?” Levi asked. “Any kind of story… I just like to hear your voice.”

Levi could see Erwin blushing, but the blonde cleared his throat and nodded, beginning to tell Levi the story of a king and his knight, who he ended up falling in love with. Levi sighed contently and closed his eyes, soon passing out to the sound of Erwin’s soothing voice.

“You’re not going without me!” Levi shook his head, crossing his arms over his chest. He was resting in Erwin’s bed two days later in the morning when Erwin had broken the news to him: the Scouts were going on their next expedition - without Levi. Levi had been practically aghast when Erwin had revealed it to him.

“Levi,” Erwin sighed. “You’re not coming with. You’ve been stabbed and practically kidnapped. You need rest.”

Levi shot him a glare, “You can’t tell me what to do. I’m going with.”

He pushed the sheets back and began to get out of bed. Erwin was already walking across the room, pushing him back gently into the bed once he was close enough. Levi grumbled and fell back onto the bed.

“You’re not going,” Erwin insisted. “Also, I’m your superior, so I can tell you what to do. Additionally, it’s on the orders of Commander Shadis, and you can’t go against his word. So just lay down and rest, okay?”

Levi was furious as he sat back on the bed, huffing and pulling the covers back over himself. He was thoroughly annoyed that everyone was fussing over him like this. He was fine. His wounds were healing quickly, and he’d mostly gotten over what had happened with Horst - well, that wasn’t true, but he wasn’t going to let it keep him from going on this expedition.

He knew that if they went without him, something bad was bound to happen. He had the instincts to protect Erwin and the others - without him, how were they going to protect themselves without him?

“Levi, everything’s going to be perfectly fine,” Erwin sighed, sitting on the edge of the bed. “We went on missions before you, and we’ll go on missions without you from time to time if you get injured or sick. So just put some faith in us, alright?”

Levi grumbled swears under his breath, “I’ll try. Just… Just be careful, Erwin. You tend to get a little cocky out there, and I won’t be there to save your ass.”

Erwin leaned over to kiss Levi’s forehead, “I’ll be careful, don’t you worry. I’ll come back perfectly fine, and you’ll see you can trust me, Levi.”

Levi scowled, “It’s not that I don’t trust you, Erwin. I do. It’s just… I worry about you. A lot of things are out of your control, and you can’t foresee things happening like I can. You could get seriously hurt.”

Erwin frowned, pecking Levi’s lips, “I’ll be safe, baby. I’ll be extra careful, okay? I promise I won’t get hurt.”

“You can’t promise me that,” Levi grunted. “You don’t know that it won’t happen.”

Erwin sighed and stood up, “Baby, you can’t worry about things that haven’t happened yet. They might not even happen at all.”

Levi rolled his eyes, “Look, don’t baby me. Just go. And… And come back, okay?”

Truthfully, Levi was just terrified. He didn’t want Erwin to go not only because he was worried Erwin might get injured, he was also worried Erwin might not come back at all. He watched Erwin smile sadly down at him before he headed for the door.

“I’ll come back, Levi, don’t you worry,” Erwin promised. “Just remember: I love you.”

“Love you too,” Levi mumbled, still very grumpy and irritated by this entire situation.

He wanted to sneak out again, get on his gear and go along with them, but he knew he couldn’t do that again. Shadis had been furious when he’d found out Levi had snuck out of his hospital bed and subsequently gotten captured by Horst. He wasn’t going to piss off the commander a second time.

Levi watched Erwin gather his things, delivering one last kiss to Levi’s lips before he headed out for the expedition. Levi stayed in bed, tearing up almost as soon as Erwin left the room. He didn’t know why, but he felt a serious sense of dread in his stomach, anxiety building the more time that Erwin was gone. He knew it was going to be at least a week until he saw his love again, and he was going to be sick with worry that entire time; he could just feel it.

Levi spent the week trying to stay occupied: deep cleaning Erwin’s room, reading books, drinking lots of tea and trying to relax. But it was difficult to relax when he felt like something was going wrong on the other side of the walls where the expedition was taking place. He’d been sick to his stomach from the moment Erwin had left, and he went to bed most nights crying himself to sleep from how worried he was.

When the Scouts finally returned at the end of the week, Levi was ordered to wait in his room for some reason by Shadis. Levi could feel that sense of dread only getting worse. Erwin had died, he was sure of it. Just from Shadis’ order; he knew it must be true. His whole body shook as he sat on the edge of the bed, waiting for someone to come into the room and tell him the horrible news. He felt completely numb, unable to even cry. He should’ve done more; should’ve done everything and anything to prevent Erwin from going, and now he was likely dead.

There was a knock on the door, and Levi quietly spoke up, “Come in.”

The door opened, Mike entering the room. Levi’s throat closed up, and he couldn’t breathe. Mike was going to tell him. He was going to say it: that Erwin was dead. Levi could feel it. He could feel the emotions welling up in his chest.

“Just say it,” Levi sniffled. “Just fucking tell me he’s dead.”

Mike raised an eyebrow, “What?! Erwin’s not dead, Levi… he just got injured.”

Levi’s heart sunk into his stomach. At least if Erwin was dead, he wouldn’t be suffering anymore. Levi was angry, furious, that Erwin hadn’t kept his damn promise that he’d be alright. He was more furious at himself, though, for not being there to save him from that fate.

“How bad is it?” Levi asked heatedly, getting up and starting to pull on his shoes. He hadn’t planned on leaving his room, thinking Erwin was long gone and knowing he would have to mourn. But now that he knew Erwin was alive, he was going to go give the bastard a piece of his mind for getting hurt when he’d told Levi he would be fine.

“His left leg is broken,” Mike replied. “He’s in the infirmary. Doctors say he’ll make a full recovery, but he’s going to be on the mend for quite some time.”

Levi grumbled swears under his breath, pulling on his military jacket and pushing past Mike, “Which room is he in? I want to see him.”

Mike quickly followed him down the hall, “Levi. What are you so pissed for? It’s not like Erwin can help getting hurt.”

“He promised me he’d be fine,” Levi grunted angrily. “Now what room is he in?”

Mike sighed heavily, “The first door on the left when you walk into the infirmary. Don’t be too hard on him, okay? He was already really worried about me telling you.”

“He fucking should be,” Levi growled, heading out of the captains’ quarters and storming towards the infirmary.

Levi threw open Erwin’s door, seeing him sitting up in bed with his leg in a cast, eyes wide and terrified at the sight of an angry Levi in his doorway. Levi slammed the door shut behind him, scolding, “You fucking promised, Erwin!”

Erwin opened his mouth to speak, stuttering, “I… I… I’m s-sorry, Levi. I didn’t-”

“What happened?!” Levi asked, crossing his arms and staying by the door.

“Erm…” Erwin cleared his throat. “Titan almost got me. I fell off my horse and broke my leg trying to get away from it.”

Levi’s eyes widened slightly. So Erwin had been close to dying. Levi was so angry he didn’t know what to do with himself. But the anger was turning into emotional turmoil, and he felt the rage dissipating into a large emotional swell in his chest. He felt the need to cry all of a sudden, though he was trying hard to hold it back.

“Levi,” Erwin tried. “I know I promised. I’m sorry, I really am. I should’ve listened-”

“Shut up,” Levi whimpered, rushing towards Erwin and enveloping him in a hug. “Just… Just shut up.”

Erwin gasped in surprise, but soon hugged Levi back. Levi hadn’t realized how close he’d been to losing Erwin, and standing in front of him, it was all too real. He felt the tears rolling down his cheeks as he pressed his ear to Erwin’s chest, listening for his heart beat. Thump, thump, thump. Levi sighed in relief, a sob welling up in his chest that he finally had to let out. He buried his face into Erwin’s neck, breathing in his scent. He smelled clean; they must’ve bathed him when he’d gotten back from the expedition.

“Oh baby,” Erwin whispered against his skin. “Don’t cry. I’m here, okay? I’m sorry I got hurt… but I’m here. I’m not leaving you.”

Levi wanted to tilt back his head and wail at that. He’d been abandoned by so many people over his lifetime, and here Erwin was promising not to do that same thing to him. Levi’s shoulders racked with sob after sob, clinging to Erwin as if letting him go meant Erwin might slip from reality.

“I’m not going anywhere,” Erwin reassured him, stroking his hair gently. “I’m sorry I scared you.”

“I should’ve fucking been there,” Levi sobbed. “I should’ve fucking been there!”

“Baby,” Erwin frowned. “You can’t blame yourself for this. It’s not your fault - and it’s just my leg. It’ll heal.”

“But… But you almost died,” Levi choked. “You almost fucking died, Erwin. And I couldn’t live with myself if you’d died out there without me - if I hadn’t at least been there to try and save you.”

“But I didn’t die,” Erwin reminded him. “I didn’t die and I… I tried hard to keep my promise. I was so upset when I broke my leg. I was thinking of you every step of the way, and I knew you’d be upset with me when I got back.”

“I’m not,” Levi sniffled. “I’m not I’m just… I’m upset with myself. I should’ve fucking been there to save you.”

“Levi,” Erwin sighed, tilting Levi’s face up so that they were looking at one another. Levi could feel that his eyes were red and puffy from crying, tears still streaming down his face. He didn’t like being in this state, but he didn’t mind so much that Erwin was the one seeing him like this.

“Levi,” Erwin repeated. “You can’t always be there for me. I know you want to, but it’s just not possible, baby. You were hurt, and there was no way you would’ve been able to come on that expedition. So don’t blame yourself.”

Levi sniffled and rubbed his eyes, nodding a little. He believed what Erwin was saying, but it was hard not to blame himself still. He felt awful, feeling as though he’d let everyone down by not being there to save Erwin from getting hurt. But if Erwin was telling him not to blame himself, then he’d try not to, even if it was difficult.

~A Month Later~

The two sat in Erwin’s bed, both still in somewhat of recovery mode. Erwin’s leg was still in a cast, and Levi’s stab wounds had mostly healed by this point. Levi was snuggled up to Erwin while Erwin read a book, and Erwin’s free hand was wandering now, grasping at Levi’s plump ass and making him gasp and squirm.

Levi and Erwin hadn’t had sex in a long time now. It’d been before the incident with Horst, as Levi had needed time to recover from that before he would allow Erwin to kiss and touch him again. Last week, they’d gotten as far as Erwin jerking Levi to completion, and Levi giving Erwin a blow job in return. Now, Levi felt as though he was ready. He was still on a mission to fulfill that dream of making love in Erwin’s bed and waking up next to him the next morning. They hadn’t gotten to do that yet, and Levi was hoping for it every moment of every day he spent with the blonde.

“Erwin,” Levi blushed, clinging to Erwin’s shirt. “Are… Are you…?”

Erwin kept his eyes on his book, skimming over the page before turning it, his free hand still on Levi’s ass, “Yes, baby. Take down your pants and I’ll play with you.”

Levi was a little too eager for this, and he shimmied out of his pants and boxers, pulling them down around his ankles and tossing them onto the floor. He’d pick them up later. Levi eagerly snuggled up to Erwin again, and Erwin put his fingers to Levi’s mouth. Levi instantly sucked them in, groaning as he covered them in saliva with his tongue. He knew this was about to be good, and something about how Erwin was still completely focused on reading his book was turning Levi on all the more.

Erwin removed his fingers from Levi’s mouth and found his way to Levi’s hole, rubbing at the little thing before starting to push a wet finger inside. Levi gasped and moaned, face flushing red with pleasure as Erwin continued to push his finger in. It’d been so long since Levi had had anything inside of his hole, and Erwin was so good at fingering him.

He felt Erwin coaxing at his walls, and Levi fisted his fingers in Erwin’s night shirt, whimpering and reaching back to hold one of his cheeks open for easier access. Erwin hummed in appreciation and pushed and pulled his finger in and out now fully, the slow drag and burn causing Levi to moan into Erwin’s chest.

“Shh,” Erwin cooed, turning the page of his book. “You’ll be a good, quiet boy for me, won’t you?”

Levi whined and nodded, pushing back against Erwin’s finger as it stretched him open. Erwin shortly added a second finger, curling them right into Levi’s prostate, which had him gasping and covering his mouth to prevent himself from being too loud. He braced one of his feet on the bed to get a better grip on the situation, rocking back on Erwin’s fingers as he shakily pulled his hand away from his mouth.

Erwin pressed into his sweet spot once again, and Levi let out a loud whine, unable to help himself. Erwin sighed and turned the page, continuing to read as he scolded, “Levi. You’re interrupting my reading. Please, keep quiet.”

Levi nodded, squirming and wriggling back on Erwin’s fingers. He was so fucking horny, and the way that Erwin was barely paying him any mind while fucking him with his fingers so brutally was a major turn on. Levi was wrinkling Erwin’s shirt in his fists as Erwin pushed in a third finger, spreading them open a little to stretch his hole out. Levi was whimpering and letting out choked little ‘ah’ noises, trying his best to stay quiet like Erwin had asked.

“E-Ervy,” Levi whimpered. “P-Please… I… I can’t-”

“Hush now,” Erwin teased, fucking into his sensitive spot at a steady pace now. “You can. I’m going to keep reading this chapter while I finger you, and you’ll be cumming around my fingers by the time I’m done - but only when I say you can. Do you understand?”

Levi nodded, groaning into Erwin’s shirt as the pleasure built in his stomach. He could barely hang on, face flushed and mouth agape, drool staining Erwin’s white shirt as he bounced back on Erwin’s fingers. It just felt so fucking good, and Levi knew he was going to cum by the end of the chapter.

Erwin kept fingering him for the next ten minutes, and Levi kept moaning and mewling pleasantly at the feeling. Every time he was getting close, he would let out excited little gasps, and Erwin would stop moving, taking that feeling away from him and leaving his orgasm to dissipate. The third time he did this, Levi let out a frustrated sob, sniffling and quivering around Erwin’s fingers. He just wanted to cum so badly.

“Alright, Levi,” Erwin finally said. “I’m on the last page. So you can cum.”

Levi moaned, gasping out, “Th-Thank you. Oh god, thank you!”

He rocked back hard onto Erwin’s fingers, which were fucking him at a brutal pace now. Erwin finished the chapter and put down the book, grasping Levi around his shoulders and hugging him close so that he couldn’t move. He could only take what Erwin was giving to him, and he practically screamed as he came hard across his stomach and chest, and Erwin’s shirt. Erwin continued to finger him through it, leaving him twitching and in an over-sensitized state. Erwin slowly let him go and pulled out his fingers, wiping them on his already-dirtied shirt.

“Ervy,” Levi sighed, feeling a little spent already but wanting to continue. “Ervy, I… I want to make love now. Can we make love?”

Erwin smirked and nodded, starting to undo his pants. Levi could already see that he was incredibly hard, and he licked his lips eagerly as he watched Erwin take out his fat cock, the blonde thumbing at the precum on the head before spreading it over the rest of his cock.

“Come sit on it, baby,” Erwin murmured. “I’m gonna help you ride me, okay?”

Levi whined and nodded, already starting to get hard again as he climbed atop Erwin. Erwin couldn’t really do much anyway with his broken leg, so this would be the best position for them to fuck.

Levi took ahold of Erwin’s cock and positioned it, starting to sink down as he let out a loud moan. Erwin groaned as well, holding onto Levi’s thighs and rubbing them gently to soothe him from taking such a stretch. It was always so much every time, but Levi enjoyed every second of it.

“Fuck,” Levi whimpered. “Oh god.”

“Good boy,” Erwin cooed. “Come on, baby. Go ahead and start moving.”

Levi groaned and started to bounce carefully, trying to get used to the feeling of being full after not having it for so long. Despite all that had happened to him, he wasn’t think about any of it. He was only focused on Erwin and how good it felt to be connected to him like this again.

Erwin rolled his hips up into Levi, sighing contently and looking up at Levi with a loving smile, “Such a beautiful baby. I love you so much, precious.”

Levi moaned and tossed his head back, a total sucker for the praise. He kept riding Erwin, feeling the man’s cock twitching inside him, which was so erotic to him. He started touching at his own nipples before moving to touch Erwin’s, rubbing at his pecs as he bounced up and down on the man’s cock. Erwin sat up a little more, grasping Levi around his shoulder blades and tugging him into a hug, burrowing his face into Levi’s shoulder.

“God damn,” Erwin swore, bucking his hips up into Levi and causing the shorter man to gasp and groan. “So fuckin’ pretty. How’d I get so lucky?”

“Oh god,” Levi panted as he clung to Erwin, “You… You handsome bastard. With your fucking gorgeous hair and your monster cock.”

Erwin couldn’t help but chuckle at Levi’s words, but he’d meant them. Erwin was so handsome to Levi, and Levi was happy that he was beautiful to Erwin. He’d never been beautiful to anyone, not like how Erwin saw him.

He continued to ride Erwin like there was no tomorrow, tossing his head back with a moan as Erwin began to suckle and kiss at Levi’s collar bone. He’d never been so in love, he’d never felt this type of connection with another human being before. And it felt so amazing that he was crying, tears running down his cheeks as Erwin helped by thrusting up into him.

“I love you,” Levi sobbed. “God, I fucking love you.”

“I love you too,” Erwin gasped. “Oh fuck, say it again, baby.”

“I love you!” Levi cried, cumming between them as he felt Erwin cum at the same time, filling him up from the inside. The two stayed there for a moment, Levi stroking Erwin’s hair sweetly while Erwin stroked Levi’s back as they tried to calm their breathing.

They slowly removed themselves from one another, collapsing back on the sheets. Levi cuddled up to Erwin, sighing contently. The two drifted off to sleep shortly after cleaning themselves up, Levi in Erwin’s arms resting on his chest.

Hours later, the sun shone through the window, and Levi’s eyes fluttered open as he realized it was morning. He looked over at Erwin, who was still sleeping next to him. Levi smiled. His one wish had finally come true.